Memory is Fear of Now

What was “something” yesterday, today is just a vapid dream.

Of course, we can always return to the memory of anything.
But really…does any Memory help you now…? Can we count
with something that happened yesterday, or years ago…?

If we want to be unhappy, we linger in memory.

There is no such thing as better or worse memory.
Memory fetters us. We get stuck in inexistence,
indulging in vacuous delusion.

We perceive and turn this very moment into a
“continuation” of whatever bygone thing,
trying to reinforce it.
When it happened, that thing was alive.
Whenever we try to reiterate and consolidate it,
it becomes a dead thing. We become stiff,
languorous and dull.

Memory is the gap between now and then, it owns
no impartial and dispassionate reality.

Our memory is no more than an inconsolable way
to avoid the insecurity
end loneliness of this very moment.

That´s what Memory is basically:
Identification with the dead.
It is name-giving, eternally defining everything
in order to shun direct contact with Now.

Whenever you turn whatever thing
into a part of your memory
you kill it.

That is eventually what Memory is about:


About julienmatei
I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced. These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity... Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give... We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE... THE NEW has no definition yet... Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.

12 Responses to Memory is Fear of Now

  1. buddhasal says:

    Is something that we do so well not an act from memory developed through repetition? One doesn’t use memory conspicuously at times but it is implied that if you do something well then you learned it from practice and isn’t practice something stored in memory for use later. I too live in the “NOW” but the past surfaces in many ways and I know very well that we should live “NOW” and let “THEN” be. These are very daunting questions and I find myself asking these same questions to myself everyday.

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  3. I believe that nothing is inherently a good or bad thing, but is potentially either, neither or both… lol. I am glad I remember what my daughter looks like so that I will recognize her every time I see her. Memory, just as anything else, can not be without purpose. Though, I agree completely that memory restricts the ability to see objectively. I use empathy to view things objectively. My favorite view point to empathize with is one who is setting eyes on for the first time. I imagine trees and water as something I have never seen, and then I realize just how beautiful they really are. It works with everything!
    I just want to add that this is my new favorite blog. Your perspective is a fresh wave of thoughts in my mind.

    • julienmatei says:

      Again, I am deeply grateful for your appreciation.

      Please ponder a bit on your words:
      Memory, just as anything else, can not be without purpose.


      Do things require our empathy in order to be seen as what they really are…? Is seeing something for the first time a matter of symapthy…? Do you need sympathy to see a tree or a flower…? Or, for that matter, a human being…?

      Can our imagination ever be free from bias and conditioning? You know best what your perception is, but just note:

      If I say something like “It works with everything” – than the perception of the watcher is more valid than whatever is considered. I want to see this new, and I will see it as such. Is willingness ever new…? Is there any freedom in deliberate repetition? Can something ever be repeated eventually? Can you see that your willingness is just conditioning the outcome…?

      Are we ever capable of seeing something impartially as long as we are are caught in imagining…? Imagining something “good” doesn´t necessarily need that the outcome is also good.

      • TBS says:

        ‘Imagining’ seems to be an anticipation of memories…much like expectations are premeditated resentments. If I am stuck to my imagination and expectation, I only leave room for experiences that fit into my frame of reference. Wow.

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  5. As always your posts enlighten with truth…

    Sending you my thoughts Julien, as this Season takes off with Craziness…. Wishing you Yuletide Blessings Sue xox

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  7. Muito legal seu artigo, interessante e com muitas informações, vou te adicionar aos favoritos.

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