A second chance, a new beginning

These last days have been the happiest in my entire life…- not because something particular has happened, but because, thanks to Providence, I am being “happened”…

To give you a hint, massive yearlong blockages are now withering away, leaving an empty space within me…Oh…this blessed newness…This unutterable joy of being free at last, to be the one I am – the one that for unknown reasons, Life didn´t grant me a genuine connection with…

What a grace…to no longer be a stranger in my life-story. To no longer feel the constant weariness and pain, the alienation and huge suffering that awakened others´ distrust and undeserved suspicion…Oh…to no longer be blocked, but to be free of that weight in my chest that nothing could cure…

I don´t know exactly what has occurred within, and thus, without me. For a change, I am being heard… I am being noticed in a healthy and unambiguous way.

Maybe the Heart has won over Fear?…

Maybe Fate has deigned to smile at me, removing my ancestors´ shadows, beginning to clear out the way from failure and disappointment?…

I don´t know…Or maybe I do…- but don´t have the words for it…

So far…

Accept that you can’t let go of your ego

Joy:

There was so much presence in me today, it felt more free, more spacious. Observed a few belief thoughts being loosened….and this is just the tiny beginning.

Me:
Such a good reminder…I wish though the Ego would let go of me instead. 😛

This uncanny fiddling master.

No but really, this mad separated entity´s sole function is to obfuscate me from ME. In plain English, it blurs my clear presence, my right perception, my well-being, in fact, my everything…

So how can you not want to rid yourself of this ghoul? – cause that´s what
it ultimately is…

“A few belief thoughts being loosened”…- how this sounds truly relieving.

I am thrilled to hear about your state of mind today. Better put, state of “soul”…:) Most assuredly, when that blessed spaciousness is present, Right Mind is present – to put it that way…Freedom to see, act, get it all blessedly right…

This beginning is worth celebrating.

May it all be a constant beginning with no end!

When we are “empty” Life takes charge

Despite unlikely hard work, it feels as if I haven´t achieved anything…I don´t identify in the least with all my writing…For sure, sometimes I look at these posts of mine, and read them smiling as if written by someone else.

It´s kind of great fun. Some of them are pertinent, other not…Still…

All in all, writing is a great tool to empty my mind, something helping me to wipe out what I know…

In fierce contradiction to what is considered right, “not knowing”- that is putting aside the burden of “knowing” – is felicity…the highest and most natural form of “existing.”

Richard:
I feel exactly the same with my posts. It’s like water pouring out of my fingers and vanishing in the soil. Hopefully something positive will grow. Can you write more about this?

Me:
Indeed Richard, if something is to grow it needs space. In order to create a new space, we have to take the risk of constantly keeping our mind empty.

Remembrance has consequence and has no consequence…

What happened years, weeks or seconds ago has contributed to who we are now. We don´t own the past even if it feels like being “ours”. Thereby, the taste of the past is within us, but we don´t need to remember it literally.

We do feel deserted when facing the “memory-less” now, don´t we?

WHO ARE WE WITHOUT THE MEMORY OF BECOMING…? Who are we without the urge of yesterday wanting to repeat itself tomorrow…

To deliberately put behind us our memories – either good or bad – is the thing, if we want to live in Perpetual Renewal.

The good wine doesn´t always remember the process of having become wine. It lingers in its precious taste.

Let us abandon ourselves in this delightful taste of Now.

Let the heavenly wine generously pour.  Its perfume will remember us.