I have nothing to defend – I am free

About memory, practice and repetition

buddhasal says:

Is something that we do so well not an act from memory developed through repetition? One doesn’t use memory conspicuously at times but it is implied that if you do something well then you learned it from practice and isn’t practice something stored in memory for use later?

Me:
Good question:
“Is something that we do so well not an act from memory developed through repetition?”
Memory, repetition and practice…Let us try to give it a thought and find out together what´s what.

That´s for sure, without me being able to write and speak English properly, I couldn´t write here. For the record, I am not sure always as to my appropriate usage of the language. However, quite evidently, it has taken me years of reading and pondering to be able to expose an idea reasonably well.

The same applies to piano playing or painting, or whatever other skill. In order to fulfill your ability, it takes years of practise, of commitment and perseverance…you know, what is usually considered “hard work” is undoubtedly a fact, if you want to reach excellence.

What you say is right: “it is implied that if you do something well then you learned it from practice and isn’t practice something stored in memory for use later?”

Let me tell you that I am – what they call – a very versed pianist. I have been playing the piano since I was five, attempting to improve this skill my whole life. Once, after a very demanding concert, a five-year-old kid went to the piano and JUST PLAYED TWO NOTES.Those tones were so pure so I was taken aback. I realized with greatest awe, that THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ME “THE GOOD PIANIST” AND THE BOY WHO NEVER TOUCHED A PIANO BEFORE BUT PLAYS ONE NOTE…

You know, this very episode turned my so-called world upside down…It was probably one of the moments which triggered my awakening. I spent all my life improving my skill and there comes a boy, and with two tones, he overthrows all my then current beliefs…

So the question is: who is better off…? The beginner or the connoisseur?
The one who “knows”, or the one who is inexperienced and “doesn´t know”?

Isn´t memory many times just a tool to perpetrate my identity which is nothing but my self-importance?
Isn´t my identity and self-importance the walls I raise so that we cannot reach each other…?

What is the target for my practising…? Why do I repeat day in day out the same thing…? The answer is quite evident: I TRY TO BE SOMEONE. No matter what, I always struggle to assert myself.

If my only gain is self-assertion, it means that you automatically become my enemy – can you see that? Your plans can never coincide with mine as long as I fight for “my thing” and you for yours.

If we look closely, does anything repeat itself?…What is repetition at the end of the day?

Obviously, Repetition is inherent in ego´s nature, and through memory, practise and repetition the Ego magnifies its “everlasting” importance blowing up its illusion of being separate.

If we have eyes to see, we can understand that:
Nothing ever repeats itself, if there is no separate entity to watch and witness…

When I let go of memory, practise, repetition, when I drop the idea of “later” too, then I am ever new. Second by second. Being “new” every moment, I am free, I have nothing to defend. Only fear – that is identity – can be defended.

So the very idea of identity generates the illusion of memory, repetition and practise.

When this is understood, you will realize that in this new gained freedom, you are being “remembered”. With other words, you let go of Memory and trust the ineffable Now. In this joyful trust, you have an immediate relation to life, you have energy, that is, you can create something without repetition. You no longer define yourself through “WHAT WAS” but through WHAT IS.
What is, is Life happening now. When you live in present tense, there is no gap
anymore between Everything There Is and You.

Being in direct contact with What is, is unforeseen immense potential!

ONLY WHAT IS, IS TRUE. Everything else is senseless literature.

https://julienmatei.com/2012/11/30/memory-is-fear-of-now/