Let go, let Freedom – the secret of disentangling oneself

T:
This is my choice. The ‘disentangling’ is a process. True freedom is an ideal (a perfection or completion).

I choose to continue my walk towards the ideal…being perfected (progressive tense). And I am learning that instead of ‘gaining’ stuff to ‘make me better’, I am losing stuff that has made me think I needed to be better.

Me:
As it can never be an outcome of anything, Freedom can never be an “ideal”. Continuing the walk towards any ideal, is breeding more self-delusion, even if that happens in progressive tense…- losing stuff…
Ego is very shrewd, that´s why we have to outwit it…through great clarity and subtle approach – which is perfect non-action.
In order to disentangle we simply have to “discontinue”…with other words, realize that whatever we imagine, even if it sounds good, is a trap…Undoing is a hell of a challenge…as it is neither “doing” anything, nor “not doing”…Purposeless attention, opens the door to Wholeness, and when the Whole is present, action happens by itself…

T:
That’s what I like about you Julien…you are always able to show me the futility of everything. Well, the futility of everything except Nothing.

I get it now. The only thing that the non-I can (not) aspire to is a perfect non-action. And I can’t move towards that — even if it happens in progressive tense. Maybe it would be the ‘regressive tense’. But, no…there is no ‘gress’.

Purposeless attention? Or would that be ‘purposeful non-attention’?

Anyway…I don’t know how you can say things like, “…the incredible never-ending toil and skill which is required to disentangle oneself,” and then follow it up with “As it can never be an outcome of anything, Freedom can never be an “ideal”. Continuing the walk towards any ideal, is breeding more self-delusion, even if that happens in progressive tense…”

But okay. It doesn’t matter. Because it’s all a dream.

Me:
This is by all means a dialogue and, of course, at the same time, a
non-dialogue, as no one speaks, after all…Or we speak all the time, but not verbally…

Likewise It is all a dream…but when we articulate that, the dream not only becomes real and palpable, but on top of it, it becomes a bad dream…

Whatever we articulate, becomes un-whole, that is, fragmented. Unless, as you say, it is purposeful non-attention. That is, Holy Choicelessness…which is unspeakable Rest…

When the futility of falseness becomes conspicuous, the natural and mysterious fullness of Life twinkles at us.

Regarding my seeming contradictions: we do need to put in a lot of toil and skill, until we realize there was no need for neither effort nor skill. The effort is again superfluous, but without the effort we couldn´t have the overarching insight…

Eventually, it all matters. But also, Nothing matters.

We are the in-between 😉

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About julienmatei
I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced. These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity... Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give... We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE... THE NEW has no definition yet... Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.

7 Responses to Let go, let Freedom – the secret of disentangling oneself

  1. TBS says:

    “Likewise It is all a dream…but when we articulate that, the dream not only becomes real and palpable, but on top of it, it becomes a bad dream…. Whatever we articulate, becomes un-whole, that is, fragmented. ”

    From where (non) I (doesn’t) stand…there are no good or bad dreams, and fragmentation is not possible.

    • julienmatei says:

      I take your word for it…;)

    • julienmatei says:

      I found this excerpt by Krishnamurti. Kind of interesting – he formulates the same thing in other words:

      “I think it is important to understand that freedom is at the beginning and not at the end. We think freedom is something to be achieved, that liberation is an ideal state of mind to be gradually attained through time, through various practices; but to me, this is a totally wrong approach. Freedom is not to be achieved; liberation is not a thing to be gained. Freedom, or liberation, is that state of mind which is essential for the discovery of any truth, any reality, therefore it cannot be an ideal; it must exist right from the beginning. Without freedom at the beginning, there can be no moments of direct understanding, because all thinking is then limited, conditioned. If your mind is tethered to any conclusion, to any experience, to any form of knowledge or belief, it is not free; and such a mind cannot possibly perceive what is truth.”

      • John Powell says:

        Well Stated,

        Freedom is a state of being starting from the beginning as you suggest.

        Unfortunately not accepted by today institutions,” the millennium doctrine”. Many are lead to believe one will be moulded to understand the meaning of FREEDOM as a progressive idea that FREEDOM gains speed over time down a road that twist and turns. In the end, the temple of distraction “FUN” ( DisneyLand) will be your savior. Its the same ideology being encouraged that FUN and JOY are the same.

        Regardless of any notions that we are free, is far the course. We are all slaves to desire.
        The only difference is I choose my Lord God as my master. Blessings

      • julienmatei says:

        Hi,

        Thanks for your feed-back.

        In few words: we love to remain slaves – to desire, to concepts, even to the very idea of God – cause freedom entails first-hand experience as opposed to being controlled by and thus live in the safety of “knowledge”…

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  3. TBS says:

    Yes. I concur with Krishnamurti.

    And I’m not saying that I’m perfect…but I am.

    Only in this illusion am I less than free. The ‘direction’ and progress of which I speak reflect my beautiful attempt to express the inexpressible.

    Yes. I am not wanting to be tethered to conclusion or belief.

    Whether you, or Krish, or T … all involved observers.

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