A second chance, a new beginning

These last days have been the happiest in my entire life…- not because something particular has happened, but because, thanks to Providence, I am being “happened”…

To give you a hint, massive yearlong blockages are now withering away, leaving an empty space within me…Oh…this blessed newness…This unutterable joy of being free at last, to be the one I am – the one that for unknown reasons, Life didn´t grant me a genuine connection with…

What a grace…to no longer be a stranger in my life-story. To no longer feel the constant weariness and pain, the alienation and huge suffering that awakened others´ distrust and undeserved suspicion…Oh…to no longer be blocked, but to be free of that weight in my chest that nothing could cure…

I don´t know exactly what has occurred within, and thus, without me. For a change, I am being heard… I am being noticed in a healthy and unambiguous way.

Maybe the Heart has won over Fear?…

Maybe Fate has deigned to smile at me, removing my ancestors´ shadows, beginning to clear out the way from failure and disappointment?…

I don´t know…Or maybe I do…- but don´t have the words for it…

So far…

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About julienmatei
I feel an inner urge to express what I see, to communicate and share with others all these impressions. Often the things I see are there, not yet manifest, but waiting... to be observed, talked about, and embraced. These new insights need another approach, a more vivid curiosity... Due to fear and prejudice we prefer to see only "the official" truth - but THE OFFICIAL TRUTH IS DEAD - being dead, it has nothing to give... We can continue pretending Death is fascinating or... we can take the trouble to LIVE... THE NEW has no definition yet... Again, IT requires another "perception", the courage to apprehend everything differently, from a totally new angle, with new confidence and inquisitive touch. This blog is not about interesting concepts, it is about participation... finding new solutions, inspiration, togetherness.

6 Responses to A second chance, a new beginning

  1. Sometimes there are no words..
    I am Happy for your Julien.. Happy New Beginnings my friend..
    Love and Blessings
    Sue

  2. TBS says:

    Yes. Words are highly overrated.

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