And you won´t know what to say…

I have gone through a rather turbulent period lately – this insidious Wasteland is abusively but subtly perverting everything, constantly stealing and depriving me of my force and energy, so lately, I have been very confused, no longer knowing where I am heading.

So earlier today, sitting in a cafe, I kind of heard within this voice saying clearly,
“I am the one with no past or future, I am movement without moving…”

At first I didn´t quite understand the significance of these words in that particular moment.

There were other things being “said” inside of me at the same time, but I was kind of short of words….
I felt I knew, but I didn´t know how to put it, I didn´t know what to say

Some moments later, I happened to read GENDUN RINPOCHE´S words, and lo!…these were the words that I felt earlier, but couldn´t utter myself !!

What an incredible serendipity. Such epiphany in the midst of my sadness. It felt that the post was almost written for me.

Here it is:

“Let go of what has passed.

Let go of what may come.

Let go of what is happening now

Don´t try to figure anything out

Don´t try to make anything happen

Relax, right now and rest.”


“Leave this mind of yours

in its natural state where there is nothing artificial.

In this state, seeing a thought move,

rest on it, relaxed.

No attachment to stability

no fear of movement,

aware that there is no difference

between stability and movement,

mind arising from mind.

In this state, where there is no grasping, no attachment,

rest natural and relaxed.

In this state, natural reality itself,

the essence of your own mind,

primordial awareness, empty clarity

will arise… and you won’t know what to say.

In this state you will settle, suspended and relaxed.

Without grasping at the stability as something,

naturally in place, naturally free ;

without seizing on or rejecting the mind’s productions,

please settle… THERE.”

About julienmatei
I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced. These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity... Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give... We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE... THE NEW has no definition yet... Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.

12 Responses to And you won´t know what to say…

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  2. Thank you Julien this is a great reminder today to relax in what is NOW. No need to change anything or even do anything, again to just be.

    • julienmatei says:

      You´re welcome David.

      Time and again one learns the true significance of Surrender: not only to let go of past and future, but to let go also of what is happening now.

      • Wow I never thought of letting go of now, being so focused on the past and future. Again thanks

      • julienmatei says:

        That´s exactly the point:
        ME NEITHER!

        What comes to mind is this:

        It´s not Now we let go of – after all we are immersed in It – what we renounce though is our interpretation – or better yet, misinterpratation – of Now. “Now” as a projection of a conditioned past…

        Can you see it?…

      • Yes and our interpretation happens so fast we think it is “Reality” we are experiencing. The now before the interpretation according to David R Hawking’s is 1/10,000 a second faster than the blink of an eye, before the interpretation,

        Can I see it? I have in those brief moments when Grace opens it’s doors for me. It rarely lasts for any period of “time” just enough of a glimpse to keep me going. kind of hard to describe ya know.

      • julienmatei says:

        Forget time and don´t try to make “last”…simply go from glimpse to glimpse..;)

      • Amen to that.Off on the Yellow Brick Road to see OZ behind the curtain.

      • julienmatei says:

        :)) Say hello from me

      • and vice versa if you get there first.

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