Richard:
Last night I had a dream which wasn’t a dream. I woke up in the middle of the night. Everything was silent. While I tried to fall asleep again, I started a slight meditation. Just observing my breathing. Somehow the word “love” was entering my mind and it wouldn’t leave. It was so particular present that I stopped to watch my breath and concentrated on this word instead. It came to me that my face began to smile more and more. I couldn’t stop it … and I didn’t want to as well. My whole body was full of peace and inner joy.
Have You ever had an experience like that?
Me:
Those moments come usually at night. I find myself not knowing anything any longer, it feels as if Knowledge and Thought are suspended…Only that unnameable Presence whispers, everything else has withered…
Richard:
Very well put…as usual. I really appreciate that. But what I appreciate even more is the content of what
you’re saying. I think I could get addicted to that kind of experience. And when I think of it right now I can resume this feeling. Not as intensive as it was then, but it is still there. Julien, can you create this feeling on purpose? If so: how do you do it?
Me:
Above all, whose purpose are we talking about…? Who wants to feel well and secure…? Give it a real thought, or give it no thought at all… – I think you know the answer…
Look what our friend Krishnamurti says:
“The ‘how’ to keep the mind pliable is not the problem; the ‘how’ is the search for a method, and method can never make the mind innocent; it can make it methodical, but never innocent, creative.”
The secret to your question lies in un-creativeness.
That´s the hardest part: to “learn” to un-create.
It is not a linear process, it is not a “task”, a skill to learn…
It is about recognizing Attention in inattention…I am not playing with sophisticated words or parables…
It is about this very Second now… – learning to un-know…It is not about deliberateness, thesis or antithesis, effort or non effort. If I was to use words, it´s like we have to learn how to empty the mind Now, to learn to die each and every moment.
When you die to concept, thought, desire and deliberateness, The Second arises in all its depth and innoncent beauty.
This unnamable second is like a breath…boundless but never recurring…as it is eternally new…It is neither easy nor complicated – IT IS IMPOSSIBLE to know it rationally…
So how can we learn to deal with the Impossible…? That´s the hardest question…
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The old saying “Live and learn” is probably good.
The opposite though – un-live and un-learn – is equally essential, if not, more essential.
In order to learn something new, we have to realize the necessity of letting go of the known.
Sometimes we come to a point – as I have done lately – where we have to put a conscious stop to old conditionings…
The old personality stems from complexes which we have inherited since times immemorial, which call themselves “I”. It is not a pleasant process to let go of old reflexes and habits, as this is our identity so far…It can be quite an agonizing experience in fact…
Before renewal, the false personality with its complexes must die – which is a harsh thing to undergo, as this process is similar to an end, and it is quite similar to death.
Transformation is for sure the ending of certain age-old life-principles. Our “mundane” personality fears the unknown, it is quite obvious, our false ego doesn´t want to give in, wanting to continue its daft performance.
However, these blunt dissonances, – the legacy of our past – , have to be seen as the ego´s desperate attempt to inhibit change. We have to have the strength to recognize this as such, let it go and show are readiness to go along with the New, even if “new” doesn´t have a clear body… – yet…
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