The pressure of conforming to current lies

Sometimes I know exactly what I want to say and articulate, and yet something within me stops me … preventing and thwarting me, like stealing my words, as if threatening me to constantly keep a low profile, never saying the truth…

Maybe it has to do with the fact that all my life I was tacitly told to obey “the natural course” and keep my mouth shut, and I have internalized this permanent ban in order to survive among these liars…

I have frustrated my natural impulse to express myself naturally and unimpeded, making a habit of not being permissive with myself, not allowing myself to behave and act naturally.

Damn it, this curse is about to end!

About julienmatei
I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced. These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity... Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give... We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE... THE NEW has no definition yet... Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.

4 Responses to The pressure of conforming to current lies

  1. Voiceless in America says:

    Reblogged this on Voiceless in America.

  2. Thomas Ross says:


    I am so with you on this. I want now to live an authentic life and be done with all that crap from before.

    Let’s each stay strong.

    Good post.


    • julienmatei says:


      I am so glad for your feed back! I said it before and I say it again:

      There is no guarantee that what I say reaches out. That is why, I am immensely grateful that my words create resonance within you.

      We are now a handful of people deciding to live an authentic life and do away with crap. Even if we are few, I am aware that this creates a whirlwind of new life which is unstoppable.

      So as you say, let´s each stay strong and “hold” on to the New!


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