Reality is wholeness

For most people, “Wholeness” is a mere futile concept, like music for the deaf. They are “deaf” to reality insofar as they take thought for Life.

Thinking – as we know it – cannot consequently grasp “Wholeness”. We can´t heal unless we question and eventually give up thought-identity.

Insanely difficult…- as this is our most precious heritage – our very Identity is and
stems directly from Thinking.

Debra:
I don’t know what you mean by “give up thought.” Have you experienced this?

Me:
I write only about things I have directly experienced.

Most assuredly, I have always wondered what it was meant by “Learn to die before you die”. I have lately understood: it is for sure the greatest challenge for man – to give up the false ego – that is, the wrong immemorial identification with THOUGHT! Thought is with other words, the “me”- identity which is so treacherously opposed to the totality of Life.

TO GIVE UP THE THOUGHT-MADE IDENTITY… – it is not less than a heroic act of courage as I come to realize that Thought has eventually nothing to do with Life…Thought is the greatest barrier to know Reality. In fact, ultimately, I see thinking as the worst disease invented by man, to defend himself from The Wholeness of Reality.

Yes…Thought which is self-imposed psychological Time – our shield defending us from directly experiencing Life.

We were never separated – we are one single Thought away

T:
What is the root of dualism?

Who created this seemingly insurmountable schism?

I’m wondering. What if there is no difference between (what we call) life and (what we call) death? What if there aren’t two ‘things’? Why don’t we say things like, “This day I set before you birth and life, chose birth.”?

What if it’s not about consequence? Or not even about sequence? [The root of this word takes invented time as a given. I do not.]

Seriously. I don’t want to morph this into a religious inquiry or discussion. But maybe somebody can help me here. Heck, let’s posit THE Creator…and just for the sake of discussion, let’s call it-him-her (capital G) God (it seems like a lot of people do, so I’ll go with that).

From just about everything I’ve EVER heard from the Creator-God People, there was “nothing”…then God spoke. As the direct result of this speaking, the world as we know it came into being. Here’s where I have a problem. If there was nothing, then God made ‘everything’, isn’t everything God? And if not, then from where did the stuff that is not-God come?

– “Thought is psychological Time which keeps us away from the Divine.” — JM

I THINK I understand what you’re saying about thought here. And I think I concur . . . kind of.

How can it be possible to be a part of an Incomprehensible Vastness of Being and be separated from it.

And how is it that WE create anything? Don’t we just twist what already is?

I don’t think it is possible to be kept away from the Divine.

But maybe that’s what I get for thinking.

Thanks. And please set me straight.

Me:
Before I venture to give some kind of answer, I want to make it clear that I am not indulging in vapid and arbitrary speculation, even if what I am going to say may seem nonsensical.

I am only interested in things which bring a real benefit, something with a DIRECT BEARING in real life. Something which sheds some light AS TO WHO WE TRULY ARE in a “meta-historical” perspective. I claim that only this kind of thorough “metaphysical” understanding as to the mechanics of Life, can free us from Illusion.

What is the root of dualism?

Who created this seemingly insurmountable schism?

Let´s take it this way:

Does anything as such ultimately exist? Is this world and our existence in it real?…

What if Creation as we know it in this dimension never took place…- but eventually it´s some kind of will-o´-the-wisp that each of one secretly creates?

Has God the Almighty ever created this world? The baffling answer is No.
Love can not create its opposite. Love has never created duality, nor any schism.
Why should it, after all…?

Once, eons “ago”, as we were all part of the blissful One, one fearful thought occurred within God´s mind:

“What if…?”

What if it all could be `different´ ?

This very thought triggered instantly the beginning of it all. Big Bang – the beginning of Separation. Of light and darkness. Fear and Love. In short – Duality.

So a “difference” can exist only inside the idea of duality, quite obvious. If there was no duality, there wouldn´t be a definite “you” or “me”. There would be no sequence or consequence either. No Creator and not anything “created”.

It´s funny, but there is only God, and what separates us from “him” or “her” IS IN ACTUAL FACT – A THOUGHT.

A thought which we take for real and that we maintain in every second. An insane thought
which dreams itself superior than the Creator, which competes and challenges Him, which in its striking arrogance believes it can create another “more real” REALITY than God´s…:)

Can you see this clearly?…

Look around you. What are people ultimately trying to achieve? A projection of this Initial Thought in every thinkable and unthinkable way:

“I am someone special, I am creating myself, my future, a position – I compete, I struggle hard with anyone for what is “mine” – my family, my kids, my country. Mine, mine, mine.”

This underlying Thought is pure insanity as it is not capable to outwit God, but in order to show its “supremacy” creates exactly what God is not: sickness, aggression, lack, war, chaos, disaster, calamities…- you name it.

This Thought is the so-called Ego. It is Separation. Fear. Guilt. Punishment. Suffering.

Now it´s easily understandable that Ego in its lunacy considers thus failure in all
variations – sickness, loss, crime, suffering, calamity of all kinds -, as his greatest success.
He tries hard to enact what God is not…

Can it be so immensely simple and yet unfathomable?…YES. This is the whole deal.

Now you understand that we are just one Thought away from True Life.

But don´t underestimate this Thought…It kills you if you question its “supremacy”.
It does everything to deny its agenda. This “thought” is what usually goes for Satan.
The Demiurge.

Yet, the truth is that this Ego-thought is nothing but a Cosmic Fraud, an existential misconception, an impotent echo of what God is. It is a no one in the true scheme of eternity.

This Thought of Separation has created Time, Distance, birth and death, “you” and “me”..

In reality there has never been any cleavage, but everything is Joy, Love and
Glory. Life in its mighty bliss – the Light of all lights.

If you manage to see through and let go of this Thought, – which must be said, is a frightening combat, consisting of unimaginable and uncanny trials – The Initial Light will shine in all its Splendor now.

In that light and presence, nothing needs be done, as everything is “done”, because being It you are perfect and complete.

Union with the Uncreated – healing from Thought and Separation

This is a very interesting dialogue between Michael. K. Marsh and me.

Michel:
We must get away from the idea that death is God’s punishment. Death is a consequence of being created. The created as opposed to the un-created has a beginning and an end.

The healing of this condition is union with the uncreated. We do not have life in and of ourselves. To turn away from the work of union with the divine/uncreated is sin. Thus the wages of sin is death.

I think this fits with scripture and tradition about the two ways: life and death. Both are always before us.

I think there is a fear of death in human beings. It is a driver in our lives, the choices we make, the priorities we establish. The problem is we often deal with that fear through substitute gratifications. We settle for relief rather than healing.

The degree to which we are afraid of death is also the degree to which we are afraid to truly live.

The paradox is that to live we must die. I think it is the Sufis who say, “Die before you die.” I think this is what Jesus was getting at when he said, “Deny yourself, take up your cross, and follow me.” It is the invitation to life, through union/thesis.

Living becomes an interior transformation which leaves us in the present moment. The present is the fullness of life, it is where the divine is located, it can become eternal. Too often we live in the past – “If only…,” regrets, wounds, resentment – or in a future we do not yet have. Both of those it seems to me are places of death.

God’s deepest longing is that we would live and live fully. St. Irenaeus said something like, “The glory of God is a many fully alive.”
I wonder sometimes if we have forgotten or confused what it is to be fully alive. I think there were be profound freedom in this – not autonomy to choose to do what every I want – but freedom to be, to be real, authentic, true – and in so doing to discover and know my own holiness and the original beauty of my creation. When we can see this in ourselves then we can see it in others.

Me:
I have to tell you that you have such a poignant and winsome way of writing. I feel the Silence, and the echo of your deep insights between your words.

There is both elegance but unsophisticated humbleness in your wording.

Yes, this is perfectly put:

Healing is Union with the Uncreated.

What is created is mostly under the supremacy of Fear. Hence, most people settle for relief, as, to reach Union you have to go through the hell of Separation, which means wrestling with Fear – an inhuman undertaking. Few – if any – have the courage to directly confront this daunting demon – as fear is a demon after all – take the battle, and not flee.

I love the way you put it:

“Too often we live in the past – `If only´…,”regrets, wounds, resentment – or in a future we do not yet have. Both of those it seems to me are places of death.”

Presence is well guarded by Fear.To come out alive from these places of Death requires great boldness and determination. To die before you die is the greatest challenge for anyone – that is, to give up the false ego. The ego is the outcome of Time, of Thought…indeed the “me” identity which is so treacherously opposed to God…- to who we really are…

I have these days won incredible battles. And these battles have taken place on these invisible levels – which are incredibly “real”. In fact, more real than the “real”. To give up the thought-made identity…I tell you… – it is not less than a heroic act of courage as I come to understand that Thought is the total antinomy of Life…Thought is the greatest barrier to know God, in fact, ultimately speaking, I see thinking as the worst disease invented by man, in order to defend himself from Life.

Thought, which is psychological Time, keeps us away from the Divine.

Thought can never be free. As long as we reinforce thinking, we choose thus to be unfree.

If we are to be real, authentic, true – and thus to discover and know our own holiness and the original beauty of creation, we have to give up “mine” – that is, the false “I-identity” which is built on thought! Thought is “my will” as radically opposed to the will of the Creator.

Thought breeds and perpetrates Separation. 

First when we are relieved from the curse of thinking, can we see the purity in ourselves as well as in others.

 

Are we dying to live or living to die?

There is no solution unless we acknowledge the problem

T:
I believe the ‘offer’ made to us is more on the order of to-live-or-not-to-live than one of death avoidance. I think we have *learned* to ‘fear’ death, and that the only, real, natural solution is found in LIVING.

Humans seem to have a tendency to behave in ways that are contrary to the broader natural order. So there is nothing really ‘unnatural’ in that sense…about synthetics OR human behavior. I think that ‘anti-natural’ gets closer to what I am trying to express than ‘unnatural’.

Many parents in ‘developed’ societies nowadays have come to believe that their ‘job’ is done when their children reach majority ‘alive’ (as in not dead). But are those children really *alive*? Are the parents? Is the focus on death? Or life? It seems evident to me.

There is a big difference between (a) being aware of things that would interfere with living and (b) fearing death. Death is no less a transition in the Life Process than birth. Fearing ‘future’ death makes no more sense than fearing ‘past’ birth…or fearing every moment that we live. Thus I see fear as a perversion of awareness.

Are we dying to live or living to die?

Me:
The thought coming naturally to mind is:

Can we ever fully live unless we have learned to die now?

Is clinging to life living?

Is living according to any idea true living?

The perversion of awareness is actually OUR IDEA we hold about life. Whatever idea, stems ultimately from Fear. Thus Fear is the foundation of our unnatural or anti-natural “relation” to life.

Fear is consequently wrong relation to Life, cause fear exists only in relation to something.

The blatantly conspicuous reality is that everybody tries hardly to be someone. Instead of being alive they all try to be “special”. Being special is again, an inane wish to reinforce the idea – to live according to a thought.

They all “choose” to be, instead of simply being…that is, allowing the natural urge to unfold seamlessly inside and outside them. This demented hubris is man´s most dooming calamity:

“We are better and stronger than life. My resistance against anything living defines me. The more I fight and compete Life – the natural – the stronger I am.”

Such huge misconception lies at the base of our way of living.

And so the consequence is all this mad and senseless unfolding and escaping in the wrong thing: everybody is in the wrong place at the wrong time, pursuing the wrong activity, being constantly in the wrong context.

They usually marry the wrong person, they´re stuck in the wrong jobs, have the wrong friends…the list of wrongness is interminable. That is quite evident: the ones who are not supposed to be there, prevent the ones who are supposed to be where they belong. 

To answer you question:

How can these insane people breed any sane and wholesome kids…?
Of course they can´t. How can the children be alive, when the parents
are diseased?…

This utterly defective life-style leads inevitably to misfortune, suffering and madness, and hence at some point, as a way out of this, man escapes his furious insanity through conflict and irrational violence, ultimately creating war…- war meaning, everybody fighting against his own misconceptions…man fighting against his and others´ false ideas.

So yes, that´s the key question:

Are we dying to live, or living to die?

With other words, are we going to stubbornly stick to these our obsolete and death-bringing Ideas and destroy the whole planet, or do we have now the awareness of the prompting necessity to renounce and let go of this calamitous hubris?

Paradise is the state of being re-membered

Here are some excerpts from a post by Michael Marsh. I find his words inexpressibly moving. In fact, I have rarely read something so meaningful and well-formulated.

“We all know what it is like to be remembered and we know what it is like to be forgotten. Think of a time you were remembered, what happened, how it felt. Maybe it was a phone call, a letter, a visit, a gift, a simple word. Maybe it was a surprise or maybe it was what you were hoping for. Maybe it was as seemingly simple as someone recognizing you, looking you in the eyes, and calling you by name. Regardless of what it was or how it came about it brought you some sense of life, healing, and wholeness. We all want to be remembered. It means that we matter, we belong, we exist, and our life is real. When we are remembered someone else bears witness to all those things.

There is life, presence, and relationship in being remembered. We know how important remembering is. That’s why a couple of weeks ago, we remembered by name those we love and who love us, those who are forever a part of us and our lives, those who have nurtured, cared for, and taught us. When we are remembered it is as if our life is being put back together, because it is. That is exactly what is happening. We are being made whole. Despite the scattered pieces of our lives, things done and left undone, in the moment of being remembered we are seen, recognized, and known by name. We are alive. We are remembered.

Compare that with a time when you were forgotten. What did that feel like? Have you ever sat in a restaurant waiting for someone who did not show up? How about that person that looks at you, begins to speak, and you realize they have no idea who you are or what your name is? Maybe someone forgot your birthday, or the anniversary of your wedding or the death of a loved one. In those moments we feel alone, abandoned, uncertain, afraid, wounded, maybe even angry. There is a sense of helplessness. Questions and doubts arise within us. We are no longer sure of our place and whether we even belong. Regardless of why or how it comes about there is hurt, separation and isolation, a dismembering of the relationship and our life.

I am not talking about the usual understanding of remembering and forgetting as a mental activity. I’m speaking of re-membering in the sense of joining the pieces together, putting the parts back again as one. The opposite of re-membering is dis-membering; separation, pulling apart, tearing limb from limb.

Sometimes, however, we don’t even recognize our own dis-membering. People want to escape their lives rather than have them put back together in a way they could never imagine.

Our cry to be re-membered is also a recognition and confession of our dis-memberment. We have been dis-membered. Pieces have been scattered and lost. Sometimes it happens through the circumstances of life; loss and grief, shattered dreams, disappointment, regret, failures, the death of a loved one. Other times it comes about through our actions, our words, even our thoughts. Our life becomes fragmented and broken. When that happens we can easily become thieves. We take what is not ours. We dis-member others’ lives in an attempt to put our own back together.

http://interruptingthesilence.com/2013/11/25/re-membering-is-paradise-a-sermon-on-luke-2333-43/

The Fearful Ego – the hidden Entity subminating your life and health

With the risk of being considered some kind of excentric loon, I think it´s ripe time to call things by their true name, unveiling and speaking about an incredibly elusive psychic reality which is at work creating and fueling all our problems including physical and psychical diseases. It is this very reality which ultimately prevents and deprives us of living a fulfilled and meaningful life.

She:
Well, what do I have to lose, except my ego, right?

What you say makes sense to me, but I’m still afraid. I don’t know if this is a task to be undertaken when one’s physical health is bad, or if this is the perfect time to take it because my physical health is bad.

Me:
Don´t be tempted to believe that “losing Ego” is some kind of trifle…Don´t underestimate its enormous power. The “combat” with it is anything but “easy”…- it is in fact an “impossible” undertaking, insofar as it´s an illogical dispute on “life and death”. Meaning that when It lives having us under its command we are dead, and conversely, its death is us being alive.

I told you before that Ego is a very treacherous and very tenacious entity which can easily shape-shift from singularity to plurality – it can be one, but many at the same time. Like the monster with different heads in the fairy tales.

It disposes over an incredible arsenal of guises. It can take over whatever “existing” manifestation, in fact. It is highly unpredictable, popping up when you least expect it. It can be insidiously subtle – inasmuch as we can confuse it with the voice of Self – or unmistakably aggressive, vindictive and mean. Conflict, misery, affliction, chaos and disorder are its most precious characteristics – unpredictably wreaking havoc in every thinkable or unthinkable way.

It loves to punish itself and the host through disease.

As I said before: every form of psychic ailment is its “fabrication” too…- that´s hard
to swallow, as this sounds totally unsubstantiated for any sound and rational person.

Actually, it loves not to be identifiable, it skilfully and insidiously hides behind the curtains in order to maintain control. When you hear all these men of science denying the existence of Evil, be sure that it´s It, claiming it doesn´t exist.

That being said, you thus understand how hellishly difficult it is to identify it.

Unless you have dared look in the depth of depth, this seems to be some kind of gobbledygook of a deluded mind.

THAT IS WHY IT IS SO HARD TO HEAL: you necessarily need to plunge into these unseen levels of being, and there be aware of realities which are at work but everybody denies.

We are so modern…HOW CAN WE EVER DENY WE ARE POSSESSED?….

So now it is about being lucid here.  Sometimes “reasonable” entails dropping mundane logic:

So ask yourself:

Who is afraid within you?… Do you understand that fear is the very tool with which this
parasite of ego manipulates you?…

It is Fear stealing and frustrating you of your energy. Fear giving you all these seemingly
unsolvable health problems. Fear preventing you from truly living and being ardently alive.

You can put an end to this parasite living at your expense, by consciously staying with What is in adamant lucidity, courage and determination.

Take a break from all words and books – only Silence will heal and restore

All these books, sites, programmes, presentations…

They all have something in common: you are bombarded by words.

Pages after pages that take you nowhere.

It´s maddening… – you feel lost in interminable mazes…

How do you take it…? How do you cope with this?

I, for one, don´t.

God in heaven… – such an overwhelming amount of information.

Clever but misleading words, so many facts, such massive “knowledge” and at the end, more often than not, nothing is said…- and you feel totally depleted, as you found out nothing bearing there.

Something to heal you. To sooth you…To guide you through…Oh no.

What you usually find, is intelligent Illusion…it´s scary, you can spend
entire lifetimes, trying to sort out anything tangibly positive there.

So what is one to do…?

My piece of advise is this:

Forget words, forget texts, forget learning for a while.

Create an inner spaciousness. Create a healthy emptiness in and around you.

Only that soothing Silence will truly heal you.