Ego – presence of an absence.

I just found this text. Don´t know who wrote it, but it´s good:

Ego is a non-existential phenomenon. It always lives in constant fear of being exposed as it is empty within. It is only an appearance, not a reality. It is the presence of an absence. Something which is only an appearance, a mirage, fear is bound to be there at the very centre of it. Cowardice is the by-product of fear .

Every second, a new chance…

I wrote this fellowing post in september last year. Yesterday I felt the kind of utter vulnerability, sorrow and incertitude I talk about here. Re-reading this, I kind of felt the soothing effect of these words, realizing again I had given myself answers earlier. So I find it meaningful to re-post it.

“There are moments when you feel overwhelmed . There is “too much” of anything, and yet nothing for you. Life feels like a desert. Like a continuous mirage.

Every second feels like a challenge, every thought can either be a dead-end, or something which leads forward, to – hopefully – a new stream of energy or clarity.

There are so many things we haven´t done. But reminding ourselves of all these regrets, and staying in that sorrow doesn´t help anyone.

It is painful and at the same time – for many of us – paradoxical to realize that Every Second is Empty. A new chance.

There are two options:
Either I carry on with sorrow, killing the new moment with resentment, or I take this feeling of utter vulnerability, let go of the past and start seeing myself in a new light. NOW!!…

I either drown or take a breath. And every word  I write here is a new breath…

It is an act of courage to leave the past, our security, our hardly acquired habits and sense of security…

I don´t know anything anymore, it feels incredibly lonely to write this words now, for, at the end of the day…- who am I writing for really?…But these words give me comfort somehow, this very curiosity of exploring this vulnerable NOW, and see what this moment has in store, gives me a new sense of re-orientation, indeed, of re-connecting with Life.

And as I feel this inner reassuring, I am thinking that these words may mean something to you too.”