Nothing is definitively said or done.
To dare consider everything anew, to “seize” the moment
as an inspired improvisation – to question and examine it all out of a sense
of freedom and not going by the rule.
Life is about jazz, nay, LIFE IS JAZZ, yet very few seem to see or want to understand this.
Sadly, everyone wants to play it safely, and the consequence is that true expression
has become almost anarchic in our days.
Heidi:
Conformity is safety… I want to ‘play jazz’ yet how can I when I do not where the notes start, how the tune goes…? 
I have been more aware, and as you say, aiming for true expression recently… it is harder than it seems, when you are consciously aware of behaviour/thoughts/feelings, because past patterns are so tightly held that is hard to see past them, to understand where and how to break free.
First we must see, before we can change.
Me:
Take the Change and in the process you begin to see – that´s the way it goes.
Who in you wants “to understand”?…Give it thought…
It is in actual fact the “inner authority”, this thief in you which is the past, the ubiquitous conditioning, the societal voices keeping you captive, hating change, preventing you from letting go and finding out.
These patterns are terribly difficult to break, I know that well.
Please listen!
YOU HAVE TO STOP BEING “AWARE”…WHAT WE IMAGINE BEING AWARENESS IS AN ILLUSION. That because “True Awareness” is beyond any conscious pursuit, it actually belongs to the so-called unconscious mind.
So…DO IT FIRST AND UNDERSTAND AFTERWARDS!
Write first and analyze after! – that´s the way it goes.
Trust your gut feeling IN THE SECOND! Only in total spontaneity you can fathom something…
You don´t need to know HOW THE TUNE STARTS, or how it goes…just start.
Hum if you have to, hear the sounds around you, talk senselessly, hit any rhythm with
your fingers…
This is the ultimate truth: LIFE OBEYS NO PREDICTABLE PATTERN…simply dare admit that.
Don´t try to break free – you are actually free. You just are finding out this now.
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