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“I am tired of feeling shit. I am tired of living in anxiety, fear, depression, sadness, a mess in my head.
I want to be happy. I want to live my life to the full! I only have one chance at this and I’m pushing 30 and I don’t want to be miserable on a daily basis.”
I recognize your experience in mine.
I do not want in any way to indulge in vapid speculation.
Let´s just say that the very basis of depression is cleavage. A rupture in our soul.
An inner constant conflict which perpetuates itself through more conflict.
You are depressed, anxious, sad – it is a fact. On the other hand,
YOU WANT TO BE HAPPY. You want, of course, to live “your” life to the full.
You don´t want to be miserable on a daily basis.
And yet that´s what you are JUST NOW. Sad. Fearful.
Please, try to follow!
You see, if you try to be happy, that is, to be something that YOU ARE NOT JUST NOW,
you do nothing but enhancing and creating even more your inward conflict.
Don´t you have enough conflict as it is…?
Can you see that by wanting “to become” something you for the time being are not,
you punish yourself…?
Again, how can we ever become something that we are not just now?
This is pure fiction, and yet, this is the societal fiction we have been conditioned by.
So stop punishing yourself, stop creating even more pain for yourself!
ACCEPT YOUR PRESENT PREDICAMENT. DON´T TRY TO CHANGE!
CHANGE COMES NATURALLY once you have learned to stay with What Is in
affectionate presence. You need to caress your wounds instead of flagellating yourself.
You need your own compassion and loving interest!
So be it!
2013/03/16 Leave a comment
NOW is all there is.
Despite that being said millions of time, you still don´t get it, as you think you understand.
DON´T THINK, JUST READ!
There is no such thing as “past” and “future”.
Whatever you do, you end up in Now, there is nowhere to go.
Past and future are created by your fear, by your insecurity. Yes, it´s nothing but a lie, an escape mechanism, it is your fear of dealing directly with this naked Now.
YOU ARE THIS UNKNOWN, IMPONDERABLE AND IMPLICIT MOMENT.
Understand that your fear has created all these measures, like time, space and distance. Eventually, these are all your inventions, nothing but hallucinations of your fearful mind. They don´t exist in the “real” reality.
SO STOP HALLUCINATING!
If you want to get free, you have to get out of the prison you´ve invented, you just have to have the guts of questioning this counterfeit: your Mind.
2013/03/05 1 Comment
The most difficult undertaking is to be able to see “in between”.
In between meaning that unaccountable space between one thought and another.
This inexpressible space is Fear…- always lurking in the unseen.
Fear is the distance between one action and another.
It is the space between two words, between two thoughts,
two breaths, two shades.
It is the inaudible reality between two musical tones.
Fear hides in smallest details; in those details we most often don´t pay
any attention to.
Subsequently, recognizing and dealing with Fear is nearly an inhuman task.
It´s almost dealing with the formless behind form.
For that, we need an incredible swift and clear perception – it requires too an
enormous courage, mindful agility and openness.
Direct and immediate understanding of Fear´s intrinsically illusory nature,
is the beginning of a real life.
Cause only when Fear is understood, can Love arise.
2013/02/07 Leave a comment
In few seconds, I saw her fear like never before.
I realized in great awe, that I was afraid of her fear.
I was afraid to be punished for her inability to face her fear and be in her now,
in tuned with herself, with Who She Really Was.
She didn´t manage to be who she was in reality.
She invariably put the blame on me, for not being able to be herself.
I was in my turn, and tacitly agreed to be, a kind of secret victim of her inner drama. We were each other´s distance to ourselves…
We were each others´s victim.
Was she acting out my fear to myself…? Was I reinforcing her and my own distance?
Was her punishment my own response to my own shunning of my fear…?
2013/02/07 4 Comments