I got this following letter from a reader. With his permission I post it here – cause really, his predicament surpasses my ability to give him a proper answer. So maybe those of you reading this might have a clue out of his plight.
Here it is:
“I am truly puzzled.
There is something within me which somehow quashes and steals my healthy perception. To such extent that I end up being a stranger in my own life – insofar as I am out of touch with my potential.
I am not a so-called religious person, but my situation can be very well illustrated with this excerpt:
“I practice the very evil that I do not want. But if I am doing the very thing I do not want, I am no longer the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me.”- Romans 7-20
Thing is that this malevolent energy is at work in anything I undertake. With other words, everything fails me – be it job projects, relations, or love affairs.
EVERYTHING FALLS APART.
It feels many times that I am under some kind of spell. I am aware that this sounds far-fetched and unrealistic. But I see this happening obsessively around me.
It´s as if my Destiny is the reckless play of these blind forces inside of me.
So my question to you is this:
Have you ever experienced that in your own life?
Do you therefore have any idea HOW one can deal with and neutralize this outlandish energy thieves?
Sometimes I wonder if I should seek the help of a shaman of sorts to help me out of this spell which really poisons and robes me of my life force?…”
About julienmatei I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced.
These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity...
Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give...
We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE...
THE NEW has no definition yet...
Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.