The difficult part is that almost no one will ever tell you the truth. Everyone hides indulging in their facades. So if you want to find out the truth about anything real, you need many times to be a skilful “thief”; yes, you have to be incredibly astute and awake to see through all the standard deceit, and steal the information people are not willing to share.
With no particular reason, many times I found myself feeling guilty. I just couldn´t figure it out why…Where was this depressing guilt and bad conscience come from? All this seemingly unfeasible struggle for an answer came abruptly to an end…Some days ago, out of the blue, I identified the answer I long had searched for:
Of course, I was tormented by the fact that people and society compel me feel and live like a thief – I have to steal in order to find the true state of matters – , this was ther reason for my feeling guilty.
Truth is well guarded everywhere you look. Virtually, every time I dared say the truth, in many peoples´eyes, I felt like a trespasser and a law-breaker. They were not pleased, to have their lies revealed. ” We didn´t ask you to uncover our frauds.” So, tacitly, every single time when you express truth, you are constantly a thorn, a destroyer of the adopted order.
This present society, our so-called adopted order is build on terrible falsity, a ludicrous imposture.
I just tell you this in order to make my point:
I am an honourable person, transparent, straightforward, friendly, easy-going, interested in human nature, interested in dialogue, in sharing real life experiences. Despite that many were attracted to get to know me, now I understand why most of them were afraid and avoided contact with me:
Because, they feel unconsciously that I can expose their petty lies, that I don´t buy their stupid feigning, that I do not fit in their petty expectations, that I cannot take falsehood in order to survive…
I cannot live and I refuse to live in lies. If uncovering lies will make me even more lonely, then I am prepared to pay this high price.
Life is a great adventure, a great cosmic tale – shall I compromise my dignity living in falsehood and stupid hypocrisy to please society with its idiotic fraud?
If deducing and uncovering the truth is a punishable offense, then ok…I am a spiritual delinquent.
About julienmatei I feel un inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced.
These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity...
Due to fear and prejudice we prefere to see only "the offcial " truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give...
We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or...we can take the trouble to LIVE...
THE NEW has no definition yet...
Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blogg is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation...finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness..