2013/02/13 1 Comment
2013/02/01 2 Comments
When we fear life, we are always short of time, and being short of time, means not pursuing our real vocation.
Most people are afraid of life.
Always choosing out of fear – which they call necessity -, they never find their real vocation.
They never learn anything for real.
The knowledge of our true self is the key to inner content – your absolutely right! Thus, we become generous and giving, knowing that we accept ourselves and therefore others. Its simply loving.
In order to know what Self is, we need to seriously consider the Illusion of Necessity.
Now I am aware that the following questions are quite out-of-place, but give it a thought:
IS LIFE A MATTER OF NECESSITY? IS IT NECESSARY TO LIVE?
Linger a moment on this without fear.
Ultimately the answer is no – contrary to what is ubiquitously said,
LIFE IS NOT ABOUT NECESSITY.
Seeing this, we let go of the illusion of survival, and instead start To Live.
True Living is knowing implicitly the Why of your existence – and discovering the Why,
you will also naturally know your Vocation.
Yes, True Living is true Loving – as Love has nothing to do with Fear, Illusion or Necessity.
- To Live Is To Know (julienmatei.com)
- You will never find your vocation unless you give up illusion (julienmatei.com)
2013/01/29 1 Comment
Really, life today has become a living hell.
Chaos, stupidity, conflict at all levels, neurosis, inner and outer disorder, psychic discomfort, unspeakable inner turmoil, spiritual and material shortage, greed and stinginess, ugliness of the worst kind taken for beauty, mendacity, hypocrisy and pretense, hollowness, absence of sense.
What is worst, is the blatant absence of genuine relation, total disinterest for the other, indifference to “whatever is not mine”, indeed, MAN HAS BECOME TOTALLY AUTISTIC.
It is hopeless: whatever you do, you feel you cannot reach the other, nothing impresses,
no matter how articulate, skilful or subtle you are.
What is conspicuous, is that Emotion has become tabu.
As Life is Emotion, it is obvious that MAN WANTS TO BE DEAD.
“Death is my virtue, I don´t want to feel, I want to be numb, left alone.
If you interfere and dare make me feel,
awake my conscience, I´ll severely punish you”,
that´s the tacit message.
All this stuff that humanity is on the verge of great transformation is kindergarten story.
Unsubstantiated New Age gibberish for gullible fools.
Let´s face it: IT IS BAD.
When you have the guts to dispassionately see and admit how things really are, when you
lucidly grasp that Man is nowadays morally and spiritually bankrupt and insane,
then and only then, you can be ready for A REAL CHANGE.
You realize that you are ready to give up any sense of man-made authority.That means that DESPITE the bankruptcy of this distressed age, you can see THROUGH and BEYOND.
To see “through and beyond” means to have the guts of facing and assuming this factual state,
leaving behind “humanity” and accepting your loneliness, and establish A REAL RELATION TO INEFFABLE SELF.
Oneness is beyond belief, conformity or authority.
Oneness is your courage to give up your false humanity.
TO BE FREE IS TO SACRIFICE YOUR FALSITY!!
Yes, once you have established a veritable relation with “the Unutterable”,
YOU CAN BE HAPPY DESPITE THE WRETCHEDNESS OF THIS WORLD.
In this imperishable relation to Self, even if this world would fall apart, you would still remain unaffected, composed and well.
2013/01/24 5 Comments
“There are people who bring up your more embarrassing moments when they feel like you’re getting “too confident” because, God forbid, you threaten their dominance.“
This quote is so good and I recognize it from personal experience:
I once had a “friend” like that, such a pompous bastard.
Secretly he wanted to be a musician but realized he had no real talent for that…He eventually became a therapist in psychosynthesis. So being jealous of my musical and other artistic skills, this frustrated man would do everything to keep me down, playing superior, manipulating me through guilt and bad conscience.
I WAS SO ASHAMED OF HIS SHAMELESS INTRUSIONS IN MY LIFE…Yet, throughout many years, due to the fact of being rather lost and lonely in Sweden, never really having had the chance before to know what true friendship is about, I was putting up with this guy´s subtle or gross abuse, hoping that sooner or later, he would become a better man.
Such a delusion. Alas…- I was so gullible.
It´s a bitter fact but, with few exceptions, people never “improve”- they never change,
remaining the same throughout their whole life.
Thanks God, I understood this truth eventually, and stopped any contact with this man…
The question is:
HOW CAN YOU EVER BE FRIEND WITH SOMEONE WHO ENVIES YOU DUE
TO INFERIORITY COMPLEX…?
That´s the problem with people with low self-esteem – and they are not few in this
world - they feel urged to dominate you in order to compensate their lack of talent and self-worth.
2013/01/12 Leave a comment
Sometimes I wonder about what I put out on these “blogs” – but then I end up trusting that the right ones will find what is for them – the others will pass by unaware…
I was thinking about this earlier tonight:
There is no answer for the one who doesn´t ask.
The ones who “see”, are the ones who DARE to pose (appropriate) questions, and these
are the people we write and eagerly address to…
I take it again: unless you question there is no answer to get…
The questionless will pass unaware…
2012/12/16 11 Comments
I find Thomas Ross ´post incredibly moving and meaningful. Here it is:
My expectations explode against hard reality.
I end up not where I am supposed to be.
Nothing unfolds according to plan.
Just once, could things happen as they are supposed to happen? Just one, could what I seek come my way as I imagined?
In Zen we say that all things exist in disorder but against a background of perfect harmony. I have tried in so many ways to see and feel that harmony. I have even pretended to grasp it. But I don’t. I feel no order or harmony - just swirling and cruel chaos.
Where is this harmony? How can it be mine?
All this grief and questioning and doubt, I now understand, arise from one simple mistake. I keep supposing that I can control what will come. I imagine that when I do X today, then Y will happen tomorrow. I seek to impose order upon the disorder. And when I fail, as I must, I rage against it all.
The harmony, I know, is right there. Waiting for me. The key to that ecstatic existence is right here. Simple acceptance. Undiluted, sure, steady acceptance of all that is and all that I am.
I know these things. And I know that I am moving closer and closer to that way of being. Substituting that simple truth for that simple mistake. To be purged of rage, filled with gratitude and acceptance.
Where are we supposed to be…? WHO is supposing, and above all – WHY?…
Homer put this in a grand manner:
God has bestowed man with Reason, in order for us to understand that It is of no avail.
The Secret of Existence baffles us each step. I do wonder how others seem to get things done according to a plan. Anticipated agenda…- it never works for me. It´s almost a curse, whatever I try, fails.
To be honest, I no longer know WHAT works.
Both “harmony” and “disharmony” must go. Harmony, real unadulterated harmony is the Death of Concept, the thing we fear most…Only that Primordial Silence is The Unwavering Sound.
The impending question is: Can we ever know – that is, have any preconceived idea – what Death is?…
Or are we supposed to simply die to whatever control, expectation and “mistake” entails…?
The kind of Order we seek is neither “order” or “disorder”. It is overwhelmingly irrational.
Mazy. Intriguing. But indefectable.
Our concept of Being always loses the battle no matter how subtle its agenda is…
The hardest lesson is thus, to learn to un-be.
To know means equally to have the guts to “not know”…”Closer” is a vague denomination…There are no degrees as to “nearness” or far. Far is near, near can be far…Fear is near, fear can be far…
You know that very well by now.
Let it be a mistake. “Failing” can be the guide to the unmistakable..
2012/12/14 Leave a comment
“Peace isn’t fictional place. Neither are your words. I feel exactly what you are saying though. I don’t know if the things I am doing are mistakes, or not. I don’t know if anyone understands that. I know your questions have helped me. Hear that! It would be nice to get some honest clear feedback though at times.
So whatever you choose, thanks for the words.”
I share the same feeling:
“I don’t know if the things I am doing are mistakes, or not. I don’t know if anyone
Maybe it´s wrong not to be totally selfish, interested only in your petty and inane undertaking.
Maybe it is wrong to hope for a new inner and outer space, some kind of new context
of Openness, Love and Free Unbiased Communication in which we all partake,
and from which we all get nourished.
Maybe it is likewise naive and wrong to believe in generosity, beauty and abundance, when everyone else is engaged in rancor, animosity, ugliness, harsh competition, struggle for resources and frustrated egotism…
I for one, cannot live with this “right” outlook on life. Not only when it comes to this,
but generally, I prefer to be “wrong” but alive.
We have to learn the hard lesson of being really honest with ourselves.
Naked honesty as to WHO WE ARE AND WANT TO BE.
If we are to remain unhappy – because we are afraid to give something, hiding behind
our ego´s walls -, or happy, giving freely of ourselves, tearing down our limits.
Yes, it is about Where we stand towards each other, in generosity or stinginess.
Without real feedback we can´t go further, it´s really pointless.
YOUR WORDS MOVE ME. You speak from a place of honesty inside of you. Yes, I do hear you…
I hear the same kind of thoughts in me too…
For the record, I have to tell you that your comment here, is among the most worth-while words I ever received – again, because you speak from your heart.
For the one living in constant war with life, Peace is fiction, something to be shunned… For the one choosing equilibrium and true emotion, my words – and yours too – may be a pointer to What Is…
2012/12/08 5 Comments
“Life” is a concept.
We were never born.
We die like wind and live like water.
Our life is the eternal play of form…
There is this Zen story:
The disciple tells the master ” I do not exist”.
In that very second the master harshly punches
the young man in the face asking him:
Is this punch real or not…?
So I ask you now:
Who is writing these words and who is not…?
Who understands them?…
2012/11/30 6 Comments