A spiritual delinquent
The difficult part is that almost no one will ever tell you the truth. Everyone hides indulging in their facades. So if you want to find out the truth about anything real, you need many times to be a skilful “thief”; yes, you have to be incredibly astute and awake to see through all the standard deceit, and steal the information people are not willing to share.
With no particular reason, many times I found myself feeling guilty. I just couldn´t figure it out why…Where was this depressing guilt and bad conscience come from? All this seemingly unfeasible struggle for an answer came abruptly to an end…Some days ago, out of the blue, I identified the answer I long had searched for:
Of course, I was tormented by the fact that people and society compel me feel and live like a thief – I have to steal in order to find the true state of matters – , this was ther reason for my feeling guilty.
Truth is well guarded everywhere you look. Virtually, every time I dared say the truth, in many peoples´eyes, I felt like a trespasser and a law-breaker. They were not pleased, to have their lies revealed. ” We didn´t ask you to uncover our frauds.” So, tacitly, every single time when you express truth, you are constantly a thorn, a destroyer of the adopted order.
This present society, our so-called adopted order is build on terrible falsity, a ludicrous imposture.
I just tell you this in order to make my point:
I am an honourable person, transparent, straightforward, friendly, easy-going, interested in human nature, interested in dialogue, in sharing real life experiences. Despite that many were attracted to get to know me, now I understand why most of them were afraid and avoided contact with me:
Because, they feel unconsciously that I can expose their petty lies, that I don´t buy their stupid feigning, that I do not fit in their petty expectations, that I cannot take falsehood in order to survive…
I cannot live and I refuse to live in lies. If uncovering lies will make me even more lonely, then I am prepared to pay this high price.
Life is a great adventure, a great cosmic tale – shall I compromise my dignity living in falsehood and stupid hypocrisy to please society with its idiotic fraud?
If deducing and uncovering the truth is a punishable offense, then ok…I am a spiritual delinquent.
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About julienmatei
I feel un inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced.
These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity...
Due to fear and prejudice we prefere to see only "the offcial " truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give...
We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or...we can take the trouble to LIVE...
THE NEW has no definition yet...
Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blogg is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation...finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness..
I loved your truth. I am working on the same stuff. It is difficult work to uncover ones’ own warts. Today, I am working on the thought of emotional honesty and emotional responsibility to myself and others. To push the like button…why? How consistent are my responses to all things that come in front of me? The like button forces a certain death in me. Life is full of variables. I tend toward consistency to feel safe by having my life in order. The like button is another way of conditioning to keep society in its herding pen. At least, this is what is coming up for me right now. I have been upset about the like button. It brought out alot of stuff for me.
I am looking forward to what comes up for you. What is strong today for me is how to develop intimacy in the virtual world with others…how are we all connecting in this virtual space…on what level and dimension?
You know…we function outside time and space really…. Our soul is beyond time. Real communication happens on that level.
Telepathy is also a fact. The more truthful and transparent we become, the more incredible things occur and are being revealed…
I have many things to say in addition to this – the emotional disturbance this fatuous dealing with likes and emoticons has created in most of young peoples´ souls
people these days are really scared to speak truth. they try to hide it for thousand and one reasons. i too dont like lying, then….
……then ?
Humans are very sensitive. Truly sensitive.
precisely. and there can be really sincere reasons behind hiding truth.
…sincere reasons you say. Such as…?
What is a “sincere” reason.
Can you define this labeling of reason? Thank you. Inquiring deeper