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2012/12/12 Leave a comment
“You challenge me to write at length…” I told her with a blink of an eye that
apparently didn´t get through.
“No challenge…” she answered, “writing is not a competition friend…it is just art, pure and simple, an inner expression brought out for all to see through their own eyes.”
There was nothing but an innocent joke…really. Who can challenge the real creating process …?
Inspiration – as you know – is a fact.
CERTAIN PEOPLE OPEN DOORS BY THEIR MERE PRESENCE.
The resonance of a single word said at the right place…
When I said “you challenge me” I meant you might inspire me.
Opposites give birth to each other.
Color and the colorless, Night and Day are each other´s fulfilling complement,
swiftly following each other in perfect equilibrium, never struggling to annul each other – like humans do…
Imagine if people understood this grand and beautiful truth…
2012/12/12 4 Comments
Women are the ones that tend to put so much emphasis on the romantic version of love and yet in my mind really have no idea how to find and keep that kind of love. When I have “loved” a woman I have done whatever I could to make her feel comfortable, cared for, important and loved. In return, because of their inability to exercise self-control, inability to be insightful into the way they act…starting expecting more from me than I was willing to give. In the end I was labelled as lazy and uncaring…and a misogynist. Today I am happy to be labelled as whatever someone sees fit. I have found someone who views and respects the action of love as I do and in the process I am free to speak out honestly against anyone that twists their version of love to suit only their own self-gratification.
I do hear your words.
What I can say is that our modern crisis is the direct outcome of women being totally
fucked up – that is, more or less estranged from whatever “natural femininity” entails.
There are undoubtedly some very few interesting women on the planet, but all in all,
woman today has become a terrible nuisance. A disaster:
Vanity, vanity, vanity in unthinkable forms, emotional poverty, – that would be rather appropriate to say total absence of emotions, – surface and only surface again in different versions, stupidity and fussiness, and above all a total disinterest for passion, decency, generosity, beauty, poetry or real love. Women seem to live and nourish themselves with their constant revenge on man. Man is to the only one to be blamed and hold responsible for their failing as women…So incredibly redundant…So unspeakably mean and meaningless…
Their only interests is to dominate, control, manipulate and punish man. Punishment is
The Recurrent Theme in everything.
They are so immensely boring, bloated and self-infatuated, humorless, huffy and fatuously predictable…They think they are entitled to get everything, but they give nothing in return…I have really wondered many times, how man puts up with average woman…
The women I cared for and loved, wanted to destroy me. Literally. They couldn´t stand my honest and innocent love. Of course, I admit I fell the victim of my own projection choosing a certain type of women..but still…I came to the conclusion that they cannot stand genuine feeling, purity, dignity, decency and straightforwardness.
They despise all these things, generally preferring all kind of absurd and twisted relations with uncouth men lying to them, demean and make them suffer. This type of savage man keeps them in “constant surprise.”
A girl I met confessed openly that if I am supposed to reach out to her, I have to literally lie to her. She was not at all interested to hear any truth…She at least admitted that…
Man has his portion of guilt in all this, but again, how can we be different when Real Motherhood has become nothing but a forlorn myth…?
Am I a misogynist speaking so bluntly?…Maybe I am…But that´s what you are called if
you dare call things by their real name…
Most men in different categories of age are aware of this. Nevertheless, I am so utterly amazed that there are so few who have the guts to express the truth about this.
Just to mention that I was fortunate to find a fairly loving, open, sincere, natural and stable girl by my side.
One in a million…
Great to read your comment. Hope we can continue the dialogue.
2012/12/07 4 Comments
He is a very unusual man, he emanates light, a numinous presence.
I can feel he is somewhere deeply disturbed in his soul…Hard to establish what it is, what trauma of sorts…
In spite of his blatant talent, he feels fragile and very insecure sometimes, he is not rightly “constellated”.
That´s why, he can be at times gratuitously stubborn, yes, even secretly aggressive and unpredictable.
But again, he will know himself as the great man he is, if he manages to outwit his ego…
2012/11/18 Leave a comment
So how can silence/emptiness/nothing be of benefit? For me it gave me the chance to hear my inner voices more clearly. I would patiently listen to the negative voice within trying to make me feel bad, stupid, guilty for something I had done. Then I chose not to listen to it. If I wasn’t silent enough to really hear and be aware of the inner critic trying to undermine me, I could not have responded to with a more loving, constructive voice. It was just there fueled by others, fear and ignorance. And now it only whispers unconvincingly. The first step in fixing the ‘problem’ was being aware of it. I needed to hear it.
So there in the silence and stillness I found my answers, once I stopped looking so hard. The Masters continue to bring me silence.
All problems originate from inner imbalance, simply put, problems are energetic disturbances on a very subtle level – a distempered kind of frequencies.
Most people run away from themselves, being totally out of touch with their inner essence, chasing bitterly to fulfill their sense of inner incompleteness outwardly. In plain language, not only that they are not aware of their inner person, but they refuse vehemently to stop and listen to themselves. They don´t know, and don´t want to know what is happening within them inwardly. “If I hide from it, it will surely fade…” – incredibly “astute” philosophy of life…
Not only they don´t fade, but not being witnessed and factually acknowledged, these inner ruthlessly chaotic frequencies become in due time autonomous processes, increasingly taking control of people´s life, totally undermining their mental sanity and health…
So basically the disease of our so-called modern age is the inability and disinterest to look inside, heed and witness the inner chaos.
So there comes the whole significance of Silence. To dare to be silent is the readiness to accept your inner person.
Only in silence one can be aware, distinguish, directly confront and stop the proliferating negativity. It is a hell of a toilsome process…- ask me!…
Only our readiness to be silent is the antidote to these undermining negative voices – as you call them -
voices fueled both by our and others´ fear and ignorance.
So it is: we need to diagnose and acknowledge our inner ailment if we want to recover…If we fail to recognize the problem, stubbornly fleeing and ignoring it, be certain that in due time, the inner disorder will become actual physical disease.
Only when we start being aware, the problems will “whisper unconvincingly”.
2012/11/11 2 Comments
Been “away” for a bit but this weekend am back. Was busy with other tasks – but also the old tug of evading the real.
So happy to see that you are still at it. Relentlessly. Excellent.
“Stay right where you are…” You trigger the thought - where else could I be except perhaps in some delusion or lost in looking forward or back? “Dig where you are.” To be rooted in the present moment. Yes.
Before I start writing again, I wanted to come to the places of the great writers, artists, and thinkers I’ve connected with in past months. This place is surely one of my most cherished haunts.
Good to be back.
So good to hear from you Tom.
You just gave yourself the answer. Utterly speaking, there are “other tasks”, as long as we evade from The real.
When we understand that evading brings no actual benefit, we realize that every most minute detail or “task” IS THE TASK – a task derived from grateful and undivided presence – Love and Wholeness…
So it is: “where else could I be except perhaps in some delusion or lost in looking forward or back?” Yes, we can successfully “deal” with the past or future only when rooted in the present. We have to bring everything in the highlight of Now…
In this insight, even delusion becomes reason for joy, trust me on that!
I am so grateful for your honest and amiable appreciation. It means quite a lot!
Thomas´ blog: http://onlyhereonlynow.com/
2012/11/02 Leave a comment
“I hear, I know, I just don’t know what next step, just now… Only now.”
It is great to hear that YOU HEAR. Mindful listening is real knowledge. I don´t know either what the next step is.
What I know is that it´s vital to keep the flame of communication alive. Change will happen due to this our readiness to acknowledge and back one another.
To reciprocate each other – to have that distinct blissful sense of being given back to oneself. Listening attentively to each other, heeding each other, share… In that mutual interest and trust a New Inspiration and New Implementable Ideas may blossom.
Isn´t this the most wonderful definition of love? I give yourself back to yourself. You give myself back to myself. We give ourselves back to ourselves. What a great joyful mystery! We grow through our readiness to see “the other”, to see each other through the eyes of Love not through fear and prejudice.
Who are you in the other´s nearness? Who do you become in that encounter…?
Don´t be afraid!
Just know: the other is not a threat, the other is your unknown potential he or she awakes in you.
So don´t avoid “the other”, cause you´re avoiding you.
2012/10/26 Leave a comment
The only courage that is demanded of us, is the courage for the most strange, the most singular, the most inexplicable, that we may encounter. Mankind has in this sense been cowardly, has done life endless harm.
The experiences that are called visions, the whole so-called spirit world, death, all these things that are incredibly akin to us, have by daily paring been so crowded out of our life, that the senses with which we could have grasped them are atrophied, to say nothing of God.