The most immanent insight

The moment when it dawns upon you that Joy and Peace are the outcome of absolutely Nothing and No one, then and only then, are you immaculately Free…

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Light Without Darkness

She:
I don’t feel ‘darkness’ exists basically. I feel many people use darkness as an excuse not to be responsible and be all they really are.

Me:
Don´t let yourself be fooled: Darkness doesn´t exist, YET IT´S VERY REAL…This world we inhabit is the fabric of Separation. Separation never happened, yet, here we are, as separated bodies…The few Enlightened ones, say all it´s a dream, which, of course it is…But WHAT THEY NEVER TELL YOU IS THIS:

We have all created this World, as an escape from Love, as an escape from Who We Truly Are. This very set up has taken millions – if not billions? – years to bring about. It is a world which seems “distinct” and “other” than God´s Real Version.

A long story short:

The Creator of this world, the Ego or The Demiurge is anything but easily dismissed as something you let go of, just like that…as the shallow New Age writers want us to believe. This Ego is incredibly uncanny, clever, captivating and intriguing yet at the same time ineffably vengeful, bitchy, mischievous, vindictive, yes, totally unforgiving…totally antagonistic to true Love…DIVINE LOVE is its highest menace, its highest nightmare. After all, it has made up a world which is supposed to compete with the True Creation of God, and through suffering, decay and death show God that he – the demiurge – is right…So its only agenda is to obfuscate God and our inherent Light. To keep you caught in Illusion.

You don´t fool around with this villain. It can easily shape-shift from one to many. It disposes over an incredible arsenal of “methods” to keep us confined in darkness. IT SIMPLY DOESN´T WANT US TO LIVE AND BE HAPPY. It is so deeply ingrained in our false being – after all, It is our creation – that he would do anything to prevent us from untangling ourselves from him. Enlightenment – which is to reconnect with pristine Love – is its supreme defeat. But again, enlightenment is such a rare “achievement” which requires an unwavering courage and commitment to confront this Fiddle Master. Look to this wretched world and you will see him at work. Bottom line: It is the one who has invented time, thought, suffering, sorrow, distance, punishment, disease, death. None of these are real…Yet he fiercely wants us to believe they are…After all he is A Mad Idea which popped up eons ago in God´s mind…It is a terrifying Nothing…

Our true countenance beyond all masks

“Getting rid of masks and unlearning everything takes time and great effort.”- says Nirmal.

In this our dimension governed by time and linearity, this is doubtelessly true. Without effort and perseverance, we come nowhere.

On the other hand…

Behind all our masks there is the radiant countenance…without a face there would be no masks to be attached…

The paradox is that yes, the masks are seemingly there, and yet, they are not…as the masks come and go, but the countenance Always remains.

So if we assume that the masks are simply some kind of illusion – false attachments, to put it simply – then the unlearning needs neither time nor effort…

The realization can happen Now…Lo!… It´s here!

But  being so deeply identified with our emotional and mental offsprings, we can´t perceive our true radiant face…We have no idea it is here…as we´ve never seen it.

Enlightenment is dropping all the masks at once…but the thing is that we can´t make this happen…that´s why we are stuck in time and effort…

Thing is that we need all this effort and perseverance, in order to understand that neither effort nor perseverance is ultimately needed.

🙂

What Is Enlightenment?

…When all myriad manifestations become a single breath.

…The Blessed Music of One Tone.

You can’t have a breakthrough without breakdown

– John

Another chapter, another Life. The end of depression

After decades of gruesome depression, I am now free from it.

Imagine that… I have managed to heal myself with little or no
help at all, refusing to take any medicine.

It´s been a terrible journey in the most unthinkable barren desert.
Others with the same predicament have had the fortune of having
understanding people around them. Not me…I had no one beside me to give me a hand, except some indirect help I´ve been totally on my own, my only companion being my trustworthy inner voice – my saviour.

It´s been an Odyssey into utter loneliness and darkness.
In Hades – the worst thinkable hell. Hell, because no one was interested to know. To understand. To speak about it. No one wanted to listen. They all in some way or another face it, yet due to shame and twisted vanity they feign it away.

What is blatantly significant is that the true healing from depression entails deep spiritual transformation, with other words – this may sound far-fetched – if you want to heal thoroughly, you almost have to eventually get “enlightened”. My new and beloved consorts which seem to no longer leave me in the lurch – Joy, Tranquility and Ineffable Force – point that way. To illumination.

So I have found this post which in my opinion is until now the most articulate and well-formulated article about how depression feels.

Here it is:

Depression is humiliating.
It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune.
It scoops out your normal healthy ability to cope with bad days and bad news, and replaces it with an unrecognizable sludge that finds no pleasure, no delight, no point in anything outside of bed.

You alienate your friends because you can’t comport yourself socially, you risk your job because you can’t concentrate, you live in moderate squalor because you have no energy to stand up, let alone take out the garbage. You become pathetic and you know it.

And you have no capacity to stop the downward plunge. You have no perspective, no emotional reserves, no faith that it will get better. So you feel guilty and ashamed of your inability to deal with life like a regular human, which exacerbates the depression and the isolation.
If you’ve never been depressed, thank your lucky stars and back off the folks who take a pill so they can make eye contact with the grocery store cashier.
No one on earth would choose the nightmare of depression over an averagely turbulent normal life. It’s not an incapacity to cope with day to day living in the modern world. It’s an incapacity to function. At all. If you and your loved ones have been spared, every blessing to you.
If depression has taken root in you or your loved ones, every blessing to you, too. No one chooses it. No one deserves it. It runs in families, it ruins families. You cannot imagine what it takes to feign normalcy, to show up to work, to make a dentist appointment, to pay bills, to walk your dog, to return library books on time, to keep enough toilet paper on hand, when you are exerting most of your capacity on trying not to kill yourself.

Depression is real. Just because you’ve never had it doesn’t make it imaginary. Compassion is also real. And a depressed person may cling desperately to it until they are out of the woods and they may remember your compassion for the rest of their lives as a force greater than their depression. Have a heart. Judge not lest yet be judge.

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You can follow your genuine intention, or the default plan of your ego-mind

It is clear that the Egotic Mind operates through time and thinking.

Although I have this very clear, I am still caught in this Ego drama, it still has me in its grip.

My real sense if I-ness as it were, can only partially release itself from this inertial energy.
Whatever I do, I encounter this conditioning in innumerable guises.

It seems almost an inhumanly impossible task to arrest these insidious energies.

Is there a way though to subdue this insidious entity, and have it obey you and not
vice-versa?

Sometimes I “manage”, – in the sense that all of a sudden I am set free, yet not knowing how it happened – while as I try to consciously free myself from it, I totally fail.

There seems to be no method, as whatever method reinforces the ego´s cursed agenda.

He:
Perhaps there is no method. Yet there is choice, focus and intentional action. If you see and allow it  to be “impossible” then your limiting belief will merely reinforce and keep it as such.

Me:
When you make whatever choice, it´s very hard to differentiate whether the ego-mind is in charge, or your “true” voice. How do you know which one talks within you…?

What I meant with “impossible” is the senselessness of trying to challenge the ego-mind directly. In a direct confrontation, It will invariably win, as this entity is incredibly cunning and disposes over an incredible arsenal of psychological setbacks.

I guess Krishnamurti puts it very well: you have to learn to heed everything with a very alert, yet, passive attention.

Not always an easy task…