Your greatest fear is actually
The Instant Communion with
the Fearless You.

You are, with other words,
afraid of being free of Fear.

Un-objectified awareness recreates the object

The Unreal is more Real than the real

Union with the Uncreated – healing from Thought and Separation

This is a very interesting dialogue between Michael. K. Marsh and me.

We must get away from the idea that death is God’s punishment. Death is a consequence of being created. The created as opposed to the un-created has a beginning and an end.

The healing of this condition is union with the uncreated. We do not have life in and of ourselves. To turn away from the work of union with the divine/uncreated is sin. Thus the wages of sin is death.

I think this fits with scripture and tradition about the two ways: life and death. Both are always before us.

I think there is a fear of death in human beings. It is a driver in our lives, the choices we make, the priorities we establish. The problem is we often deal with that fear through substitute gratifications. We settle for relief rather than healing.

The degree to which we are afraid of death is also the degree to which we are afraid to truly live.

The paradox is that to live we must die. I think it is the Sufis who say, “Die before you die.” I think this is what Jesus was getting at when he said, “Deny yourself, take up your cross, and follow me.” It is the invitation to life, through union/thesis.

Living becomes an interior transformation which leaves us in the present moment. The present is the fullness of life, it is where the divine is located, it can become eternal. Too often we live in the past – “If only…,” regrets, wounds, resentment – or in a future we do not yet have. Both of those it seems to me are places of death.

God’s deepest longing is that we would live and live fully. St. Irenaeus said something like, “The glory of God is a many fully alive.”
I wonder sometimes if we have forgotten or confused what it is to be fully alive. I think there were be profound freedom in this – not autonomy to choose to do what every I want – but freedom to be, to be real, authentic, true – and in so doing to discover and know my own holiness and the original beauty of my creation. When we can see this in ourselves then we can see it in others.

I have to tell you that you have such a poignant and winsome way of writing. I feel the Silence, and the echo of your deep insights between your words.

There is both elegance but unsophisticated humbleness in your wording.

Yes, this is perfectly put:

Healing is Union with the Uncreated.

What is created is mostly under the supremacy of Fear. Hence, most people settle for relief, as, to reach Union you have to go through the hell of Separation, which means wrestling with Fear – an inhuman undertaking. Few – if any – have the courage to directly confront this daunting demon – as fear is a demon after all – take the battle, and not flee.

I love the way you put it:

“Too often we live in the past – `If only´…,”regrets, wounds, resentment – or in a future we do not yet have. Both of those it seems to me are places of death.”

Presence is well guarded by Fear.To come out alive from these places of Death requires great boldness and determination. To die before you die is the greatest challenge for anyone – that is, to give up the false ego. The ego is the outcome of Time, of Thought…indeed the “me” identity which is so treacherously opposed to God…- to who we really are…

I have these days won incredible battles. And these battles have taken place on these invisible levels – which are incredibly “real”. In fact, more real than the “real”. To give up the thought-made identity…I tell you… – it is not less than a heroic act of courage as I come to understand that Thought is the total antinomy of Life…Thought is the greatest barrier to know God, in fact, ultimately speaking, I see thinking as the worst disease invented by man, in order to defend himself from Life.

Thought, which is psychological Time, keeps us away from the Divine.

Thought can never be free. As long as we reinforce thinking, we choose thus to be unfree.

If we are to be real, authentic, true – and thus to discover and know our own holiness and the original beauty of creation, we have to give up “mine” – that is, the false “I-identity” which is built on thought! Thought is “my will” as radically opposed to the will of the Creator.

Thought breeds and perpetrates Separation. 

First when we are relieved from the curse of thinking, can we see the purity in ourselves as well as in others.


Let the Ego fail

Your greatest despair is ego´s ultimate fulfillment.
Your Joy is ego´s greatest failure.

Dig beyond reason

Our civilization is built on Reason. On a meta level, Reason is the outcome of Fear.

Intrinsically we are afraid of the Mystery of Life, and being afraid, we let Reason govern our choices and actions, it is quite obvious.


Of course, nobody will ever admit this, but if you carefully look around, no matter if rich or poor, their experience is the same – different degrees of fiasco.

Most people don´t have a clue as to who they are, as they let Logic rule their life. Nobody has ever taught them the meaning of self-discovery, of “going inside”; obviously, the only thing they know is living by Fear.


Society has gone in a wrong direction for hundreds of years, so, if you understand that, and don´t want your life to be “another brilliant flop”, you will have  the courage to launch on the Journey to your real Self.

It requires incredible strength, determination and real bravery  because you´ll be really on your own.
You will deal with Fear in its infinite guises.

Not even the ones supposed to help you – priests, psychologists, “spiritual teachers” can´t help you, cause, with few exceptions, they suffer from the same disease – Fear. They are afraid to undertake the journey, although they can use the right “spiritual” terminology. But no terminology will ever help you…

What I can say, is that if you start this journey, Life will somehow “stay beside you” – you will get the means to go through all kind of trials. Nobody knows how, but you will see along the way…

It is really up to you, of how honest you are with yourself, of your readiness to see facts. Real contentment is to be found only in Self-Realisation. If you are thirsty for real life – for the Living Source is within you -, you will have to dig with your bare hands…