Individuation
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Dire analogies
2015/06/12 1 Comment
Long story short:
My father managed to fuck up and steal my Now, inflicting nothing but fear, frustration and guilt on me. His fierce and unblessed conduct has affected me for life: Wasted years of shattering loneliness, huge pain, confusion. Unbeknownst he turned me into the depositary of his vengeance and aggressive madness.
Years after.
I met recently a hellishly charming woman who managed to make me believe and trust her. Such endearing communication we seemed to be engaged in. But alas, behind her winsome innocence, elegance and beauty, hided a vindictive monster. I made the mistake of letting my guard down, and the pandemonium started.
The whole game that followed was about manipulation of emotions, everything to take me away from and kill my NOW-Presence!!! This power-horny slut, hated whatever vivid and spontaneous expression – eventually, she seems to be at war with Life and Living. Of course she would never ever admit this. She would deceive you with incredible skillful delusions. Such a con artist, helping me in subtle or violent ways to disengage from and live in bitter oblivion from Self. To forget WHO YOU ARE, so you become her prey.
The blatant likeness between her and the wounds imposed on me by my father in my early childhood is mind-blowing. Staggeringly paradoxical. Why Life is such a complicated psychological conundrum totally surpasses my grasping…
But here I am…Coming out, untangling myself from and sorting out an age-old nightmarish riddle…Speaking about things no one dares to acknowledge or take up….
You won´t believe this
2015/05/27 Leave a comment
I have been truly puzzled lately – the issue at hand surpassing anything I have ever experienced before. I had my misgivings, but no book knowledge I knew of could substantiate a satisfying answer. So I asked several people for their viewpoint, but none of their opinions was of any help either. A seemingly unsolvable conundrum. I was really troubled. I just couldn´t figure out an escape out of this daunting maze.
As I sat contemplating this last night, I thought of my friend Yohami who lives in Argentina. “What about asking him for advise in this matter”, I found myself thinking. BEFORE FINISHING MY THOUGHT, he was concomitantly commenting a post which was related to my dilemma. THERE WERE ONLY FOUR WORDS!
I was taken aback: there was such unmistakable and unequivocal authority in them, so I actually shuddered reading them. There it was: THE ANSWER!
HE SOMEHOW HEARD MY THOUGHTS! Such otherworldly synchronicity I have never experienced. What likelihood was there, considering that I was thinking of him, that he, in the very moment dropped his line?…It was mind-blowing: it felt as if we were communicating telepathically.
We talked further about my dilemma, he had been in a similar difficulty, so he really understood what I was talking about. He sensed the danger I was in, and therefore he had in mind an article he wanted me to read. And I did.
I have read tones of better or worse psychology books, publications, blogs, but THIS FELT AS IF IT WAS WRITTEN FOR ME. From the very beginning to the end, it described literally my problem as if the writer had been a close witness to my story. I couldn´t believe my eyes: it gave me the so much longed for answer I needed in order to move on and put this life-consuming misadventure behind me.
THANK YOU YOHAMI!!
Reason or Joy?… – your choice
2013/11/19 Leave a comment
Rational means to ascribe Fact the only supremacy, dismissing the obvious evidence
that Fact as such is but a choice dictated by a smaller or larger group of people.
Facts only can never bring you Joy. The best proof is millions of people´s failed lives.
Look to all people who lived before you:
Most of them were strictly rational, many never really lived, and so they died miserable, without ever being happy. It sounds cruel, but unless you are prepared to see, you will encounter the same dismal destiny.
At some point you have to give up being rational.
The greatest challenge is finding yourself in the middle of the howling Drama, and despite inhuman hardships and setbacks, to unwaveringly stick with, and remain anchored in Joy.
Yes… JOY! Your true Shining Shadow, the genuine Guide.
You have to be so irrational enough to believe in Joy even if you don´t feel it presently. Easier said than done…I for one easily forget this and time and again let myself be dragged into the mishaps of earthly life.
If you want to have a real life, at some point you have to defect from the ongoing world drama with its abysmal predicament of pain and suffering, and invalidate it as being no more than a dream.
You better… – because otherwise you´ll walk the paved way to misfortune.
One…in all
2013/11/09 Leave a comment
When – and, above all IF… – you realize that plurality exists only in your mind, everything “becomes” equally important.
Obviously, something can be more “important” as long as there is an “other”.
Once” the other”- plurality – becomes “such”- singularity -, the dream ceases.
In singularity everything is but One Value – that is, the cessation of all imagined
value.
Singularity is Wholeness, the ever-present Oneness.
THE UNIVERSAL CURE
Why is man unconsciously pursuing the road to his perdition?
2013/11/05 11 Comments
I posed this utterly scary but fundamentally vital question in a post yesterday. Through an incredible synchronicity the same day, I bumped into this article written by Paul Levy on Monica Cassani´s blog, which has given me the answer I have been long searching for.
Here some excerpts answering my initial question.
“It does seem that we are possessed by some demonic power that is leading us, trance like, into self-destruction.”
Jung comments, “…an unknown ‘something’ has taken possession of a smaller or greater portion of the psyche and asserts its hateful and harmful existence undeterred by all our insight, reason, and energy, thereby proclaiming the power of the unconscious over the conscious mind, the sovereign power of possession.”
“When we are possessed we are not free, we are not masters in our own house. When we are possessed by the unconscious, we become dissociated from ourselves such that, as Jung writes, there is “a tearing loose of part of one’s nature; it is the disappearance and emancipation of a complex, which thereupon becomes a tyrannical usurper of consciousness, oppressing the whole man. It throws him off course and drives him to actions whose blind one-sidedness inevitably leads to self-destruction.”
“Commandeering and colonizing our psyche, a split-off, autonomous complex is, potentially, like a “vampiric virus,” in that it is fundamentally “dead” matter; it is only in a living being that it acquires a quasi-life. Just like a vampire re-vitalizes itself by sucking our life-force, when we unconsciously identify with an activated autonomous complex, we are literally animating and en-livening the undead. Complicit in our own victimization, we then unwittingly give away our freedom, power, and life-force in the process.
An autonomous complex can’t stand to be seen, however, in much the same way that a vampire detests the light. A demon or autonomous complex will shape-shift and do everything in its power to resist being illumined, for once it is seen, its autonomy and omnipotence are taken away. Anchored, connected and related to consciousness, the demon or autonomous complex can then no longer vaporize back into the unconscious, which is to say it is no longer able to possess us from behind and beneath our conscious awareness so as to compel us to unwittingly act it out and do its bidding .
When we “see” a demon, we know its name, which helps us to get a “handle” on it. Naming is exorcistic, as it dis-spells the demon’s power over us. Jung says that “The act of naming is, like baptism, extremely important as regards the creation of personality, for a magical power has been attributed to the name since time immemorial. To know the secret name of a person [or a demon] is to have power over him.” Elsewhere, Jung writes, “For mankind it was always like a deliverance from a nightmare when the new name was found.” Finding the name is an act of power. Jung comments, “The moment you can designate the lived archetype by its symbol, you feel relieved, that is a good and positive moment even if it is horrible…Therefore old Egyptian medicine consisted in giving the thing the right name…A new name always produces an extraordinary effect; we cannot rationalize these things, they cast a spell, they are symbols, they really do influence the unconscious as the unconscious influences us.”
“It is very important for us to re-introduce the words “demon” and “possession” back into our vocabulary, minus the fear that we will be seen as being primitive, crazy or even possessed ourselves if we use such words. We need to expand our psycho-spiritual fluency to enable us to navigate the living waters of our inner and outer landscapes. Being “possessed by demons” – taken over by unconscious, psychic forces – is something that happens to all of us, and it is to our great advantage to be able to properly name our experience. Finding the name empowers us to creatively engage with these parts of ourselves that are emerging from the shadows “in the name of healing.”
“So long as the root of wickedness is hidden, it is strong. But when it is recognized, it is dissolved. When it is revealed, it perishes…As for ourselves, let us each dig down after the root of evil which is within each of us, and produces its fruit in our hearts. It masters us. We are its slaves. It takes us captive, to make us do what we do not want, and what we do want, we do not do. It is powerful because we have not recognized it.”
Even if it´s rather long, I strongly recommend Paul Levy´s article for those interested. It is highly enlightening for the sincere seeker.
Normalized madness
2013/11/05 Leave a comment
Due to our prodigious unconsciousness, we are in the midst of an unprecedented collective psychosis that has become so normalized that very few people are even talking about it, which is itself an expression of our collective madness.
It is easier to talk or to argue with a dog or a cow than with someone possessed by the unconscious.
For nothing that one says permeates, it is impossible to pierce the wall they put up, it is a wall of unconscious beliefs, and people behind the wall cannot be reached. They are totally inaccessible.
There is no access because the human being is degraded to the state of an animal by the entity functioning behind the scene – entity that seems to be more a ghost than a divine being.
People who have fallen prey to their unconscious beliefs naturally attract and connect with each other, as they reciprocally reinforce each others’ madness.
An impenetrable bubble of shared, rigid beliefs gets conjured up
around them which deflects and resists any self-reflection which threatens their fixed worldview.
Anyone who reflects back their unconscious state is demonized
and seen as a heretic, blasphemer and enemy.
– Carl Gustav Jung through Paul Levy
Who makes the rules of ‘normalcy?
2013/10/28 Leave a comment
The very idea that there is a template for ‘normal’ is what is ‘insane.’ And this inherent way of suppose-to-be is the great killer of the human spirit. “The fact that millions of people share the same vices does not make these vices virtues, the fact that they share so many errors does not make the errors to be truths, and the fact that millions of people share the same form of mental pathology does not make these people sane.”
– Erich Fromm
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