Reality is wholeness

For most people, “Wholeness” is a mere futile concept, like music for the deaf. They are “deaf” to reality insofar as they take thought for Life.

Thinking – as we know it – cannot consequently grasp “Wholeness”. We can´t heal unless we question and eventually give up thought-identity.

Insanely difficult…- as this is our most precious heritage – our very Identity is and
stems directly from Thinking.

Debra:
I don’t know what you mean by “give up thought.” Have you experienced this?

Me:
I write only about things I have directly experienced.

Most assuredly, I have always wondered what it was meant by “Learn to die before you die”. I have lately understood: it is for sure the greatest challenge for man – to give up the false ego – that is, the wrong immemorial identification with THOUGHT! Thought is with other words, the “me”- identity which is so treacherously opposed to the totality of Life.

TO GIVE UP THE THOUGHT-MADE IDENTITY… – it is not less than a heroic act of courage as I come to realize that Thought has eventually nothing to do with Life…Thought is the greatest barrier to know Reality. In fact, ultimately, I see thinking as the worst disease invented by man, to defend himself from The Wholeness of Reality.

Yes…Thought which is self-imposed psychological Time – our shield defending us from directly experiencing Life.

Union with the Uncreated – healing from Thought and Separation

This is a very interesting dialogue between Michael. K. Marsh and me.

Michel:
We must get away from the idea that death is God’s punishment. Death is a consequence of being created. The created as opposed to the un-created has a beginning and an end.

The healing of this condition is union with the uncreated. We do not have life in and of ourselves. To turn away from the work of union with the divine/uncreated is sin. Thus the wages of sin is death.

I think this fits with scripture and tradition about the two ways: life and death. Both are always before us.

I think there is a fear of death in human beings. It is a driver in our lives, the choices we make, the priorities we establish. The problem is we often deal with that fear through substitute gratifications. We settle for relief rather than healing.

The degree to which we are afraid of death is also the degree to which we are afraid to truly live.

The paradox is that to live we must die. I think it is the Sufis who say, “Die before you die.” I think this is what Jesus was getting at when he said, “Deny yourself, take up your cross, and follow me.” It is the invitation to life, through union/thesis.

Living becomes an interior transformation which leaves us in the present moment. The present is the fullness of life, it is where the divine is located, it can become eternal. Too often we live in the past – “If only…,” regrets, wounds, resentment – or in a future we do not yet have. Both of those it seems to me are places of death.

God’s deepest longing is that we would live and live fully. St. Irenaeus said something like, “The glory of God is a many fully alive.”
I wonder sometimes if we have forgotten or confused what it is to be fully alive. I think there were be profound freedom in this – not autonomy to choose to do what every I want – but freedom to be, to be real, authentic, true – and in so doing to discover and know my own holiness and the original beauty of my creation. When we can see this in ourselves then we can see it in others.

Me:
I have to tell you that you have such a poignant and winsome way of writing. I feel the Silence, and the echo of your deep insights between your words.

There is both elegance but unsophisticated humbleness in your wording.

Yes, this is perfectly put:

Healing is Union with the Uncreated.

What is created is mostly under the supremacy of Fear. Hence, most people settle for relief, as, to reach Union you have to go through the hell of Separation, which means wrestling with Fear – an inhuman undertaking. Few – if any – have the courage to directly confront this daunting demon – as fear is a demon after all – take the battle, and not flee.

I love the way you put it:

“Too often we live in the past – `If only´…,”regrets, wounds, resentment – or in a future we do not yet have. Both of those it seems to me are places of death.”

Presence is well guarded by Fear.To come out alive from these places of Death requires great boldness and determination. To die before you die is the greatest challenge for anyone – that is, to give up the false ego. The ego is the outcome of Time, of Thought…indeed the “me” identity which is so treacherously opposed to God…- to who we really are…

I have these days won incredible battles. And these battles have taken place on these invisible levels – which are incredibly “real”. In fact, more real than the “real”. To give up the thought-made identity…I tell you… – it is not less than a heroic act of courage as I come to understand that Thought is the total antinomy of Life…Thought is the greatest barrier to know God, in fact, ultimately speaking, I see thinking as the worst disease invented by man, in order to defend himself from Life.

Thought, which is psychological Time, keeps us away from the Divine.

Thought can never be free. As long as we reinforce thinking, we choose thus to be unfree.

If we are to be real, authentic, true – and thus to discover and know our own holiness and the original beauty of creation, we have to give up “mine” – that is, the false “I-identity” which is built on thought! Thought is “my will” as radically opposed to the will of the Creator.

Thought breeds and perpetrates Separation. 

First when we are relieved from the curse of thinking, can we see the purity in ourselves as well as in others.

 

There is no way to It

She:
I focus my mind on Heaven in the belief that all of my efforts will “someday”
make me real.

Me:
Some questions come to mind:

Who has a belief?… Who is this entity making “efforts”?

“Someday” is a total uncertainty, can you see that?…

How can you thus be real someday unless you are real here and now…?

Is God an Ideal? – a sum of things?…Can the connection with God ever be an
outcome of anything…?

You say:
“What I can do is strive each day to reach the still infinity of endless peace that
surrounds you gently in its soft embrace.”

This is very tricky, but fact of the matter is that we can go on “striving” for another couple of lives and still ask whether we are there yet…Striving enhances separation. Striving alienates and keeps us away from whatever we want to be – that is beyond doubt.

Really, it´s quite evident – at some point we have to quit struggling, understanding that what is “ever-present” can be neither imagined nor “reached”, neither gained through effort, or virtue…

Never let others discourage you – follow your inner call despite their harsh criticism

reverendroxie22:
I enjoyed reading this: julienmatei.com/2013/11/28/how-to-recognize-the-loser/

It is the truth, what you have written. I know a whole lot of people who feel entitled to what they have not created on their own. For many years I have listened to people tell me that my writing is way too “out there” for “regular” people to understand, which makes me always ask “what does someone’s ability to move their bowels on a regular basis have anything at all to do with my writing? What are you trying to tell me?” but always, I have never stayed around long enough for the answer.

I have been lifted, emotionally and spiritually, by what you have written here.

Me:
This world is unfortunately overfilled with pretentious sloths – people who assume no responsibility for Who They Truly Are, who never want to do anything real…

People living by default. People who deliberately refuse to engage in anything
sincere – whose sole interest is to guard their safety, wholeheartedly committing themselves to being no one.

As you say, they feel entitled to reiterate only what others have created.

The huge problem is that they all want to bring you down at the same level of inane nothingness.

Meaning that the only thing they specialize in is to criticize and discourage those doing something real. “Be like us – a failure. Who do you think you are?…Don´t you dare do or be anything authentic, cause than you make me realize the daunting truth that I am flop.”

I have listened to those empty morons all my life too. But not anymore. I speak and live my truth no matter what.

Most of the subjects I write about – like this one – are not approached anywhere else,
as far as I know.

These things are true as far as it concerns me, but don´t know if another person sees the verity of my writing – gaining something from it.

That is why I am so pleased to hear your words. So grateful. After all, this is my hope and highest aim:

To lift myself and others to greater emotional and spiritual awareness.

The seeress confesses

“Am I maybe going insane?…Sometimes I have the impression that your blog was created for me…I feel that everything in my life has led me to where I am today and will be in the future…Everything just falls into place perfectly overtime…

The less I think…the less I do.. – the more amazing life…

It feels nice to go with the flow and hearing everything click with not much effort…”

Who am I…? Who are you?…Writing as living the True Story

Most people on this planet have no idea Who they are – that is quite evident…That because it´s no one there in the beginning of our lives to guide us towards self-knowledge. Instead, we are all relentlessly turned into some depersonalized instruments to serve a faceless existence.

Writing for me is unraveling myself, finding out Who I Am. Understanding myself. It is my weapon in this peculiar and perilous Odyssey of self-discovery. Indeed, writing is about deconditioning myself from the bullshit imposed by my family, school and society.

And in this process of inner questioning and self-examination, I naturally find that my
inherent Meaning has been there all the time, but wasn´t discernable for my perception.

No, I couldn´t see myself, as I WAS A STRANGER IN MY OWN LIFE.

When I think of it I am overwhelmed by sadness.

For so many years, in fact, all my so-called life up to now, it was not me living, but other people´s nightmares – huge and chaotic generational pain, others´ dire unfulfillment, in truth, my ancestors un-lived lives were howling inside my soul, those hoarse voices calling themselves “me”…

These blind and inertial complexes quashed my sense of self – my sense of a meaningful relation with the true Me. In the last months such outlandish and ruthless battles have taken place BOTH WITHIN AND WITHOUT – these delirious forces having incredible power to manifest so-called outward events.

These forces are what we call “destiny”…- that´s the most difficult thing to fathom.

THESE FORCES´ INSIDIOUS AGENDA IS TO KEEP YOU AWAY FROM THE TRUE YOU – from realizing who you truly are.

Nobody wants to face or acknowledge the truth in its overarching depth – I was totally on my own in this abyssal dispute, with no one beside me. I seem to have made it – so far. Fact of the matter is that after such a combat either you crumble or you come out alive – that is, enlightened. It would be preposterous to claim that I am enlightened, but, the very fact that I came out alive after these battles, points to that direction – Illumination.

Know that to retrieve your True Soul, your Inward Meaning, is the most difficult task in this world:
To individuate. To become You.

Unless you want to live someone else´s life, you will have to take this initiatory journey back to Who You Really Are. Who you truly are is life´s highest meaning. If you find your immanent Meaning you have found the living source of Creation.

You have to start telling your True Story. And in this sense, Writing is your torch in the process of self-discovery, your only weapon in the combat of the inner and outer darkness.

Not more. Not less.

All questions can be reduced to One

All questions are interchangeable…
Find the “Why” and you might get a tangible answer to everything.
Or better yet, let the Why find you…