Your emotions talk louder than your words

I refuse to feel therefore I (don´t) exist

Life is Passion.

Yet, time and again we resist and resent our spontaneous,
unadulterated emotion.

We play it tepid, we play it safe – immutably killing our natural feeling – Life…

Celebrating Death seems to be our most respectable virtue.

Embrace your emotions

Sometimes, a pertinent idea just pops up out of nowhere. It can be the long sought-for solution, the right answer to something you so badly craved for, but couldn´t “figure it out”.

You just can´t “think” too much about it, pondering on, or trying to find the right words for it, hinders the informational flow.

You just let it come, as if you were a secret partaker to you own life.

A “pertinent idea” comes disguised as a strongly felt emotion. All great words are manifestations of inspired, almost haunting emotions. Only emotion helps us reach further in our quest of finding out our real purpose.

It strikes me like never before that Suffering derives from lack of emotional purpose. Lack of Felt Sense. If we are short of sense, that is, out of touch with emotion, we wither. We simply die inwardly.

The disease of this epoch is exactly this:

OBSESSIVE THINKING WHICH BRINGS ABOUT THE UBIQUITOUS ABSENCE OF EMOTION!

We are in the constant practice of  killing our emotion!

God damn it, let´s stop fleeing our emotions! 

EMOTION IS THE MAP OF LIFE! Your most precious asset.

Only truly heartfelt emotion will grant you the longed-for Sense, the healing of your human dignity!

Your inner story equates your destiny

Whatever happens, or doesn´t happen in your personal life-story is the outcome
of your inner story.

All events, all dramas, people you encounter, all relations, or absence of
meaningful relations,  mirror perfectly your inner state – your conditioning.

This inner conditioning of yours decide everything in the course of what you call
“personal experience”. Indeed, your inner conditioning equates your destiny!

With other words, this conglomerate of emotions, memories, traumas,
unfulfilled wishes, unresolved conflicts and expectations from your childhood
become THE ENTITY WHICH GOVERNS YOUR LIFE, WHO CALLS ITSELF “I”.

In most cases, your real I-ness has no chance against this powerful inertial dissonance. This vibrational disharmony is usually very powerful, it continues to perpetuate itself, yes, it lives “your” life, without you having a chance to assert yourself “against” it – as your real individuality is not sufficiently constellated.

If you were abused and maltreated in your childhood, if your father or mother were emotionally frustrated, if you were demeaned and scorned, the sum of these experiences will attract encounters with people with the same predicament.

If you are reasonably awake, you will admit that all your friends and acquaintances 
although being individuals with different backgrounds, secretly share a kind of similar destiny with yours.

I repeat: your early life-experience determines the course of your life!

Tell me honestly, how many times you haven´t worked hard to achieve something desirable, and what you got was nothing but a reiteration of your well-known life-drama…You wanted a better partner, a more understanding friend, a better position, but eventually you “manifested” the same abusive wife or husband, narcissistic friend or boss, being hopelessly relegated to your role as a victim of your own destiny…

Seemingly, your vulnerable and loose I-ness has no chance “to beat up” these mighty destructive forces. 

It is for sure an impossible combat to try fighting against this timeless individual and collective adverse heredity.

Sadly enough, very few will know the liberation from this reckless fate, and it is understandable why – it is an impossible undertaking to outwit an immemorial conditioning which is the very foundation of this “civilization”.

If you feel that you are among “those few” – and you might be, since you read these lines now – know that IT IS POSSIBLE TO PUT BEHIND THIS AGELESS DRAMA.

What is required is your readiness and lucidity to see things as they truly are.

Against all odds, what you have to do is acknowledging the drama but stop
fighting against it.

Understand that whatever you try to conceive being caught in the grip
of conditioning,
 will inevitably fail. 

IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE-STORY, YOU  NECESSARILY
NEED TO LET GO OF IT, TELLING YOURSELF A NEW STORY.

Watch out to not repeat the old story in a new version, which easily happens
when people and political systems claim to change.

Just stop aspiring! Take a break from it all for a while!
STOP TRYING TO BUILD ON A FALSE GROUND!

Put an end to this wicked carousel by just observing it impartially.

RETRIEVE YOUR INNOCENCE. Give yourself a new space! Your sense of real
I-ness may be presently weak and vulnerable, but through becoming a
child again, you can discover its incredible strength.

Observe your sorrow, don´t try to heal it through relations or through actions, cause you end up where you started. Just observe it, express it!

CRY IT if it feels like that!…It is no shame to express your pain!

Start to play again! Play and play even if it hurts! Improvise and play!
Put everything upside down! See Life, as an expression of Joy instead of Must.

Choose to see everything through the mirror of your new discovered joy! This joy
is the sister of your sorrow. 

The more veritable joy and true feeling, the more you grow.

And in due time, out of this joy – which is your true I-ness -, you will see that change swiftly happens around you. New people, new opportunities, new chances to grow!…

YOU CHANGE YOUR DESTINY WHEN YOU CHANGE YOUR INNER STORY!

A word for today

Heed and beware of Emotions.

They can take you to Hell or Heaven.

But know that neither hell or heaven is real 😉

If you are ashamed of your emotions you let society destroy your reality

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all.
PEOPLE TALK ABOUT HOW GREAT LOVE IS, BUT THAT´S BULLSHIT.

Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”

Jim Morrison

A reply to Heidi

You see,

I don´t want to reach “all the people all the time”. If I manage to reach You, if you allow my words TO PERMEATE YOU, in that readiness the new kind of energy I keep talking about can be created.
That energy is your readiness to be touched – that is the feedback I call for.

We need great honesty. The courage to see things differently, to listen, trust, question and reach out.
We need above all COURAGE TO EMBRACE OUR REAL EMOTIONS, whatever they may be.

We live in a horribly sterile age, and we have to recognize this fact if we want to make a difference.

Why do you think your poetry was sitting on a shelf gathering dust? Why do you think my music shares the same destiny?
Because there is no living context today to share poetry, music and love.
These natural expressions have become some kind of either the privilege of some lunatics, “excentric rubbish” or superfluous undertaking – as nobody is interested in real emotion anymore.
Life has to meet life, otherwise I can recite my poetry or play my compositions to a wall…

THIS IS THE REASON WHY I WANTED TO START MIRRORS OF ENCOUNTERS:
Out of an inner urge to create true contact, some kind of extended context where, truth,
true knowledge and Art can blossom.

TRUE EMOTIONAL ENCOUNTERS GENERATE LIFE AND INSPIRATION.

God knows why, but people – for an unfathomable reason – DON´T WANT TO BE
TOUCHED ANYMORE, DON´T WANT TO FEEL ANYTHING.

Everything feels so hollow, because people refuse to look within, dismissing their feelings.
THEY REFUSE TO SEE HOW THEY REALLY FEEL. They want to remain dumb, numb,
hollow and indifferent.

It is this indifference to one another, but above all, this indifference I see in people when it comes to acknowledging their inner life, makes me infuriated.

Whatever is true has to be reciprocated – above all – in ourselves. To let that inspiration sink within us.
To give ourselves, but also one another, a little more space, patience, vivid and
genuine interest and loving attention.

Whatever you give yourself, that is, your emotions in unadulterated form, will reach out to me and everyone around.

Why are we trying to escape our innermost emotions?

I raise this question as I see countless times how people repress their emotions. Passion and genuine sentiment scares many. It is uncomfortable to feel, and through oppressing our feelings we put down the voice of our conscience. Consequently, we have this unspeakably reckless, shallow and prosaic world.

The soul expresses itself through emotion. Ultimately speaking,
TO FEEL IS THE ULTIMATE MEANING IN LIFE. If we refuse to feel, it means that we don´t really want to live. It sounds far-fetched, but this is our present reality.

I take it again:

IF WE REFUSE TO TOUCH AND TO BE TOUCHED, WE REFUSE TO LIVE.

Have you ever wondered why hysteria is taken for music, kitsch instead of art, why don´t we have great artists anymore? Because of this morbid fact that we consider great emotions uncomfortable and dispensable. We flee, constantly suffocating our inner life, unwilling to hear the voice of our conscience, as conscience talks through feeling. It is indeed tabu to recognize and approve our innermost emotions.

Noble and deep emotion is the attribute of real humanity. Trying to escape
emotion, – implicitly, our conscience – , we become some kind of subhuman nil. A pitiful, disoriented entity fumbling around.