What are we? Why are we here after all?

It’s actually a necessary hell to ask impossible questions…Yet, the whole point is to realize the blatant inappropriateness of human logic, and in due time, gradually experience the incredible relief and ease of not pondering anymore…

“In due time”? I beg to differ. ALL time is in the now. Change is instantaneous.


There is time – there is no time. There is a process of becoming – there is no process and no becoming.

To be concrete: Let´s say you want to play Rachmaninoff´s third piano concerto and you have never played the piano before. Albeit that time is always in the now, you will still need years to develop the skill which matches the difficulty of that piece.
The same with inner resistance or the inappropriateness of human logic: of course it can happen instantly, but despite that linearity and growth is a dream, it is a nevertheless a gradual process. For the record, let´s ask a Zen master, as to why he gives impossible questions – koans – to his disciples…

The solution is inherent in the very problem you flee from

He wrote:
I should not run away from all the problems. I am too rough with myself many times it seems. I am overly critical and harsh with myself. I need to find out, how to learn to accept and love myself more. Writing this blog and listening wonderful suggestions from wonderful people like you definitely helps. May be I should think what else can I do about resolving this issue.

Once my girlfriend told me that “I think you like to be depressed; you don’t want to get rid of it”. Your observation reminded me of my girl-friend’s words to me. I don’t know whether it is true that I do not want to get rid of it. I believe that I do want to get rid of it. But the fact that my girlfriend, who is one of the person’s who know me very well, suggests that perhaps I am not sufficiently motivated to overcome my problem! That is scary.”

My comment:
“I need to find out, how to learn to accept and love myself more”, you say.

Please follow attentively!

The paradox here is that “HOW” basically means you are looking for a method, a way out of your inner conflict. “How” is actually postponing, an escape, a mere projection which reinforces your inner schism.

After all you say it yourself: “May be I should think what else can I do about resolving this issue.”

What you really say is: “May be I should think what else I can do in order to resist and flee myself even more…”

Cause fleeing yourself is the issue, can you see that? – That´s what makes you overly critical and harsh, the distance to yourself, the gap inside you – the conflict.

Stop seeing yourself and your depression as an “issue”. You don´t need to find out or learn anything as to how to “deal” with yourself.

If you are hungry, you eat.

In the same natural way, you stay with What Is – with yourself, the way you are now…

The Solution is inherent in the very problem!

You can take suggestions from others, yet ultimately it´s about you taking the step to unreservedly and lovingly accepting how You Are Now, and that will show you the healthy actions you need to undertake when the moment is ripe.

This is not semantics: It is a huge problem though with this word – acceptance. “I should accept myself and my problems”, you say. “Accepting” many times means creating even more resistance.

Real acceptance is about surrendering. Letting go with no thought…

Finally, wanting to “get rid of” or “overcome” a problem, that will enhance the problem. Fighting against something, brings back more evidence of that specific conflict into your life experience.

Impartially and lovingly staying with the problem as it is, will bring you understanding, and once you understand, the solution is there.



An interesting dialogue about time

Richard says:

“I am speaking about psychological time here” was a central issue of yours. I think this derives from Krishnamurti’s point of view who said literally “It is the interval between idea and action. An idea is for self-protection obviously; it is the idea of being secure. Action is always immediate; it is not of the past or of the future; to act must always be in the present, but action is so dangerous, so uncertain, that we conform to an idea which we hope will give us a certain safety.”

Well, to live a real life means to live in the now. You can neither live in the past nor in the future – only our thoughts remain in these tenses much too often. Our depressions stem from the past and our anxieties emerge from future thoughts.

My answer:

For sure, an idea is a means to self-protection – self-protection meaning resistance against “the unpleasant” – that is against the Unknown …So action being so dangerous, so uncertain, we conform to an idea which we hope will give us a certain safety. This very idea we conform to, creates the interval, and this interval – that is fearing the unknown –  is time; that´s exactly what I say.

In fact, every form of inner escape, creates time. It is a terrible thing for many to live now. As “Now” means confrontation both with real pain, BUT AS MUCH WITH ABSTRACT PAIN!!! And according to what I see, abstract pain is much more unbearable to people than actual whatever affliction. It is not the object per se which scare us, but our thoughts about it.

To confront fearful thoughts is an unbearable undertaking for most humans, don´t you think?

This is perfectly formulated Richard:

“To live a real life means to live in the now. You can neither live in the past nor in the future – only our thoughts remain in these tenses much too often. Our depressions stem from the past and our anxieties emerge from future thoughts.”

So sad, instead of Now, people live in tenses…

I could also add that depression is constant reiteration of the past into the future. This mechanical reiteration, which is Fear, kills Now. When we give up Time, we give up our resistance, and in that readiness we can confront the real problem – fear.

Why don´t dreams come true

We all have wishes and dreams that for one or another reason haven´t yet come true.

What I can say beyond any shadow of doubt, is that our dreams didn´t manifest in our life, not because of bad luck, bad karma or the fact that we weren´t worthy of them.

I know that for many of you this will sound like a terrible cliché – it is never the others to blame for our lack of success. What kept us away from fulfillment, happiness, and our dreams to come true, IS OUR INNER RESISTANCE.

Our inner resistance didn´t allow all the good things to happen.

I confess that I got really mad when I heard this truth some good years ago. But this seems to be a fact.

What is this inner resistance? It means that due to some very obscure inner mechanisms, we cannot allow the things we ask for to enter into our experience.

With other words, if we are not at the same level of frequency with the person or thing we wish for, the connection will never occur.

This is such a huge subject so I will write more about this in future posts.

Anyhow, the fact is that in the last weeks I began to feel that I finally allow things I´ve longed for a long time to be part of my experience.

I will end this post saying that for years I wanted to meet a well-known philosopher and writer. He writes in the same manner as I do, he ventures into levels of being like no other scholar, so I was eager for his point of view regarding vital spiritual matters that the academic world refuses to acknowledge. Out of the blue, the head of a known culture institute called me this morning – I was quite perplexed as this man never before showed me any particular interest. He called to invite me to meet this writer in person.

Quite amazing isn´t it?…

A breath away

Everything is just a second away but due to our inner resistance it can take years to discover this Second.


Identification is the consequence of effort, to be one thing or another…

Flow is effortless, thoughtless recognizing …Discipline in “forgetting” or “ignoring” the unpleasant, are the outcome of inner resistance.

Remembrance is just a natural state of thoughtlessness. Let flow remember you 🙂