A letter to Phoebe
She did her best to convince me:
“I had a perfect childhood. No trauma.”
If you had such a perfect childhood, how come you are so shattered?
You have so many different personalities, to the extent that you can even shape-shift. Your inner disunity is most blatant, your inner incoherence making you a relatively easy prey to the dark forces, something which you vehemently refuse to look at, and therefore integrate.
You invariably flee in some vapid narcissistic demeanour which, in my opinion, doesn´t at all honour WHO YOU REALLY ARE. It helps you maintain your emotional aloofness, your glaring incapacity to really engage in a real emotion. In a real connection. You never allow yourself to feel. Everything you do is therefore fake. A constant defense.
In fact, what you showed me, was a kind of pleasant pose. Some kind of surreal, well-played theater. Inane and pointless mind games…
Considering that you somehow are aware that I am not the kind of person to toss words around indiscriminately, I think you should just give yourself a moment to contemplate what´s being conveyed here.
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I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced.
These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity...
Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give...
We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE...
THE NEW has no definition yet...
Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.
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