2012/06/30 18 Comments
2012/06/30 3 Comments
There is something within me which constantly steals my joy, many times making me feel down and despondent.
Thanks God, I know that this inner “blue authority” is not to be trusted and yet…it calls itself “me”, it claims to be my only life perception, in short, this energy-stealing thief is very tiresome, as most of my moments are a gruesome “battle” to dis-identify myself from its fraudulent chatter.
It is a very wearisome process, to live in incessant vigilance, not allowing this inner counterfeit to live on my expense. I admit that many times he wins over me.
Despite years and years of sustained inner work, I can´t figure it out what this abysmal entity is. Of course I could call it Ego, this or that, but the fact of the matter is, that putting a name to it doesn´t help me to come to grips with its real nature.
What is this parasite at the end of the day, what is its hidden agenda…? It is quite evident that its food is my distress.
More often than not, it manages to undermine my endeavours, sabotaging me in the most inexplicable ways. Despite my strength, competence, willpower and perspicacity, it outwits me with its cunning dire means.
It has enormous potential at its disposal, really, I witness dumbfounded that despite my persistent efforts, this invisible reality – like a film director – is controlling many times the course of my life, AND I DON´T KNOW HOW TO STOP IT!!!
The big problem is that this state of things is not only “my business and my particular karma”, this hidden reality is also your reality, It is ruling the world, it is behind all conflicts, all trouble and affliction, all destruction and mischance we all go through.
This wicked “world ego” is the sum of our timeless fears, frustrations, guilt, infelicity and misfortunes we refuse to look at.
ME, YOU, EVERY INDIVIDUAL ON THIS PLANET IS DIRECTLY CONNECTED TO THIS PRESENT STATE OF THINGS.
THIS COLLECTIVE UNCONSCIOUS DOESN´T ALLOW ME OR YOU TO GROW, THRIVE AND SUCCEED, NO MATTER OF THE PERTINENCE OF OUR INDIVIDUAL ENDEAVOURS, cause its program is to prevent and discourage whatever great expression in science, art or whatever other field. As long as the ZEITGEIST is the way it is, there are no winners and losers, but only losers.
WE ALL NEED ANOTHER APPROACH!
Do we have the guts to assume this insidious reality and counteract it through our readiness of wise verbalizing and sensible dialogue? I tell you again, this is not the work of some “forlorn” individuals, this is the “battlefield” of our everyday life.
I am grateful about your “likes”. But please take some time and reciprocate my writing here, because WHAT I WRITE HERE, IS ABOUT YOU, ABOUT US.
YOUR RESPONSE MAKES THE DIFFERENCE.
2012/06/29 Leave a comment
I have to say that many times the music of Mozart goes on my nerves. It is too consonant. It is somehow “too harmonious”.
With all due respect for consonance, but consonance without its counterpart, dissonance, is hell. Dissonances are more intriguing, more alive, more interesting than “pure sounds”. When something is “perfect”, what else can you add? Nothing…Thus, Consonance is a dead-end, as it doesn´t point to any further possibilities.
Consequently, whatever is “right” bores me to death. The wrong, the dissonant, the disharmonious is far more interesting and promising than all “unshakable truths” of whatever it is stated as harmony.
Mistakes are many times a blessing in disguise. Mistake – as it is “imperfect” – can point to something more truthful, more real than all endeavours for perfection. The “mistaken” can grow, the perfect can´t, as it is already dead.
Beauty without asymmetry is pure hell. “Perfect beauty” is the nightmare of bourgeois aesthetics which create more chaos and disorder than anything else, as it refuses to recognize the darkness and inherent chaos in all things.
The ugly, the “chaotic” is many times more interesting and alive and expressive than the “beautiful”.
“Perfect beauty” is the perfect expression for a sumptuous Cemetery. Imagine a beautiful, totally flawless woman. If there is nothing wrong with her, an asymmetry or a minor defect, she is nothing more than a magnificent metaphor for death.
Humanity´s nightmare is the pursuing of the “perfect”. “Be perfect as our Father in Heaven”. No kidding?…
What a disgusting and misleading “truth” invented by impotent dorks that has destroyed many peoples´ life. What perfection are we talking about, when if you look closely at life, life is vulnerable and eternally “imperfect”.
Everything real is a dance between chaos and order, between consonance and dissonance. Dissonance creates consonance, and consonance needs its counterpart.
Life is a glorious blend of beauty and ugliness.
Only the dead are perfect, the alive is eternally imperfect!
So I tell you, be imperfect, be alive!
2012/06/29 3 Comments
“I wasn’t aligning with what I wanted and why I wanted it. I didn’t feel confident in being accepted as the true me, which goes a lot deeper than just how I look.”
The hard part is though, to make those deliberate changes on the inside. The difficulty is that our daily logic and approach, don´t really apply in our inner landscape. The inner world is governed by totally different subconscious structures,
which are hard to come to terms with – you want to let go of them, but mostly they don´t want to let go of us.
To cut it short, – the most difficult thing is to make “changes” on the subconscious level, to introduce such a clear message onto it, so it can change its “story”.
For the last 5 years, I have read most of the books of Esther and Jerry Hicks studying them closely; yes, they say many good and valuable things, but – like many other writers on this issue – they never manage to say how to make this internal switch – how to align yourself with your subconscious by changing its program, in order to make it work for you and not against you.
To use affirmations is really of no avail. So what works really?…
What do you think?
2012/06/29 2 Comments
It is not about what I believe about reincarnation – more important for you is
to watch yourself and try to figure it out WHY… – what are the urging reasons
that have you wonder about this topic?
The vital question is – do we speak from inside the topic or from the outside?
“Somehow I can’t divide my ego from my analytical thoughts. This is extremely crazy. I don’t feel any fear with this topic. I just don’t recognize any hints which show me that it isn’t only fiction. So what facts or hints can you tell which make you believe about your own reincarnation?”
What you really say is basically this:
What facts or hints can you tell which MAKE ME BELIEVE ABOUT MY OWN REINCARNATION.
There are no facts or hints to support one or another approach, as long as the idea behind our quest is the urge to find safety. The ego must ensure its survival, isn´t it so…?
If we speak from the outside, we do nothing but feeding the ego, which will for sure interpret, through choosing, distorting and dismissing things in order to create another pointless story, aiming to show its ascendancy, contradicting everything. There is of course no purpose in that, is it?
It is not that reincarnation may be or may be not a fiction, the problem is that EGO IS FICTION.
Now, if there is a real deeper thirst, if to find out about past lives corresponds to an urgent need in order to get a clearer picture of your present context, yes, depending on your readiness, life will give you for sure certain information.
This was my case. The information came to me.
2012/06/28 2 Comments