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“Peace isn’t fictional place. Neither are your words. I feel exactly what you are saying though. I don’t know if the things I am doing are mistakes, or not. I don’t know if anyone understands that. I know your questions have helped me. Hear that! It would be nice to get some honest clear feedback though at times.
So whatever you choose, thanks for the words.”
I share the same feeling:
“I don’t know if the things I am doing are mistakes, or not. I don’t know if anyone
Maybe it´s wrong not to be totally selfish, interested only in your petty and inane undertaking.
Maybe it is wrong to hope for a new inner and outer space, some kind of new context
of Openness, Love and Free Unbiased Communication in which we all partake,
and from which we all get nourished.
Maybe it is likewise naive and wrong to believe in generosity, beauty and abundance, when everyone else is engaged in rancor, animosity, ugliness, harsh competition, struggle for resources and frustrated egotism…
I for one, cannot live with this “right” outlook on life. Not only when it comes to this,
but generally, I prefer to be “wrong” but alive.
We have to learn the hard lesson of being really honest with ourselves.
Naked honesty as to WHO WE ARE AND WANT TO BE.
If we are to remain unhappy – because we are afraid to give something, hiding behind
our ego´s walls -, or happy, giving freely of ourselves, tearing down our limits.
Yes, it is about Where we stand towards each other, in generosity or stinginess.
Without real feedback we can´t go further, it´s really pointless.
YOUR WORDS MOVE ME. You speak from a place of honesty inside of you. Yes, I do hear you…
I hear the same kind of thoughts in me too…
For the record, I have to tell you that your comment here, is among the most worth-while words I ever received – again, because you speak from your heart.
For the one living in constant war with life, Peace is fiction, something to be shunned… For the one choosing equilibrium and true emotion, my words – and yours too – may be a pointer to What Is…
2012/11/23 3 Comments
Old World Charm Vintage:
Mirrors of Encounters has obviously a great amount of followers who are interested in what you have to say, I’m sure this connection will still be there even if you do change your tonality, or how about a second blog to use in a different way maybe ? I am no master to be trying to give you advise though, but thought I best try with something as your sounding a little distressed.
Don´t let yourself be deceived by my tone. No, I couldn´t say I was “distressed”, on the contrary,
I felt great peace while writing those things, but at the same time some kind of frenzied fervour, of being totally fed up with both my own and others hypocrisy.
I am not a sham and neither an ingratiating hypocrite, but I kind of felt that I am beginning to be one,
if I am to be afraid of other people´s resentment and fear to hear the raw truth.
BEAUTIFUL AND INTELLIGENT LIES ARE ATROCIOUSLY DANGEROUS. We need to cut deep into the infected sore, if we are going to heal.
Most people I encounter don´t want to heal. They want to remain diseased, it is their identity
The question is: DO WE WANT TO HEAL?
If we want that, than we have to accept that Truth hurts terribly in the beginning.
When it comes to a second blog, I´ve been considering that myself. I´ll see – at the end of the day, I want to have everything under the same roof…
If I were to have a second blog, what would be “A DIFFERENT WAY” in your opinion…?
- Don´t take Illusion for truth, because it is called Truth (julienmatei.com)
- Only when iIlusion is demystified, LOVE can arise. (julienmatei.com)
- How shall I continue with Mirrors of Encounters? (julienmatei.com)
- My statement for today (julienmatei.com)
2012/11/01 3 Comments
Richard wrote in his post:
Last night I had a dream which wasn’t a dream. I woke up in the middle of the night. Everything was silent. While I tried to fall asleep again, I started a slight meditation. Just observing my breathing. Somehow the word “love” was entering my mind and it wouldn’t leave. It was so particular present that I stopped to watch my breath and concentrated on this word instead. It came to me that my face began to smile more and more. I couldn’t stop it … and I didn’t want to as well. My whole body was full of peace and inner joy.
Have You ever had an experience like that?
Those moments come usually at night. I find myself not knowing anything any longer, it feels as if Knowledge and Thought are suspended…Only that unnameable Presence whispers, everything else has withered…
Very well put…as usual. I really appreciate that. But what I appreciate even more is the content of what
you’re saying. I think I could get addicted to that kind of experience. And when I think of it right now I can resume this feeling. Not as intensive as it was then, but it is still there.
Julien, can you create this feeling on purpose? If so: how do you do it?
Whose purpose are we talking about…? Who wants to feel well and secure…? Give it a real thought, or give it no thought at all… – I think you know the answer…
Look what our friend Krishnamurti says:
“The ‘how’ to keep the mind pliable is not the problem; the ‘how’ is the search for a method, and method can never make the mind innocent; it can make it methodical, but never innocent, creative.”
The secret to your question lies in un-creativeness.
That´s the hardest part: to “learn” to un-create.
It is not a linear process, it is not a “task”, a skill to learn…
It is about recognizing Attention in inattention…I am not playing with sophisticated words or parables…
It is about this very Second now… – learning to un-know…
It is not about deliberateness, thesis or antithesis, effort or non effort. If I was to use words,
it´s like we have to learn how to empty the mind Now, to learn to die each and every moment.
When you die to concept, thought, desire and deliberateness, The Second arises in all its
depth and innoncent beauty.
This unnamable second is like a breath…boundless but never recurring…as it is eternally new…
It is neither easy nor complicated – IT IS IMPOSSIBLE to know it rationally…
So how can we learn to deal with the Impossible…? That´s the hardest question…
- The trap of experience (julienmatei.com)
- You need an innocent mind (julienmatei.com)
- Some words of wisdom (julienmatei.com)
- Anatomy of Silence: Krishnamurti (heartflow2012.wordpress.com)
- Jiddu Krishnamurti: The Nature Of Hurt (disquietreservations.blogspot.com)
- Krishnamurti: Aloneness – Clear of All the Rubbish (heartflow2012.wordpress.com)
2012/10/30 Leave a comment
Our everyday drama, with all its afferent conflicts and frictions, is undoubtedly true. It is “real” insofar as we are totally caught up in it. We are the characters and the victims of our individual and collective story.
We are entirely identified with this mad story, unquestioningly giving it our fully unreserved attention.
It seems that we are utterly unable to see beyond our conditioned and narrow-minded perception.
WE ARE THIS PREDETERMINED FALSE PERCEPTION, indeed, that´s what we choose to believe we are…
Well, this vicious conditioning, this demented fight with everyone and everything – I repeat, this apparently unique and “real” everyday reality -, is nothing but our twisted perception of our conditioning …- an illusion, and nothing else.
I know what I’m saying now is hard and painful to digest, especially as we have invested ourselves totally
in this illusion – it is the kind of Life, we know so far.
As the water to fish, so is Illusion to us – the very air we breathe.
If you see and understand this clearly, this very comprehension will set you free.
When Illusion is seen as illusion, in that ineffable moment you will know
what Life is about…- a neutrally and joyfully pulsating second here and now, which immediately reveals itself to you.
You´ll simply feel it…
Dis-identifying from Illusion, will bring initially an unbearable vacuum and frustration,
but if you don´t give in, you will soon know that indescribable happiness and inner peace
which is the timeless and true Self.
It is the true and only reality, candidly simple yet all-pervading…
The incarnated Word – essence inexpressible in words …To gradually know the true
nature of Self, you don´t need to be a monk or a hermit…
You just need to have the courage and desire to see Illusion as illusion …
2012/08/26 3 Comments
The hardest thing to grasp that our culture never speaks about is this:
The sense of ”I”, our very identity is intrinsically fragmentation. What is fragmented – namely our I-ness – is, and leads invariably to struggle, conflict, resistance.
What is fragmented struggles actually to wholeness – wholeness is in fact the goal for all our human endeavours, the “final” destination for al our strife and aspirations.
All manifest existence, us included, strives back to One, to wholeness, that´s the hardest paradox to fathom.
If we look without prejudice, everything we know is basically the outcome of our sense of identity. Identity trying to defend, preserve and commit itself, identity trying hard to thrive, through struggle, conflict, friction. What else can we find at the end of this road other than suffering?
What is identity? What is at the root of our very Identity…? Fear. Fear in all its infinite variations. Fear of being or not being, fear of not succeeding, fear of not reaching the Ideal, fear of this or that. To cut it short, Ego is separation, ego is fear, ego assumes an identity built on fear. At the root of every hardship, idiosyncrasy and disease is Ego.
If we manage to understand the nature of the ego – separation – we come to understand fear.
Ego being fear, whatever it undertakes is bound to fail.
Ego goes from illusion to illusion, from failure to another failure. EGO CANNOT WIN – even when it “succeeds” it is failing nevertheless.
EGO IS ABSENCE. Absence struggling hard to attain Presence, or Wholeness.
Fragmentation can never grasp wholeness! Suffering can never grasp joy or peace. Suffering is isolation, and the only way of coming out of separation and isolation is going through the illusory nature of the ego, letting go of the false idea of identity.
Once you let go, you realize that existence lives you swiftly and seamlessly. Once you feel the joy of being one with existence, you are whole and don´t need to aspire, instead you act joyously. Letting go of Ego is like travelling from Absence to Presence.
Presence can never fail!
Presence is discernment, the death of illusion and delusion.
Presence is Wholeness, presence is totality second by second, – homecoming!
2012/08/26 10 Comments
As I was coming out of the subway yesterday, I had something like a revelation, stopped in the middle of the street and wrote this:
When illusions die, it feels really like homecoming…there is nowhere to go as you are home everywhere in every moment, second by second…In those peaceful moments you kind of “don´t exist” anymore, but instead, “you are being existed”…I am aware that this sounds mighty strange, but when the usual sense of I-ness has vanished, you feel so incredibly real…
Desire is gone, – what an immense relief – …craving likewise, you just look at Life and smile in some kind of amused equanimity, participating in the Cosmic drama, but secretly knowing that you´re not entirely part of it – as if you´re both witnessing and being witnessed…and none of it…
There is no effort anymore, no choice, but a rather “strange” unutterable state of “non selectiveness” which is totally beyond “No”… – very weird what I say now …it feels as if “No” doesn´t really exist – but a state which is intrinsically a magnificently pervasive YES…
I was somehow baffled to realize that in this “non abiding”, there were no goals left…That goes against all the ubiquitous stupid “goal-setting” everybody takes as the Sacred Word. What goal, when Goal had reached you seamlessly, and you could reach out to it, easily accomplishing whatever you set your mind to…
This blessed grace stayed with me for half an hour or so…till my former I-ness returned again…
Alas, my ego…which still outwits me, still playing tricks on me…
2012/07/03 1 Comment
There are some very valuable topics I´ve been intending to write on. Joy,
is one among them – but I kind of didn´t find the right “touch”.
So instead of waiting for the adequate formulation, which can be a terrible waste of time,
I thought I´d better write certain posts, even if they feel like loose drafts. Sometimes, it seems that even the syntax is superfluous as long as the message is vivid and true. After all, it is not the form, but the content which needs to come out.
In fact I prefer a happy and clever illiterate than an insipid, infelicitous scholar.
Joy is creation.
Joy is center.
Joy is always Now.
Joy is timeless.
Joy is energy.
Joy is freedom.
Joy is always perfect timing.
Joy is success.
Joy is knowledge.
Joy is Truth.
Joy is Peace.
Joy is inspiration.
Joy is gratitude.
Joy is openness.
Joy needs no question as It is the answer to all questions.
Joy is holding no belief.
Joy is health.
Joy is purposeless, but the Mother of all-purpose.
Joy is merry encounter.
Joy is egoless.
Joy is tranquillity.
Joy is permissive attention.
Joy is elegance.
Joy is generous.
Joy is spontaneous and swift.
Joy is Presence.
Joy is simple.
Joy is pure and never discriminative.
Joy is patient.
Joy is perseverance.
Joy is limitless space.
Joy has never any doubt, as it possesses nothing.
Joy is togetherness.
Joy is non abiding.
Joy is limitless.
Joy knows no fear.
Joy is egoless.
Joy is eternal.
JOY IS LOVE
2012/06/20 4 Comments
You hear everybody complaining that life is short.
When we express this “truth”, are we talking about life or is it about our short perception of life?
I will tell you – life feels short cause we don´t really live it. WE ARE SO BUSY TRYING TO LIVE, SO WE END UP NOT LIVING.
Everybody works hard to be someone, to be effective, to seize the moment, seize opportunities, to be this or that. There is never enough time for the one living in falseness and in greed.
How can you be other than “short” in this ghastly race?
Yes, life feels short for the one not living his real purpose, for the one chasing Being through obstinately fighting against fear.
Fear means shortage. Fear creates time, and the more you try to win time, the less time you have, the more frustrated you become.
I will tell you without any doubt: LIFE IS LONG, YOU HAVE ALL TIME IN THE WORLD!
Life feels long when you stop chasing yourself, when you calm down, when you breathe with trust, when you learn to feel at ease, being simple, feeling gratitude.
A couple of hours or an afternoon can feel eternally long and meaningful when you are yourself, when you live your purpose, when you let the certainty of Peace and Joy overflow your senses.
Peace makes time wither. Every movement and gesture you make being in Peace feels a blessing.
Let go of this or that. Be yourself, be simple! Rest assured all is well!
Rest and Trust will show you that Life is long, that you have all time in the world.
2012/05/15 Leave a comment