Dismiss what you have been taught to believe

Going against and dismissing what I have been taught to believe is truly hard work. My brain functions have been conditioned to fathom and consider reality according to such deceitful civilizational legacy – a bunch of idiotic crap really – so the new and healthily transformational Truth which bursts out of me, has as yet no coherent words inside myself.

So these last days, I have been going around in a state of “knowing”, yet without being able to articulate these highly uncommon insights. So – great serendipity or not – I´ve just bumped here into this excerpt by Alan Watts, which just happens to put words to my epiphany.

“Just because it is a hoax from the beginning, the personal ego can make only a phony response to life. For the world is an ever-elusive and ever-disappointing mirage only from the standpoint of someone standing aside from it — as if it were quite other than himself — and then trying to grasp it. Without birth and death, and without the perpetual transmutation of all the forms of life, the world would be static, rhythm-less, undancing, mummified.

But a third response is possible. Not withdrawal, not stewardship on the hypothesis of a future reward, but the fullest collaboration with the world as a harmonious system of contained conflicts — based on the realization that the only real “I” is the whole endless process. This realization is already in us in the sense that our bodies know it, our bones and nerves and sense-organs. We do not know it only in the sense that the thin ray of conscious attention has been taught to ignore it, and taught so thoroughly that we are very genuine fakes indeed.”