Another letter to Jane

You can read this post as it is, but if you want a clearer picture of this, you might want to read this first:

https://julienmatei.com/2012/04/28/a-question-to-jane/

“Yesterday afternoon, I went to meet a friend.

We spoke about wishes, desire in general.

That is rather curious – like you, he expressed the same metaphor about the bar of soap. You can´t hold to it too strong, as it slips out of the hand; but if you stretch your palm and let the hand being relaxed, there is a chance one can seize the moment…

It is rather awkward to find words for what I try to say. The nearest I can come with, is that “now” is intertwined with different “nows” from “the future”, that somehow, different “nows” can be condensed into a simultaneous “now-experience” embracing both time and timelessness.

It is something like a film director watching every single shot, but having at the same time the whole clear picture going through every detail.

I  will use again another music analogy – if a play a suite by Bach, every tone has to bear the whole piece, as if the whole piece was condensed in a single second. A tone is Now, but the whole piece becomes some kind of “enhanced now”. It feels that a 15 minutes long composition is contained in a single “now-breath”.

This is a very pragmatic and very fascinating inner process, if I sound like speculating is because I am short of words…

It happens to me quite often that I want something and before I think it, it happens. I could give innumerable examples of this. It´s like I got what I wanted, but I “was not responsible” for my actions, as I didn´t understand what I did.

I don´t know exactly what buttons I push in those moments, but there is some kind of “magic” mechanism, having to do with this “enhanced perception” of now…

It is a similar state like dreaming – when I am in that “magic now” I have the tools to direct and embody energies to get a PRECISE outcome, exactly like a writer or film director does.

It sounds like a terrible hubris, but in the same manner a film director plans his movie, one could deliberately create astounding things in real life.

What I kind of “know”, is that this “enhanced Now” is a powerful tool for deliberate creation.

We can create at will. I am aware that this may sound so unfounded and irrational, and although it seems like a simple delusion, it is a very powerful and fruitful process to unfold.

I would be very grateful for some feed back on this.”

About julienmatei
I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced. These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity... Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give... We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE... THE NEW has no definition yet... Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.

2 Responses to Another letter to Jane

  1. livvy1234 says:

    Let me know what you think!

  2. julienmatei says:

    “We need to stay selfless! Selflessness occurs when we understand the nature of what we call self. It is normal for people to believe they have an individual self, but actually, There is no such thing as an individual self.

    Actually we don´t exist here at all” :)) he says

    I have very often the pervasive feeling that “nothing exists really”…

    But if nothing exists, WHAT EXISTS? WHERE ARE WE REALLY? :))

    The Hindu would probably answer: only Atman exists BUT THAT IS NO CONSOLATION.

    Thank you for sending me this, I studied it thoroughly

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