So what is a true encounter?

…he eagerly asked.

Me:
It´s mirror encountering mirror.

What does this entail?…The mirror is empty, isn´t it? As such, it can reflect anything with no preference. With no resistance. With no strife. Eventually, where there is mind – that is, an interest – there is no empathy. Empathy is recognizing the other as being a continuation of you. And if the other is another side of you, a real encounter creates a nourishing energy, a momentum, a joy which heals, soothes and inspires…Two mirrors becoming actually One…

A blessed encounter

Fate arranged that I met some Gypsy people tonight. The winsome honesty with which they were talking, the craziness, the generosity, the wisdom, playfulness, deep humanity, all in all, all facets of the human drama were charmingly embraced and exultingly talked about. There was no trace of false modesty, hypocrisy or emotional restraint. No taboos. Nothing to hold back or be ashamed of. How we laughed…Everything humane was covered and taken into account.
I have never in my life before conversed this freely, seamlessly and without any sense of guilt or tímorousness…in such deep and natural insight.
Staggering what nearness can be shared and conveyed when it´s right…

I understand even more now why I named this blog Mirrors of Encounters…

The Awaiting Mirror

She sees because she´s seen.

Yes, the Mirror has seen it all, and yet she has seen nothing,
cause she remains forever empty… – and being empty,
she is always happy, waiting in merriment to see
and to be seen again…and again.

Should I stay or should I leave – or both…?

harulawordsthatserve:
I’ve only just come across you as a result of you liking a recent post of mine (thank you!) and this is the first post I’ve read, which makes me curious to read more. I can understand your frustration, but I would urge you to have a little more patience. True service is self-sustaining. If this isn’t serving you, is making you tired, something isn’t working…and I would like to gently and lovingly invite you to take that inquiry back to yourself. What serves you?

Personally I find it serves me to celebrate what is already good in the world rather than focus on changing all the things I don’t like. I’ve been there and it was indeed exhausting…because what you focus on grows. I can’t tell you what’s right for you, only you can decide if continuing this blog is the right decision, but I also think it would be a shame to end it here – if you’re going to go out, go out with a bang! Write the best, most loving, most hopeful. most inspirational piece you can…and then move on.

Me:
I am always prone to question and inquire – above all, myself: my so-called perspective, or lack of perspective, or my judgement – as to whether it is clear or not, correct or incorrect. I am not afraid to see and recognise my shortcomings.

The absence of right feedback I am talking about, IS NOT THE FEEDBACK GIVEN BACK TO ME, but rather the incapacity of others to appropriate the information given. You see, I don´t think truth is “self-sustaining”,
I´d rather say, TRUTH IS “BOTH-SUSTAINING”.

Whenever a real and authentic dialogue takes place, whenever there is a genuine wish to approach and see things honestly and lucidly, for sure, that very energy heals both the giver and the taker. Don´t ask me how, but I FEEL THAT ENERGY WHEN SOMEONE RIGHTLY HAS APPROPRIATED WHATEVER I WRITE.
It is an uncommon but very fulfilling sentiment.

You say:

“Personally I find it serves me to celebrate what is already good in the world rather than focus on changing all the things I don’t like. I’ve been there and it was indeed exhausting…because what you focus on grows”

It is rightly so, and perfectly put. Now…The fact of the matter is that
I NEITHER CELEBRATE THE GOOD NOR THE BAD in the world.
I am not interested in “the world” as the World is a vague and elusive concept.
THE WORLD IS THE VERY FACT OF ME WRITING TO YOU NOW!

If I manage to convey to you something pertinent in this moment, as you did with
your comment, than the whole world – in a sort of irrational way – will actually benefit
from our dialogue.
WE ARE IN THE ACT OF OBVIOUSLY GIVING SOMETHING TO EACH OTHER:
THESE WORDS NOW!

The curse of this present age is that everybody is interested to get, but very few – if any!! – give something in return. It is sometimes quite evident, that many are not even giving to themselves what is rightly theirs…

I feel many times in an awkward position, as I am among the very few who have the guts to take up things which are neither convenient, pleasant or spiritually or emotionally “corrrect”.

This is not focusing on the “good or bad”, my words are not supposed
“to change” because they won´t. I just ask and call for a fairly serious and lucid attitude
to deal with important issues, which can deepen our further understanding of ourselves
questioning our timeless conditioning.

Is Conditioning good or bad? The answer is simple: Conditioning is thoroughly bad.
Even the “good aspects” of conditioning are intrinsically bad, as they create even more confusion and infelicity. It seems to me, that people are not so interested to really commit themselves to change.
IF THEY WERE, THEY WOULD HEED MORE THE INFORMATION HERE,
or elsewhere for that matter.

But again, this requires a serious and thorough attitude, not only some kind of vainly
pursuing an existential whim, in order to alleviate your momentary bad conscience or fears
in the moment, and then get back to the same shallow and mendacious life.

Now, as a final note, I have already written “my best, most loving, most inspirational” every single time according to my best ability. The information is already here in Mirrors of Encounters for the ones ready to see.

The question is:

WHO IS READY TO SEE AND RIGHTLY APPROPRIATE THIS INFORMATION…?

https://julienmatei.com/2012/12/13/10392/
https://julienmatei.com/2012/12/15/habit-banality-and-hypocrisy/
https://julienmatei.com/2012/12/14/a-reply-to-heidi/

How shall I continue with Mirrors of Encounters?

My own conscience and The Universe are the witnesses that I always tried to be honest
and truthful to the best of my ability in whatever I have undertaken.

I have to admit, when it comes to writing here, I am in a bit of an impasse for the time being. Despite the fact that this so-called blog has a quite a few visitors – between 100-200 a day, I feel that I don´t know any longer in “what tonality” I am going to continue to write.

I find myself in an awkward dilemma – if I continue to write in the kind of law key,
polite and “civilized” random way, I don´t reach at all my target. If I continue in this manner, Mirrors of Encounters is about to become another kind of “cosy”, flat, dull and vapid place for superfluous metaphysical delusion.

A subtle and noble language doesn´t seem to make a real difference.
Modern man – I said this million times – is too disturbed and deaf to hear and differentiate a sublime and refined approach.

I feel like writing more bluntly, more biting, more incisive – yes, it seems that using a more
violent and rampant language, has a bigger chance to be heard. But then I would be
considered uncouth and ill-mannered.

 I no longer know… Really, my intent is not to flirt with egos, to be popular. I couldn´t care less about that…

My target is to impact and to shake you,
BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT WE ALL NEED – TO BE SHAKEN FROM THIS CURSED TORPOR,
TO BE AWAKENED FROM THIS SICKENING TURPITUDE IN WHICH WE CONSTANTLY DISGUISE OURSELVES.

There is a wild side of me, wanting to come out and roar, something so sane and powerful but yet,
this very force is hold back and relegated to some kind of dire and inane civilized contrivance – as I have to “behave myself” and use a “proper” langauge.

The hell with proper language, the hell with this insipid and idiotic pretense, the hell with this grandiloquent bullshit – we need to let out a more raw and wild genuine expression.

WE ARE SICK AND WE NEED TO WAKE UP. We need to burst into a more immediate, more reckless, more agrestic backwash, in order to allow the depth of our real being to break forth.

I need your feed-back on this.

Have you ever seen a vindictive strawberry?

Richard:

Julien my friend,
As I’m still thinking about the very few slightly fierce comments made here on Mirrors of encounters I felt myself being trapped. I simply have fallen for those harsh expressions. But actually it wasn’t my real inner voice who told me that. No, it was my ego which was hurt and which tried to defend itself. My perception of it made me feel angry and defensive.

I’d say it was exactly the same with you. Am I right?

Me:

Defense yes… What are we defending at the end of the day?…You see, only the false can be defended… Never The Real…A rose, a dawn, a river, or a chestnut tree don´t defend themselves…They just generously pour out their beauty…

I have never seen an angry apple or a vindictive strawberry…Have you?

A dream comes true

Indeed, in this very second I feel such an incredible far-reaching joy and gratitude. What I long wished for, and didn´t happen, now it happens. Yes, I see a dream coming true:

My eager wish to communicate and share, my desire to initiate a place where we can dare have a real debate about uncomfortable topics,
questioning things that are consciously overlooked, well…now this is happening under my eyes on Mirrors of Encounters.

It is a hard journey. Many times during the day I feel hopelessly lonely and lost, dealing with insights that almost nobody is interested to hear, accept or take up. I meant many times to give up writing here. But sometimes it´s good not to give in.

Now at last…! comments are made, when we dare exchange and share our experiences, it feels actually that we create a breath of fresh air.

As realmanure. wordpress.com says:  “I do not see a cure in sight for the world’s malaise. But we must live somewhere in the middle of optimism and pessimism.” Indeed, this timid voice of hope and – why not – new lucid optimism, makes itself felt. I for one, begin to breath as if a burden is being taken away from my chest. This communication is like fresh oxygen to me.

I feel it, it gives a precious feeling of promising joy and new meaning. It is still hard – working with oneself is the hardest job you can do – but now, when this wheel of communication has slowly started to spin, I can say this energy is unbelievable. IT IS REAL, this presence created out of honest communication is undaunted and  powerful.  It goes beyond this very context, into something far more comprising than we are aware.

I guess if I feel this blessed energy of real hope, it is for sure going to reach out to many others who sincerely are on the same track of Self-recover and Self-retrieving – the most mighty of all journeys.