A guy I know once said: “Every single moment from the time you are born till the very moment you die is a drama. GOD DAMN IT, EVERY MOMENT IS A DRAMA.”
I must cofess that when he uttered those words, I was kind of shocked. I felt instinctively that he expressed a great truth, something that I was not really prepared to admit. I have pondered on his words ever since.
Every second is indeed a problem. All our problems can be reduced to a single
problem: WE. Yes, we… – you and me as egos. As loose and separate egos.
Ego… it´s very intrinsic nature is problematic …
There is a collective Ego, meaning that other people’s problems are indeed your and my
problems as well.
If others had no issues we wouldn´t have any either…Accordingly, if you and me had no issues, other people would be free. There is no doubt about this as I experience this more and more. So the question is:
Is there a problem beyond me?… Can I completely and unreservedly stay with this truth, see and realize this very moment that I am the problem, that Ego – in me or in others – is the problem?
As I said, the innermost nature of Ego is conflict. Consider this: Ego is a chain of conflicts, ego is that very interval between a conflict and another. Can you see this? That interval between two conflicts is Thought. Thought creates Time, and Time is in its turn, the outgrowth of that very inner conflict. You all know that: Time is suffering. Time is our attempt to escape the Problem, our ongoing Drama…now.
This is maybe hard to comprehend: The second between two thoughts, – NOW – is Reality beyond Drama – immeasurable happiness. Don´t try to grasp this mentally just observe:
When there is no thought, no time – that is, the interval between a conflict and another – surely, when there is no entity trying to solve the problem – Life – in this realization is the end of Ego, the end of drama and all problems.
There we were. The four of us, together.
We let each other in each other´s moment, in each other’s yearning. Without fear, without thought, with no reflection.
We were silent. What delightful wonder. We let the dormant whiff of trust embrace us.
Who was who? Who became who?
Yes, that was nearness, but a glorious estrangement at the same time. We were close, but far from each other, both here and nowhere.
Oh, what I have dreamed about this, about feeling that ineffable rest not only in myself but with others. Now it happened.
This so vibrant and permissive silence, this so beneficient presence in which we all became one body.
Yes, we became even more ourselves, feeling taken care by both this enigmatic presence, and by this sweet alienation. The secret Face was mirroring us.
We were we in everyone .
Everyone was We …
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