Farwell Margareta

For the last days, I have been feeling a sort of unexplainable and uncalled-for sadness.
I just couldn´t justify this unsettling tremor. Yet I knew beyond doubt that this sorrow
wasn´t mine, but rather came from someone around me.

Tonight I found out the reason for my foreboding. My friend Eva called me,
telling me that her sister Margareta passed away earlier this evening.

I never knew Margareta well. My girlfriend used to visit her sometimes keeping her company.

Last time some two weeks ago, Larisa – my girlfriend – told me that Margareta
wasn´t well at all. She had been long diagnosed with a life-threatening disease.
Her general condition had distinctly worsened. It was obvious that the disease was in
an imminent stage.

And yet…

She seemed so at peace despite her obvious predicament. In Larisa´s words,
MARGARETA WAS SERENE, FEELING NO FEAR AT ALL.

Soon after she was taken to the hospital – things weren´t looking too good for her.
We trusted though that she would soon recover and be back on her
feet – as it happened before.

But confessedly…tonight was her transition to the Mysterious Shore Beyond…

My friend Eva was so unspeakably sad…What is to be said in moments like this…?
Nothing…Silence is my only answer…

So Farewell Margareta… May your soul find The Way Home!

Thank you for reminding me that Fear is not our abode!

https://julienmatei.com/2012/10/26/says-rainer-maria-rilke/

About julienmatei
I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced. These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity... Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give... We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE... THE NEW has no definition yet... Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.

4 Responses to Farwell Margareta

  1. boomiebol says:

    Heartfelt condolences. May she rest in peace

  2. onestreetshy says:

    Before my brother died unexpectedly he came to visit my parents (where he passed on) and myself. I’d like to think that the universe gave us all this great gift in having the opportunity to spend time with him before he left us…..Perhaps your “foreboding” was a gift Julian. You had the opportunity to grieve before actually calling for grief….

    I’m sorry your girlfriend lost her friend nonetheless.

    • julienmatei says:

      Oftentimes this intuition feels like a great gift, other times not…
      I accurately feel what is going on around me, and it can be quite overwhelming.

      Thank you for these words of yours!

      You are most kind.

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