Writing is understanding

He asked me:

– Why do you write so much?
– Because only when I write I understand myself, the Zeitgeist,
and why people behave the way they do, I answered him.

About julienmatei
I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced. These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity... Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give... We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE... THE NEW has no definition yet... Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.

11 Responses to Writing is understanding

  1. seeingwhatis says:

    Why is it we feel more understanding when we we write? Maybe we remind ourself continously about what’s important. It’s interesting.
    I used to take notes of the insights in order to let them go. Now when I read them I see that my clearsightedness was unlimited, but also limited in the sense of field of attention.
    It sure felt fantastic to get the answer to everything I ever wanted to know. Just asking out loud and waiting for the answer.
    I asked quite banal questions.
    I wrote ” maybe talking happens during the process ofunderstanding”.
    A question to you:
    Bentinho massaro says hate is as real as love. I never disagree and don’t want discussion, but still don’t see it that way. I would say real love is all there is, and false love and hate is not important and have real short momentum. All is life/love/good/God and negativity is all creation/illusion.
    He says we should engage in the play. Do you think we should?
    I mean how could we not. But why focus on our will. It always chooses very conceptual dreams. Why not just let it happen.
    I must say I see the point in his reasoning. I just want to hear your view.
    What is true to you? Totally true…

  2. julienmatei says:

    Massaro says, Kant or Bhagavad-Gita says, Krishnamurti says, everybody says… but the core of the problem remain:

    WHAT DO I SAY…? What do you say…?

    Is “say” the outcome of an idea, or simply an imponderable, spontaneous gesture happening now…?

    If Say is an outcome, it means that whatever I say entails a “why”. If I follow the why of anything, I will drift…never reaching the shore…as I will simply go from Why to Because, From Cause to Effect in all eternity…On the other hand, If what I Say, derives from a spontaneous uncalculated urge, then I might come up with something of consequence.
    Comparison is the beginning of uncertainty, that is, the searching for a point of reference outside us.

    Through comparison we think that we can choose. The more we compare, the less we find though, and not-finding leads inevitably to frustration. We realize that there is no point of reference outside us. So we move the point of reference inside. But even there – in the inward realms – we don´t find anything satisfactory. We go from thought to thought, from one theory to another, from one conflict to another conflict…

    So what happens is this: not managing to find anything stable on the inside either, we ascribe conflict the highest significance. Our Ideas generated by conflict becomes The Omnipotent Thing – The Highest unquestionable Authority, the Play, as you call it.

    In the absence of any other certainty, conflict is the only reliable thing people can count on…

    Conflict is and has become our Bible.

    In plain language:

    No matter what lofty name man has given to things, Man only knows what Falseness is about.
    Negativity is his only share, and so Love to him becomes an even a bigger, more awe creating conflict.

    In reality, the only thing Man has and is really acquainted with is his Hate – hate which at different intervals he calls Love.

    That´s why this Massaro claims that Hate is as real as Love. If you take away his hate, man is totally deprived of any sense.

    All this destruction we witness is actually man´s self-punishment – man taking revenge on himself, for not having found a satisfactory answer to Life´s real problem, namely Love and Sense, and the why of his being here.

    Only Love is real, inasmuch as Love has nothing to do with hate.

    Love is the complete cessation of conflict, of Sense searching – the utmost realization that there is no inward or outward point of reference anywhere…

    Live is the cessation of all Thought, of all Identity…

    • seeingwhatis says:

      Yes, I see you words. Since you have now stopped being or even believing in the “effect” you are now the cause.
      My question was what you know-see from your perspective now beeing the cause. This may some strange to some, but since we both know reality we maybe don’t have to go into the unreal as a reference. It is so tiresome and prevents us from taking on the really exciting questions.
      Massaro and the others… “you”… And “me”… We can only have our own truth. And as you say, naturally there is no reason to think about disagreements. It only joyful to listen to hove other “true selves” see things. In no way I can disagree with you or massaro or even osho. I guess we just don’t do that any more.
      Yes, there is only love, but people talk about hate and that is called love in our society.
      Noone knows what real love is.
      A clue: always unconditional and never exclusive. If any of these, then its desire, need to control, not love.
      It sounds as if I disagree, but don’t be fooled by the sound, I don’t have a comparison behind my wordings. I just see and I know you and massaro and Buddha just see.
      We see.
      Our own truth.
      The play… We are the cause. We do things… How could desicionmaking be important. That’s my question.
      For me its not. For you?
      Your view of this is as true as mine. We are the same.
      We are not reactive.
      Points of no reaction.
      I will now manifest a lot of money. I don’t need it. But it will be fun. I will invite you to a big party.
      Will may drink. We may laugh. Dance. Or not.
      🙂

      • julienmatei says:

        My decision is to trust wisdom, opulence, beauty, togetherness and generosity. To let myself be an instrument:

        To help where my help is asked, to heal, to render life back to Itself.

        To celebrate.

        Let´s just celebrate this very moment!

  3. seeingwhatis says:

    Still, to be a pain in the ass… that desicion was taken by julien. After the desicion was made and autonomacy apparent, there are noone left making desicions. It may appear as if it is , to others that cannot stop interpreting from an identified angle, but “you” know there is really noone there.
    So it can’t be a desicion. It’s just natural to you. And we don’t fight impulses, we treasure them and celebrate them.
    Just Smalltalk. I am not trying to prove any point.

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