Individuation

Unless you free your soul from the wrong heritage of your forefathers and parents, your particular destiny will fail to reveal itself as YOU.

Dire analogies

Long story short:

My father managed to fuck up and steal my Now, inflicting nothing but fear, frustration and guilt on me. His fierce and unblessed conduct has affected me for life: Wasted years of shattering loneliness, huge pain, confusion. Unbeknownst he turned me into the depositary of his vengeance and aggressive madness.

Years after.

I met recently a hellishly charming woman who managed to make me believe and trust her. Such endearing communication we seemed to be engaged in. But alas, behind her winsome innocence, elegance and beauty, hided a vindictive monster. I made the mistake of letting my guard down, and the pandemonium started.

The whole game that followed was about manipulation of emotions, everything to take me away from and kill my NOW-Presence!!! This power-horny slut, hated whatever vivid and spontaneous expression – eventually, she seems to be at war with Life and Living. Of course she would never ever admit this. She would deceive you with incredible skillful delusions. Such a con artist, helping me in subtle or violent ways to disengage from and live in bitter oblivion from Self. To forget WHO YOU ARE, so you become her prey.

The blatant likeness between her and the wounds imposed on me by my father in my early childhood is mind-blowing. Staggeringly paradoxical. Why Life is such a complicated psychological conundrum totally surpasses my grasping…

But here I am…Coming out, untangling myself from and sorting out an age-old nightmarish riddle…Speaking about things no one dares to acknowledge or take up….

You won´t believe this

I have been truly puzzled lately – the issue at hand surpassing anything I have ever experienced before. I had my misgivings, but no book knowledge I knew of could substantiate a satisfying answer. So I asked several people for their viewpoint, but none of their opinions was of any help either. A seemingly unsolvable conundrum. I was really troubled. I just couldn´t figure out an escape out of this daunting maze.

As I sat contemplating this last night, I thought of my friend Yohami who lives in Argentina. “What about asking him for advise in this matter”, I found myself thinking. BEFORE FINISHING MY THOUGHT, he was concomitantly commenting a post which was related to my dilemma. THERE WERE ONLY FOUR WORDS!
I was taken aback: there was such unmistakable and unequivocal authority in them, so I actually shuddered reading them. There it was: THE ANSWER!

HE SOMEHOW HEARD MY THOUGHTS! Such otherworldly synchronicity I have never experienced. What likelihood was there, considering that I was thinking of him, that he, in the very moment dropped his line?…It was mind-blowing: it felt as if we were communicating telepathically.

We talked further about my dilemma, he had been in a similar difficulty, so he really understood what I was talking about. He sensed the danger I was in, and therefore he had in mind an article he wanted me to read. And I did.

I have read tones of better or worse psychology books, publications, blogs, but THIS FELT AS IF IT WAS WRITTEN FOR ME. From the very beginning to the end, it described literally my problem as if the writer had been a close witness to my story. I couldn´t believe my eyes: it gave me the so much longed for answer I needed in order to move on and put this life-consuming misadventure behind me.

THANK YOU YOHAMI!!

Reason or Joy?… – your choice

Rational means to ascribe Fact the only supremacy, dismissing the obvious evidence
that Fact as such is but a choice dictated by a smaller or larger group of people.

Facts only can never bring you Joy. The best proof is millions of people´s failed lives.

Look to all people who lived before you:

Most of them were strictly rational, many never really lived, and so they died miserable, without ever being happy. It sounds cruel, but unless you are prepared to see, you will encounter the same dismal destiny. 

At some point you have to give up being rational.

The greatest challenge is finding yourself in the middle of the howling Drama, and despite inhuman hardships and setbacks,  to unwaveringly stick with, and remain anchored in Joy.

Yes… JOY! Your true Shining Shadow, the genuine Guide.

You have to be so irrational enough to believe in Joy even if you don´t feel it presently. Easier said than done…I for one easily forget this and time and again let myself be dragged into the mishaps of earthly life.

If you want to have a real life, at some point you have to defect from the ongoing world drama with its abysmal predicament of pain and suffering, and invalidate it as being no more than a dream.

You better… – because otherwise you´ll walk the paved way to misfortune.

Our prevalent consensus as to who we are is invalid

“A non logical logic, an irrationally rational approach.”

It is painstakingly difficult to catch and articulate a fleeing insight. It first appears as a soothingly vague and indistinct presence which you can instantly perceive, but cannot assess whether it´s something truly meaningful or just another inflated delusion.

That applies especially when one is confronting things in a way which runs counter with the prevalent consensus.

I often run the risk of writing “philosophically”, but that is far from my initial intent. Really, I am not interested in “philosophy” as such. To be caught in abstract and reiterating thought patterns feels like being irremediably dead. Stuck in hopeless non living. Consequently, I am only interested to bring about bearing solutions to things that are insidiously unapproachable from a rational or “scientifically” viewpoint.
This “new” Presence requires a non logical, that is, an irrationally rational approach.

I am eventually only interested to live and be alive.

It is a glaring fact that this present age becomes rampantly lifeless, a more and
more unlivable place.

Yes, they are dead, but think they are alive…They are dreaming but don´t want
to be awakened from their evil dream…

This world has become the denial of the denial of another denial. An inverted,
incurable disease. How could you ever treat them, if they don´t even want to know
and face that fact that they are hopelessly sick?…

Unquestionably, if you want to really live and be alive, you have to not less than become enlightened. Enlightenment is the only valid option, if you want to raise
from the dismal valley of the dead.

And to awaken is to denounce and renounce duality, polarity, separation, time,
linearity 
and thought.

YOU CANNOT TREAT INSANITY WITH SANITY.

You have to deliberately descend into the abyss of Insanity, which is the offspring of reason and logic. To heal from Thought and Knowledge – from the misconception of plurality

To step into the singularity of Oneness, where wholeness resides.

One…in all

When – and, above all IF… – you realize that plurality exists only in your mind, everything “becomes” equally important.

Obviously, something can be more “important” as long as there is an “other”.

Once” the other”- plurality – becomes “such”- singularity -, the dream ceases.

In singularity everything is but One Value – that is, the cessation of all imagined
value.

Singularity is Wholeness, the ever-present Oneness.

THE UNIVERSAL CURE

What is Evil?

Simply put, It is anti-life, life turning against itself, life “spell”-ed backwards.

In the traumatized soul (and to the extent we are not fully awake, we are all in a state of trauma, the trauma of not being one with ourselves), both Freud and Jung recognized that there is a factor within the psyche which, once it gains a certain momentum and seeming autonomy, continually keeps neurotic, unproductive suffering alive.

There is an aggressive anti-wholeness agency within us, as if “made” out of our disowned, unexpressed, in-turned and inverted aggression twisted back upon ourselves, which actively cultivates and breeds dissociation within the psyche. The fluid, ever-flowing, self-reflective/reflexive process of the continually-evolving psyche en/unfolding itself over time becomes suspended, rigidified and frozen, stuck in time, in a seemingly never-ending and self-generating feedback loop.

This inertial, entropic and thanatic factor seems to be actively resistant to and set against us recovering, discovering and attaining our intrinsic wholeness. Jung refers to this dis-integrative factor as a “morbid” fragment of the personality which inspires a “will to be ill.” It is as if there is an unconscious counterforce to the faculty of the will, a “shadow of the will,” so to speak, that prohibits the synthesis of the fragments of our experience into the meaningful constructs and perceptions that make up a healthy, wholesome and coherent psyche.