Here is the naked truth

I said it before, many times I feel very insecure as I find myself expressing things not knowing if they apply at all, as almost nobody is interested to hear.

Despite the innumerable books, and so-called specialists versed in spirituality or psychology, very few venture into the real Cause, never digging deeply to the core of reality.

So here I am, confronting the things almost nobody wants to admit, things that “happen” to everybody, yet no one wants to approve.

It is hard and terribly unrewarding to undertake this seemingly impossible journey. It feels lonely like hell. Only few have the guts to take the trouble of confronting immediate reality, watching closely and putting the right words to current things.

I feel like I am totally on my own, surrounded by cowards and liars. It is worse than an ice desert. You dig with your bare hands. You try to speak out of the impending state of things, and no one will listen.

“You exaggerate, it´s not so bad” they say. But IT IS BAD… We are on the verge of bankruptcy, if not totally bankrupt already. Not only in economy but in every area of life. WE ARE IN DEEP CRISIS.

The situation is very critical and what it really makes me mad, is that almost no one wants to admit this. Because, this is in fact why things are so bad – WE REFUSE TO LOOK DIRECTLY AT WHAT HAPPENS. They all go ahead with their futile undertaking, without ever looking around comprehending that everything is intertwined – your problem is mine and my issues are yours.

Examples?…I have plenty, but I´ll  just make my point with these two: someone I know said yesterday ” I feel kind of empty, I kind of lost my motivation in life…”Let´s talk” I said amiably, it sounds like a depression.”OH NO I AM NOT DEPRESSED and besides I´m kind of busy”…Of course, he is depressed but he is not depressed…And he was very busy: I saw him later on wandering aimlessly around…

Later on yesterday, I saw a girl, poor thing, she looked as if she had just got released from a concentration camp. I was in complete shock. I swear to God, I´ve never seen before such a flagrant case of anorexia. She looked literally like a skeleton. She sat there with her father at the same spot where I was, pretending all was well. I couldn´t believe my eyes…”Am I the only one to see her predicament…?” I asked absolutely appalled someone sitting next to me.

“OH, THEY ALL SEE ALL RIGHT, IT´S JUST THAT THEY DON´T DARE TO SAY ANYTHING”, came the answer. Don´t we all do the same…?

This girl is a metaphor for our soul. We are all spiritually starved, anorexic and dying, but pretending all is well…

You feel like crying out to people – ARE YOU ALL TOTALLY NUTS…? WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON WITH YOU…?

Malraux put it very well – “either we are going to be religious, or we are not going to be at all”.
So here is the real crisis: YOU AND ME.

The relation between you and me. There can never exist a real relation between us, unless we both OPEN OUR HEARTS, and back each other to a sane relation to Self, to Being. ISOLATION FROM SELF MEANS DISEASE IN EVERY RESPECT! Only through contact with Self, humanity regains its humanity.

We are nothing without contact with Source. Nothing…Only dust, vanity, and superfluous rattling.

If we don´t admit this very reason for our misery and continue with this hypocrisy and these absurd and shameless lies we obstinately hold about ourselves and life, refusing to stand up and expressly claim This Imminent Truth, then we all deserve this dire fate.

About julienmatei
I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced. These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity... Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give... We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE... THE NEW has no definition yet... Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.

22 Responses to Here is the naked truth

  1. Aaron Asphar says:

    You won’t feel alone for long Julian! Yr doing excellent work, but focusing on number 1 is a must – I’m sure you’re doing fine in that regard but I find it imperative to be absolutely free and emotionally open, regardless of the consequences: and any fear barriers crossed. When you do this, something shifts: you magnatize all you need. It sounds like pie in the sky but I promise it’s started happening to me – I read about it happening to others and I was skeptacle, but its the absolute truth. I can’t wait to see how things go for you and for all of us.

  2. julienmatei says:

    Aaron,

    Thanks for your meaningful and encouraging words. It really means a lot – you hear what I say….
    “Focusing on number 1” – can you please tell me what you mean?

    I have no chioce but being free whatever the cost or risks involved, as restraining myself from saying the truth feels awkwardly demeaning and destructive.

    That is a great truth in your words: when we cross the barriers of fear something shifts – we kind of magnetize all we need.

    I would love to hear more about your own experiences about this.

    Best regards Aaron and keep in touch

  3. AndU says:

    Here you are again, not realizing that what you see is not how things are, but how things appear from your perspective. I am that someone you know, and yesterday I wasn’t ready to talk about myself and my situtation. That was the reason that I walk away after I talk to you. I felt that I had some issues that I wanted to confront inside myself and after that then maybe discuss it with a friend to get some feedback. I do feel that there is a big difference between emptiness and depression. One state, is a state of pain and the other is a state without feelings. Yes, you might have thought that I was aimlessly walking around after we has talk. This is not the case. I wanted to talk to you since I felt that I could have been there for you if you wanted to talk about your situation, but I was to full of my own issues that I hadn’t picked that up when we first talked. But since you were busy talking to other people, when I saw you, I did not want to disturb you and your friends. One thing is clear though. You are not that friend that I want to get feedback from when I am seek insight into different issues in my life

  4. julienmatei says:

    Ok,
    This is what I wrote at the beginning of the post:

    Many times I feel very insecure as I find myself expressing things not knowing if they apply at all”

    As I state here, I can never be sure as to the pertinence of my perspective – but since I am not at all interested to be “right”, what I may see can vey well be ” a real point of view”.

    i AM NOT JUDGING YOU – I only saw what I saw… and if you don´t see me like a friend to give you right feed back…Well, I cannot help…We all come and go…

  5. SprinklinThoughts says:

    You are not alone. Look, let’s say that the 144,000 spoken of by the prophet are alive today. Then that means there a quite a few out there – but it also means that there is only 1 in about 41,700. If this makes no sense to you, that is OK… you are not alone.

    • julienmatei says:

      You say this yourself

      “Most everyone seems to either wander from the ‘nut’ of the matter or they over complicate and/or obfuscate, if not outright mislead or, worse yet, lie. The sad thing about this is that it is not necessary at best and is deadly – as in misunderstandings lead to war – at worst…

      (…) I believe that our current situation is serious or, perhaps more accurately: dire.”

      Yes, it feels quite tough many times, as enlightening people about their lies and self-delusions can make them irritated or downright furious…You just don´t know anymore how to handle this collective neurosis…but receving this kind of heart-warming comments like yours feels really encouraging…I am not alone after all…

  6. onestreetshy says:

    I agree to most of what you say. Even if I myself often feel my problems are my problems, I know, and remind myself that really, everyone’s problems are part of the universe; a universe we all live, breath and are a part of – therefore, each problem is my own as well.

    That said, each joy is my own joy as well. Each act of grace, each sign of faith is part of me, part of both of US – Everyone.

    The only thing I disagree with is the very last phrase ” we each deserve this dire fate.” No, I don’t think you are a defeatist by any means. I disagree with it because I am not of the belief that we “deserve” anything. It just is….. is the “is” deserved?

  7. julienmatei says:

    “We each deserve this dire fate” AS LONG AS WE OBSTINATELY HOLD TO SELF-DELUSION AND LIE.
    To know inwardly that you lie, but continuing nonetheless to indulge in misconception, is hopelessly appalling. That´s the dire reality I am speaking about.

    And no, I am not a defeatist, if I was, I wouldn´t write here at all.

    Reality is…- for sure -, beyond argument.

    Reality is – on the other hand – pliable; and if we continue lying despite all evidence, going against and defying common sense, well… then we are in serious trouble…

    Reality will be the mirror of our (mis)conception. Simple as that…

    Or…? What do you think?

    • onestreetshy says:

      It is not the “dire reality” that I disagree with. I disagree that we, as a whole, “deserve”

      That said….do you agree that you should also feel the joy, the graces and the beauty of the universe?

      • julienmatei says:

        The Grace and Beauty of the Universe can never unleash their power in separation.

        I will get back with a more elaborate answer

      • julienmatei says:

        When we unreservedly start to acknowledge our pain and suffering, dropping our self importance and self deceit, when having the courage to heal thoroughly, humbly reaching out to one another encouraging each other in the pursuit of Self…yes, only in that very readiness, the grace and beauty of the Universe can reveal their mighty secret…

      • onestreetshy says:

        And your thoughts on humanity, as a whole, “deserving” the dire reality. It is the word “deserve” I’d like clarified. Perhaps you feel you have done that, however, I still do not either a)understand or b)you have stated what you feel constitutes ones “deserving” and we will simply need to agree to disagree. With all due respect mind you..

  8. julienmatei says:

    The Grace and Beauty of the Universe can never unleash their power in separation.

    I will get back with a more elaborate answer

  9. julienmatei says:

    Onestreetshy,

    I say this again:

    Running away from pain and suffering creates even more suffering. We all are intertwined, so everything happening around is in fact also my responsibility. Responsibility means etymologically, my ability to respond.

    AS LONG AS WE OBSTINATELY HOLD TO SELF-DELUSION AND LIE, PURPOSELY NUMBING AND BLINDING OURSELVES , going against common sense refusing to acknowldege blatant evidence. then yes…we deserve the “dire” consequences…As these consequences are not dire in themselves, they are just the mirror of our dire mendacity.It´s so simple: we reap what we sow.

    II enclose the penultimate post:

    When we unreservedly start to acknowledge our pain and suffering, dropping our self importance and self deceit, when having the courage to heal thoroughly, humbly reaching out to one another encouraging each other in the pursuit of Self…yes, only in that very readiness, the grace and beauty of the Universe can reveal their mighty secret…

  10. There is a bitter undertone to these powerful words you’ve written. May we look at that?

    I too experience a deep longing for the weakening soul of humanity. Obfuscation has become our quick fix it seems, and we are all junkies to varying degrees. I am one of the few who feels the pain of the lost. I feel the fragmented wounds, gaping open within the core of all the broken people, aimlessly walking in ’emptiness’ and ‘depression’… Two separate issues, yes. But the issues are born of the same deprivation. The very same needs going perpetually unmet, the same truths going perpetually unfaced. And we are all culprits in our own right.

    While I understand your passion completely, I offer this: maybe the solution (which is — undoubtedly — one massive, collective wake-up call) is resting behind our cognitive decision to embrace a perspective of compassion FIRST, before engaging the bull by the horns. What would happen if we walked right up to apathy and gave it a hug? I have a feeling we would have a much more profound impact on its defeat than we ever will by approaching it with an unsettled and irrepressible intolerance.

    Just my meager two cents. Thank you for mustering the courage to lay your feelings bare; that is admirable. Now, which direction will you allow them to take you?

  11. julienmatei says:

    Very good points!

    Look – if my teeth ache terribly, and instead of asking the dentist to fix my caries I would tell him to fix my beautiful smile, you would for sure wonder as to my mental sanity.

    And yet this simple metaphor says it all – our soul aches, our life is limping and we feign to be great athletes. We have all become great champions. Yes, champions of mendacity. We are very proud of our lies. We are so versed in self-deceit so, everybody is exercising this damned idiotic skill. If you lie you are with us…If not… tough luck…. If you ever tell people something even vaguely reminding of the truth, they call you their foe, and turn you into a persona non grata.

    If I am bitter?…No…I am furious. 🙂 I am calm and well but nevertheless frantically disgusted and fed up of this crazy charade. Obfuscation not only has become our quick fix, but it´s considered virtue.

    “What would happen if we walked right up to apathy and gave it a hug?” Well, I asked the guy I wrote about in the post whether he was depressed and want to talk about that, and the result is that he never wants to talk to me again. Read his reply – the third post from the top.

    Am I intolerant? Am I unsettled? Maybe I am, or may be not…One thing is for sure: no matter the price, I am not going to tolerate or put up with cowardice, I don´t intend to flirt with hypocrisy, self-deceit and fraud.

    How do we deal with this cowardice and ubiquitous inveracity? Believe me, at leat now, I cannot feel any compassion for people who consciously lie and pretend trying to show their sufficiency.

    So back to my simple metaphor. Wouldn´t be wise and simple to say the truth so the dentist so he can deal with the problem?
    Couldn´t people say – yes I feel lonely and sad, confused, afraid of living and dying, afraid of not knowing how to deal with thing called Life…Imagine if we had the courage to greet each other with simple honesty instead of playing tough, hard to get, self-sufficient and successfull?

    Can we change this?…I think we can. In fact, you confirm with your own words the kind of deep human sincerity I am talking about:

    “I too experience a deep longing for the weakening soul of humanity. (…) I am one of the few who feels the pain of the lost. I feel the fragmented wounds, gaping open within the core of all the broken people, aimlessly walking in ‘emptiness’ and ‘depression’…”

    This is the most interesting:

    “But the issues are born of the same deprivation. The very same needs going perpetually unmet, the same truths going perpetually unfaced. And we are all culprits in our own right.”

    According to you:
    What is this deprivation about?… What are we depriving ourselves of…? What are these perpetually unmet needs, these truths un faced…?

    I must thank you in my turn for sharing your thoughts with me.

    Looking forward your reply!

    • One answer to each: honesty.

      We deprive ourselves of the grand and satisfying task of waking up with our eyes open, and keeping them open in the face of blinding truths that sucker-punch our spirit throughout the course of each day.

      But my suggestion here is not merely for the ones meandering aimlessly through this world. My suggestion is for you as well. When you are met with the distasteful denial of others regarding their own unique avoidances, you too are faced with an opportunity to brave your own summits of honesty in your own spirit.

      Specifically, what omnipotent body imbued you with the responsibility of enlightening the unenlightened? It’s one thing to illuminate universal truths for all to see. It’s quite another to force your light into a comfortable shadow. Does your sense of peace and accomplishment depend on the course or direction another’s life follows? If so, that seems to imply a deeper denial within your own spirit.

      Truth can blind in the same way too much food can make a starved person ill. Both must be consumed and absorbed in small increments, allowing room for the body to acclimate to the digestion process.

      Frustration is a perfectly natural feeling when we see the solution clearly and we are forced to sit back with our hands tied and watch someone struggle to discover it for themselves.

      But were you spoon-fed wisdom yourself? Or like everyone else, were you forced to hike the treacherous terrains of self-discovery on your own two feet in order to sequester the knowledge in a way that finally… STUCK?

      These questions are rhetorical in nature, but may hold significant weight in the honesty-achieving journey you are currently taking.

    • And just to affirm that I’m truly riding your wavelength:

      http://thoughlifebeaday.wordpress.com/2012/08/01/open-your-eyes/

      I’m pickin up what you’re puttin down my friend. Just offering a fresh perspective in hopes that it might encourage your convictions to take root in a deeper sense of empathy. For me, the only success I’ve ever known in helping others to WAKE THE EFF UP is to offer the alarm clock with a peaceful song of compassion playing. No one likes incessant, blaring beeping. Not even ourselves. 🙂

  12. Laying it all bare, for the world to see, dropping the pretence, the charade? I agree with being honest; just being free enough to say this is me, this is it, these are my feelings and so on, but most people don’t want honesty. In fact studies show we don’t even want honesty; our own unconscious brain dictates that. Even when faced with the truth our minds deny it so we can carry on living; maybe without that we’d never get up and have coffee in the morning. If we saw the real truth all the time we might curl up and die, because the truth often is grimmer than the reality we think we know and see around us. Truth can be detrimental, examples; chances of getting cancer in your lifetime, chances of dying of a heart attack, likelihood of divorce, murder, becoming homeless, being bankrupt, unemployed or never fulfilling a life dream; in short it takes away hope. People conceal for their own reasons, and not always because they have a hidden agenda or can’t face up to reality. Truth when applied to some situations can take away even the remotest possibility that everything will be OK, regardless of the adversity and the odds that are against us, we all hope everything will be OK. Its a human fundamental, part of something ancient that remains within us all. Could everyone cope with seeing behind the veil of reality, no. I understand there are some things that need to be revealed as truth, but it is doubtful they would be received as a ‘blessing’ because people are used to a life in the dark, and some truths are out of their comprehension. Maybe that is OK for them, it won’t be for everyone. Not every lie is meant to be harmful, and people should be able to choose what part of them they conceal, as no one knows anyone 100%. Some people don’t even know themselves 100%, so how can they know what they are or what they see is a lie or the truth? What is the truth anyway? Isn’t it relative to the situation, person, place, time and so on? One person’s lie is another persons truth.

    I might be going off on a completely separate track here, but it is food for thought!

    • julienmatei says:

      Hi, Bex,

      These are very interesting things you emphasize here – I will get back and comment this in due time:

      Even when faced with the truth our minds deny it so we can carry on living; maybe without that we’d never get up and have coffee in the morning.

      If we saw the real truth all the time we might curl up and die, because the truth often is grimmer than the reality we think we know and see around us. Truth can be detrimental, examples; chances of getting cancer in your lifetime, chances of dying of a heart attack, likelihood of divorce, murder, becoming homeless, being bankrupt, unemployed or never fulfilling a life dream; in short it takes away hope.

      Could everyone cope with seeing behind the veil of reality, no. I understand there are some things that need to be revealed as truth, but it is doubtful they would be received as a ‘blessing’ because people are used to a life in the dark, and some truths are out of their comprehension.

      Some people don’t even know themselves 100%, so how can they know what they are or what they see is a lie or the truth?

      What is the truth anyway? Isn’t it relative to the situation, person, place, time and so on? One person’s lie is another persons truth.

      • Hi Julien,

        That’s fine. Its now a post on my blog too; albeit, a little extra in addition to what I left as I comment in response to your words.
        Speak soon, Bex

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