An older post

I will repost this as I find that questions here are worthwhile considering:

“Why do I keep writing here? God knows…

Does it make any difference? Maybe it does…may be it doesn´t. Who knows really…?

All these told or untold stories of mine – do they create some kind of echo? Do they inspire you? Do they mean something for you?

There are moments, when even uttering or writing a single word is excruciating pain.

THE INEXPRESSIBLE PAIN OF BEING DISCURSIVE, at the same time nurturing the wish to create some kind of intelligible sense…Where is to find a common denominator in these seemingly irreconcilable aspects?

Life doesn´t make sense. It doesn´t obey our logic. But in the midst of all this pervasive circus, there is a kind of secret “coherent” relation between things, between people, yes, between you and me.

Thinking in logical terms, what is the chance of you and me communicating? Almost none…And yet, despite our so different life-stories, there is something within us, some kind of secret, ineffable bond that is beyond logic, beyond – what we may call it – daily comprehension.

Life is a series of interruptions, that´s no question about that. Despite this baffling truth, we struggle to create order, purpose, continuity.

BUT OUR STRIVE FOR ORDER AND CONTINUITY REINFORCES OUR HYPOCRISY, as it based on fear.

It is a hard task for me to put in words what THE SOUL WHISPERS  but my reason doesn´t fully understand.

There is no such thing as “after”. After or before what?…Is there a point of reference really? And if there is, WHAT IS IT? Where is it to be found objectively…?

 

The surmise of a fix point of reference is the beginning of Suffering with all its derivatives: judgement, comparison, conditioning, neuroses.

This “point of reference” is called Ego. The ego perpetuates itself through memory, through “time”, through effort,  desire and frustration.

The paradox is that this very moment is neutral. This moment doesn´t have a memory, as every moment is a new breath. The Ego refuses vehemently to know this.

Now, no relation between different aspects can exist unless there is a point of reference. Ego is exactly this: an imaginary sum of different sequences of false relations. I repeat – ego is “false relation” as there is no such thing as a fix point in real life.

If the starting point is “nonexistent”, whatever you do is false. The attributes of the ego are Desire and Illusion. These are based on Fear, nay, they are fear. Fear is the vehicle through which Ego maintains itself, clinging to a non-existent reality which tries to be real.

Now, I am aware that for those of you who never approached things from this angle, what I say here may sound like Chinese.

But those ones who have come so far, are probably ready to have read this.

To summarize: all of you know that everybody is trying hardly to be someone, to dominate the other, to arrive, to find security, to struggle desperately for identity. Everybody is in war for his limits and possessions.

Our logic is built on these millennial delusions. Inside the illusion of struggling for Being, there is no place for Love, Joy, Beauty, Meaning, Friendship or Wisdom. In this way of living there is only place for reckless competition, suffering, war and destruction.

Almost all our creations bear the legacy of this huge existential misunderstanding.

It is probably ripe time for you and me to abandon this outdated paradigm, this” daily comprehension”, to understand the structure of our limited Logic and raison d’être, confronting these timeless illusions in order to take a new step toward that secret ineffable place beyond Fear, where Love dwells.

It is about time…

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