Arioso in reverse

Her life is a symphony of shards.
Don´t play your music too near her – you may cut your strings.

There are almost no people with whom you can share silence…

That´s why I love to be on my own.

I am therefore I postpone you

The ones who love you respond and reciprocate you instantly. “Nower” than now…

Time is sorrow and pain. Those who thus postpone you, feed themselves on and want your despondency. Your misery. They inflict pain and suffering on you, stealing your life. Your Joy. Your hard achieved inner confidence.

Fuck these cursed vampires.

Get rid of them. NOW!

You won´t believe this

I have been truly puzzled lately – the issue at hand surpassing anything I have ever experienced before. I had my misgivings, but no book knowledge I knew of could substantiate a satisfying answer. So I asked several people for their viewpoint, but none of their opinions was of any help either. A seemingly unsolvable conundrum. I was really troubled. I just couldn´t figure out an escape out of this daunting maze.

As I sat contemplating this last night, I thought of my friend Yohami who lives in Argentina. “What about asking him for advise in this matter”, I found myself thinking. BEFORE FINISHING MY THOUGHT, he was concomitantly commenting a post which was related to my dilemma. THERE WERE ONLY FOUR WORDS!
I was taken aback: there was such unmistakable and unequivocal authority in them, so I actually shuddered reading them. There it was: THE ANSWER!

HE SOMEHOW HEARD MY THOUGHTS! Such otherworldly synchronicity I have never experienced. What likelihood was there, considering that I was thinking of him, that he, in the very moment dropped his line?…It was mind-blowing: it felt as if we were communicating telepathically.

We talked further about my dilemma, he had been in a similar difficulty, so he really understood what I was talking about. He sensed the danger I was in, and therefore he had in mind an article he wanted me to read. And I did.

I have read tones of better or worse psychology books, publications, blogs, but THIS FELT AS IF IT WAS WRITTEN FOR ME. From the very beginning to the end, it described literally my problem as if the writer had been a close witness to my story. I couldn´t believe my eyes: it gave me the so much longed for answer I needed in order to move on and put this life-consuming misadventure behind me.


Meli asking

“Where to fit into this world, Julien, where…?”

This sounds like a terrible platitude dear Meli…but really…You can only fit into yourself…Once you truly thoroughly understand that, “the Place”, the Hint, your Sense – the Why of You -, will be simply conveyed to you…


Sounds very wise, thanks…

At the moment I’m just a bit desperate about all these neo-liberal changes and developments in politics, reading a book also on how capitalism changes our mind-set etc… It’s all about competition, the ego now…. And I feel people become more and more like that…. And then there are so many other inequalities, sexism, patriarchy in general etc. You know what I mean…. Conservative, stupid people all over… But maybe that’s also arrogant to say, I don’t know!…


What you say is the “right” survey of this present age, no doubt about that. There is a but…And the big But is that Everything existing is our creation. Knowingly or mostly unknowingly you have participated to the way things look like. Don´t try to analyze this thought though. You just  simply have to delve into Yourself, and find The Place, that unchanging place, which is beyond strife, competition, categories…Of course, if you never made the experience of that “inner” place, my words seem totally inappropriate…

See it like this: Look at your despair without trying to change it…Escape it. Judge it. Stay with the problem. Don´t try to find What, Where or Where to… To the extent it´s possible, just delve…

Linger a moment. To quote Matt Licata:

“Just love yourself enough to just…Stop…”

The most suitable and becoming love you can show to most women, is a kind of interested ignorance…

Don´t expect a clear answer

It all depends which of her innumerable subpersonalities you appeal.