Ultimately, the only person you need to concern yourself with is yourself

This may sound strange, but for the time being I ONLY GIVE TO MYSELF.

I am scarce with giving nowadays, it sounds paradoxical as I was born to be a giver.
I give to someone else, ONLY, if I am directly and expressly asked.

That because for many years I made the capital mistake of giving and trying to heal this mad world. How it drained me…How they took without giving anything back…

I finally got it that I am the world when I am Self, and, in that insight, I am the most important person.

I know exactly what you mean. You mirror the same experience I’ve had as well. Giving and giving and giving until I was so drained and tired that I had nothing left for myself. I felt so empty. Like I wasn’t enough for people to return anything back to. It was so dark at times, even though I felt like I was doing the best thing for everyone by giving everything. Big mistake!

Now, like you, I’m very selective on what and who I will give to. I have learned the importance of energetic boundaries, and I will not constantly bend them for others like I did in the past. By doing this I’ve finally found the peace I’ve always desired.

Instead of feeling disconnected by pulling away from others I feel more connected to this world than ever before. Such an interesting thing to realize. So profound and life altering.

Your insight is THE insight. To realize that the best way to serve the world is to realize you are the world. To fully own what you will and will not sacrifice for others. To realize that if it’s not working for you it won’t work for others. To realize the only person you need to concern yourself with is yourself, because ultimately it’s all that’s real in this grand illusion called life.

It’s the forgotten truth. I’m honored to be able to hear yours.

About julienmatei
I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced. These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity... Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give... We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE... THE NEW has no definition yet... Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.

11 Responses to Ultimately, the only person you need to concern yourself with is yourself

  1. boomer98053 says:

    Giving without being replenished doesn’t work – for sure. I learned that lesson the past couple of years.

    • julienmatei says:

      What brought you to your insight?

      • boomer98053 says:

        Running on empty and dreading anyone needing my help. That avoidance behavior is WAY out of my norm.
        One time, a family member who had been going through a rough spell for several months called me after the dinner hour. I turned to my husband and said, “Yah know, sometimes the helper needs help.” And I didn’t return her call until the next day (after listening to her v-mail to make sure she was okay.)

  2. DivineGrace says:

    I had reply to a comment this morning on giving… A few hours later I found your post on giving… Coincidence… maybe??? You can read the comment here http://loveandlivedivine.wordpress.com/twin-souls-reclaiming-the-self/the-healing-of-the-soul-and-ones-human-self/#comment-1121

  3. This was a beautiful exchange. Beautiful mirrors speaking truths. This is my current focus. As much as I know it’s the right place to be, it remains a challenge to stay there. A tug of war with the world.

    • julienmatei says:

      Exchange is the key word. Encounters…Reciprocity…

      All the good music I wrote, all good poetry I have written always have been the outcome of meaningful togetherness…

      Sometimes, “mine” and yours” become “our”…The “our” beyond us…

      • The sounds of us is the all is the one.
        I love that so much.
        I love co-creating, building on ideas and releasing them like a firecracker.
        So powerful. Like finding missing puzzle pieces. Completing something that was unable to be completed without the all.

      • julienmatei says:

        So beautifully put:

        “Completing something that was unable to be completed without the all.”

        Such an insight…

        Damn it, you put names to my thoughts 😀

        Of all the people I have met in the so-called blogosphere it´s you and a man called Thomas Ross who deeply touch and make the greatest impact on me.

        (Check his blog: onlyhereonlynow.com)

        For the record, I am very scarce with reading nowadays.

        What I want to tell you is that you have such an honest, moving and emotionally dynamic way of reaching out with your words, so if you once write a book, I would be the first to want to read it.

  4. I feel the same about you. Naming my thoughts and getting my essence. It’s an amazing thing. I feel like I’ve been plugged in.

    I will definitely check his blog, I very much look forward to it. Thanks so much for the recommendation.

    I deeply appreciate your words. So encouraging, so giving. Thank you for them. And know, my mirror in a different land, that I feel the exact same way.

  5. pastorsvoice says:

    great piece! hard being a giver how I know I live it each day

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