A night in Hades

Sometimes you feel like you said all you had to say, that actually there is nothing more to add…On my behalf,
just now it feels like that…as if I´ve used it all, I have sourced all the arsenal of my knowledge.
I feel like a hollow man, destitute of himself, helplessly aware that Wasteland is an all too overwhelming and gigantic entity, on which I have no chance of victory.

Wasteland disposes over enormous powers. It has many allies. The higher you come, the more insidious ways it uses to destabilize you. The evil forces are extraordinarily uncanny and shrewd. Under the disguise of “good and elegant”, of “beautiful and benevolent”, “well-behaved and distinguished”, it can easily convince you to open your soul and let the guard down, and alas, when you least expect…bang!!, the monster emerges and attacks in all its vicious ugliness. You may think these are pure phantasies…Bad news, they are not.

However, it can come in innumerable manifestations, it is well versed, it has an incredible repertoire, from incredibly subtle to fierce aggressiveness. It can come as huge fear, disillusion, loneliness,despondency, discouragement, depression, disease. You heard me right: disease is one of the most favourite expressions of evil!

It can even “orchestrate” accidents! it can literally hit you out of the blue from nowhere. It sounds preposterous, but it has happened me many times. The moment you relax too much and you are no longer cautious…bam, there comes the slap.

The worse is that it can come while you sleep. And as we no longer know how to protect ourselves during our night sleep, they can freely enter in our most intimate territory: the soul.

What I am going to say now, maybe for many of you sound like stupid megalomania, but this is a fact:

Inside and outside of me, I HAVE CREATED ALREADY SUCH INCREDIBLE FLOW AND POWERFUL STREAMS OF CLARITY  WHICH DEFIES THE DARK, so these dark forces are terribly displeased.

I repeat, what I say sound absolutely preposterous: I was attacked with such vehemence last night, I thought
I was about to die – yes, it was the worse kind of psychic attack I ever witnessed.
I take the big risk of making a fool of myself, but I have nothing to lose…I feel I have to share this with you.

This is the reality nobody will ever talk to you about. This reality is more “real” than anything else. For sure, average people will laugh you in the face. Fairytales, myths and other science fiction sagas, describe very well this many folded reality of life… Ultimately, despite all evidence, THIS LIFE IS NOTHING MORE THAN A MAGIC TALE, believe me on that!

Goethe wrote all his life about these forces, represented by Mephistopheles. The master understood…

However, yesterday night I felt as the loneliest man on this planet, feeling and realizing what was going on, but having absolute no clue how to defend myself. Who could have believed me, and be with me and support me on that…? I am still very frail after last night, I haven´t yet recovered…

I WOULD NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE INITIATED IN THESE OCCULT MATTERS, someone “serious”, versed in magic, who sees and perceives the gravity of all I have depicted here.

About julienmatei
I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced. These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity... Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give... We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE... THE NEW has no definition yet... Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.

3 Responses to A night in Hades

  1. livvy1234 says:

    I am forwarding a website for you to read in depth. You might find some answers there. The name of the site is called Earthkeepers Raleigh meetup.

    Clan of the Earth Keepers

    Raleigh, NC
    244 Earth Guardians

    I decided to start this group after discovering among native American and other indigenous peoples their tradition of spiritual teachers called “Earth Keepers”. Earth Keepers …

    Next Meetup

    Raleigh Mind Body Spirit Expo

    Saturday, Aug 23, 2014, 10:00 AM
    1 Attending

    Check out this Meetup Group →

    The person who organized the site spent many nights in Hades, too. He is a brilliant person who stepped out of the Wasteland about a decade ago. He is the organizer of the site which hosts various modalities of healing oneself from the Wasteland.

    Do not despair. The spiritual journey is ridden with many frightening elements. Do not fall for any of them. It is the ego trying to destroy your journey. Just watch your mind and emotions…let whatever comes in go out…let it all go.

  2. goldennuggetde says:

    Hmmmm. Sounds pretty severe. I guess it’s your mind and Your Ego which tries to bring You back on the rails to wasteland. It’s rather complicated, obviously. I’d tend to derive it from biochemical reactions like in a dream where there is no graspable central theme.

    Just go back to pure observation even if it’s difficult right now. Observe your Ego and watch it how it tries to convince you that there’s something evil around. It exists only in your imagination. Just let it go.

    Love can never ever be destroyed. And You got friends who love You! Let this shine through You!


    • julienmatei says:

      Really Richard,

      This answer of yours warmed the heart. Tks a lot !

      I am not an occultist you know, but I cannot help considering the fact that “beyond” ego, there are entities – they usually are named “elementary spririts” of lower or higher rank, whose existence can´t be ignored.

      I have studied a lot occult literature before, I have read Immanuel Swedenborg, likewise the Tibetan Book of the Dead, and all of these describe a reality similar to what I write. Believe me, I wish it only existed the ego, reality would be much easier to relate to and handle. I am afraid it is a lot more complicated than we can ever imagine

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