Light Without Darkness
2015/04/05 4 Comments
For whoever is ready to hear
2015/03/30 Leave a comment
To be able to play a musical instrument well, along with technical skill, it requires ABOVE ALL, a formidable unforced yet swift and alert attention.
Not only that Music asks for heeding and hearing each and every Instant as if it was new, but it demands the impossible: namely, to be aware of tones which go in fractions of seconds…
I repeat: not seconds but fractions of seconds.
Imagine you being compelled to find order and right relation between those tones in that intense velocity. AND YET… If I make an analogy, one needs that incredible sensitivity, inner sharpness and rest when it comes to “outwitting” and de-conditioning the obsolete mind…
Only in that unspeakable speed can we deal with mind in all its insidious entitlements:
Thought, name, time, corporeity, memory, experience…
To love is to die
2014/10/03 Leave a comment
One must totally die to find what love is. And to go into this question of what is death, what lies beyond death, whether there is reincarnation, whether there is resurrection, you follow, all that, becomes rather meaningless if you don’ t know how to live. If the human being knows how to live in this world without conflict then death has quite a different meaning.
– J Krishnamurti
For sure:
Without death, no life. Without death, no love. Although we consider It the ultimate Evil, Death may be highest good. The secret door to renewal. I won’t say let’s die now – it may be too harsh on our Ego – I will simply say, let’s renew ourselves…
Neither Heraclitus, Plato or Socrates or whoever great man, can help and guide us through this tremendous undertaking: psychological Death. Each of us is on his own to find out.
Indeed…
Death: the cessation of direction, of memory, of thought, of ideal…
“Are you aware of the significance of your words here?” – he asked.
To die is an act of totality. Even “significance” has to go, if we are to take on this huge challenge.
Man´s worst fear, is the loss of his identity, which equates the loss of his ubiquitous “significance”…Significance – meaning belief, meaning psychological security…Nobody wants to risk and jeopardize the Supreme Sense we have built through Millennia…- the very Idea of who or what we think we are…
We do not therefore fear Death, but – of course – the cessation of our ideas and projections, about what we term as Life and Death…
As long as we take “Love” as an outcome of our all too human projection, we will neither live nor love.
Reality is wholeness
2013/12/10 3 Comments
For most people, “Wholeness” is a mere futile concept, like music for the deaf. They are “deaf” to reality insofar as they take thought for Life.
Thinking – as we know it – cannot consequently grasp “Wholeness”. We can´t heal unless we question and eventually give up thought-identity.
Insanely difficult…- as this is our most precious heritage – our very Identity is and
stems directly from Thinking.
Debra:
I don’t know what you mean by “give up thought.” Have you experienced this?
Me:
I write only about things I have directly experienced.
Most assuredly, I have always wondered what it was meant by “Learn to die before you die”. I have lately understood: it is for sure the greatest challenge for man – to give up the false ego – that is, the wrong immemorial identification with THOUGHT! Thought is with other words, the “me”- identity which is so treacherously opposed to the totality of Life.
TO GIVE UP THE THOUGHT-MADE IDENTITY… – it is not less than a heroic act of courage as I come to realize that Thought has eventually nothing to do with Life…Thought is the greatest barrier to know Reality. In fact, ultimately, I see thinking as the worst disease invented by man, to defend himself from The Wholeness of Reality.
Yes…Thought which is self-imposed psychological Time – our shield defending us from directly experiencing Life.
We have to give up the false assumption that Life is Separateness
2013/12/09 1 Comment
Life is never one-sided.
But our thought is. Likewise our perception of ourselves and everything around us.
That´s the main problem of thinking basically: I choose “this”, on the expense of “that”.
We can´t imagine that a thing is both “this and that”…
Our choice is uncritically taken as the only valid assumption. Meaning that we inertially take our deliberate option as “The Thing”. It is clear that whatever we observe is biased by our ingrained one-sidedness.
Either you are a scientist, or a poet. To be a poet and a scientist doesn´t make you a reliable professional.
If I as a musician paint, compose or write and have scientific interests besides, turns me automatically into a suspicious character.
Stupidity consists of many things, but in this context, stupidity is always one-sided.
In fact, the beginning of stupidity is to be found in the shameless presumption of “either-or”. Either down or up. Stay or go. Christian or Buddhist. The list can continue interminably…
Truth of the matter is that we are irrevocably stuck in either-or and neither-nor.
In vapid concepts. Language too, may be our curse.
Most assuredly, an apple is not a pear, of course, a man is not a woman.
The problem is that thinking suspends the Natural Unity of Life – it sees the apple totally separated from the pear, the child from the “grown-up”, the woman from man.
With other words, another insidious side of stupidity is to be stuck in category-thinking. Further on – and this is the most scary characteristic for most people:
STUPIDITY SEES NO RELATION BETWEEN THINGS.
This falling short of seeing things in intrinsic relation is appalling. It is actually our doom.
SEEING THINGS DISTINCTIVELY SEPARATED IS PURE INSANITY.
We are supposed to mount but not descend, win and never lose, act obsessively without relaxing, go away but never come back.
The worst outcome of this delirious misconception is Progress – as in economic growth.
Growth can also mean tumor. Isn´it obvious? – We have totally bought ourselves into maintaining and fueling disease. Everybody with common sense sees the relation between economic growth and sickness – growth as a rampant bloating of fragmentation and disunity.
“Day-living” is our only zany answer. Night – as a metaphor for Mystery and Unknowing, the zone where our definitions are invalid – scares us. Too spooky. Too uncontrollable.
This stupid idea of separateness has turned our life into an unbearable and absurd wasteland. In the absence of the Ineffable – the Wholeness of Being – and due to becoming explicitly rational, human relations have been ruined: man has become woman´s worst foe, and woman man´s worst nightmare.
Not being able to relax and come back to themselves, people live in total agony. Not being IN RELATION to anything, they cut themselves off from any reasonable living.
Lonely wretched strangers going nowhere.
To conclude.
Everything falls back to a wrong perception of Life.
Namely, THE ONE-SIDEDNESS OF THOUGHT, which breeds Separation, Fragmentation and Lack of Relation.
Fragmentation is the sickness of the Soul.
The enormously stupid and baleful assumption that Life is Separation is our death sentence.
There is not much of an option. We have to renounce this disastrous delusion and heal, embracing Wholeness.
Everything is in vivid relation to everything.
We were never separated – we are one single Thought away
2013/12/07 10 Comments
T:
What is the root of dualism?
Who created this seemingly insurmountable schism?
I’m wondering. What if there is no difference between (what we call) life and (what we call) death? What if there aren’t two ‘things’? Why don’t we say things like, “This day I set before you birth and life, chose birth.”?
What if it’s not about consequence? Or not even about sequence? [The root of this word takes invented time as a given. I do not.]
Seriously. I don’t want to morph this into a religious inquiry or discussion. But maybe somebody can help me here. Heck, let’s posit THE Creator…and just for the sake of discussion, let’s call it-him-her (capital G) God (it seems like a lot of people do, so I’ll go with that).
From just about everything I’ve EVER heard from the Creator-God People, there was “nothing”…then God spoke. As the direct result of this speaking, the world as we know it came into being. Here’s where I have a problem. If there was nothing, then God made ‘everything’, isn’t everything God? And if not, then from where did the stuff that is not-God come?
– “Thought is psychological Time which keeps us away from the Divine.” — JM
I THINK I understand what you’re saying about thought here. And I think I concur . . . kind of.
How can it be possible to be a part of an Incomprehensible Vastness of Being and be separated from it.
And how is it that WE create anything? Don’t we just twist what already is?
I don’t think it is possible to be kept away from the Divine.
But maybe that’s what I get for thinking.
Thanks. And please set me straight.
Me:
Before I venture to give some kind of answer, I want to make it clear that I am not indulging in vapid and arbitrary speculation, even if what I am going to say may seem nonsensical.
I am only interested in things which bring a real benefit, something with a DIRECT BEARING in real life. Something which sheds some light AS TO WHO WE TRULY ARE in a “meta-historical” perspective. I claim that only this kind of thorough “metaphysical” understanding as to the mechanics of Life, can free us from Illusion.
What is the root of dualism?
Who created this seemingly insurmountable schism?
Let´s take it this way:
Does anything as such ultimately exist? Is this world and our existence in it real?…
What if Creation as we know it in this dimension never took place…- but eventually it´s some kind of will-o´-the-wisp that each of one secretly creates?
Has God the Almighty ever created this world? The baffling answer is No.
Love can not create its opposite. Love has never created duality, nor any schism.
Why should it, after all…?
Once, eons “ago”, as we were all part of the blissful One, one fearful thought occurred within God´s mind:
“What if…?”
What if it all could be `different´ ?
This very thought triggered instantly the beginning of it all. Big Bang – the beginning of Separation. Of light and darkness. Fear and Love. In short – Duality.
So a “difference” can exist only inside the idea of duality, quite obvious. If there was no duality, there wouldn´t be a definite “you” or “me”. There would be no sequence or consequence either. No Creator and not anything “created”.
It´s funny, but there is only God, and what separates us from “him” or “her” IS IN ACTUAL FACT – A THOUGHT.
A thought which we take for real and that we maintain in every second. An insane thought
which dreams itself superior than the Creator, which competes and challenges Him, which in its striking arrogance believes it can create another “more real” REALITY than God´s…:)
Can you see this clearly?…
Look around you. What are people ultimately trying to achieve? A projection of this Initial Thought in every thinkable and unthinkable way:
“I am someone special, I am creating myself, my future, a position – I compete, I struggle hard with anyone for what is “mine” – my family, my kids, my country. Mine, mine, mine.”
This underlying Thought is pure insanity as it is not capable to outwit God, but in order to show its “supremacy” creates exactly what God is not: sickness, aggression, lack, war, chaos, disaster, calamities…- you name it.
This Thought is the so-called Ego. It is Separation. Fear. Guilt. Punishment. Suffering.
Now it´s easily understandable that Ego in its lunacy considers thus failure in all
variations – sickness, loss, crime, suffering, calamity of all kinds -, as his greatest success.
He tries hard to enact what God is not…
Can it be so immensely simple and yet unfathomable?…YES. This is the whole deal.
Now you understand that we are just one Thought away from True Life.
But don´t underestimate this Thought…It kills you if you question its “supremacy”.
It does everything to deny its agenda. This “thought” is what usually goes for Satan.
The Demiurge.
Yet, the truth is that this Ego-thought is nothing but a Cosmic Fraud, an existential misconception, an impotent echo of what God is. It is a no one in the true scheme of eternity.
This Thought of Separation has created Time, Distance, birth and death, “you” and “me”..
In reality there has never been any cleavage, but everything is Joy, Love and
Glory. Life in its mighty bliss – the Light of all lights.
If you manage to see through and let go of this Thought, – which must be said, is a frightening combat, consisting of unimaginable and uncanny trials – The Initial Light will shine in all its Splendor now.
In that light and presence, nothing needs be done, as everything is “done”, because being It you are perfect and complete.
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A blessed encounter
2013/11/30 9 Comments
We were vividly engaged in a great discussion.
Such incredible relief: for once, there was no misunderstanding, there was no need
for explanations – he understood it all, as if we were each other´s mirror.
At some point the conversation froze. We were both Silent. Awaiting.
I looked at him.
I almost heard his thoughts. He was solemnly pondering. Appropriating what I had just told him. Internalizing my earlier expressed insights. The echo of my words were unmistakably clicking into him, creating a new space between us.
The air became so soothingly alive.
It was almost palpable. He was healing. In that very moment.
He was giving himself to himself.
And as he was accepting my gift for him, I felt automatically
how he literally was giving myself to myself too…
Are we dying to live or living to die?
2013/11/29 20 Comments
There is no solution unless we acknowledge the problem
T:
I believe the ‘offer’ made to us is more on the order of to-live-or-not-to-live than one of death avoidance. I think we have *learned* to ‘fear’ death, and that the only, real, natural solution is found in LIVING.
Humans seem to have a tendency to behave in ways that are contrary to the broader natural order. So there is nothing really ‘unnatural’ in that sense…about synthetics OR human behavior. I think that ‘anti-natural’ gets closer to what I am trying to express than ‘unnatural’.
Many parents in ‘developed’ societies nowadays have come to believe that their ‘job’ is done when their children reach majority ‘alive’ (as in not dead). But are those children really *alive*? Are the parents? Is the focus on death? Or life? It seems evident to me.
There is a big difference between (a) being aware of things that would interfere with living and (b) fearing death. Death is no less a transition in the Life Process than birth. Fearing ‘future’ death makes no more sense than fearing ‘past’ birth…or fearing every moment that we live. Thus I see fear as a perversion of awareness.
Are we dying to live or living to die?
Me:
The thought coming naturally to mind is:
Can we ever fully live unless we have learned to die now?
Is clinging to life living?
Is living according to any idea true living?
The perversion of awareness is actually OUR IDEA we hold about life. Whatever idea, stems ultimately from Fear. Thus Fear is the foundation of our unnatural or anti-natural “relation” to life.
Fear is consequently wrong relation to Life, cause fear exists only in relation to something.
The blatantly conspicuous reality is that everybody tries hardly to be someone. Instead of being alive they all try to be “special”. Being special is again, an inane wish to reinforce the idea – to live according to a thought.
They all “choose” to be, instead of simply being…that is, allowing the natural urge to unfold seamlessly inside and outside them. This demented hubris is man´s most dooming calamity:
“We are better and stronger than life. My resistance against anything living defines me. The more I fight and compete Life – the natural – the stronger I am.”
Such huge misconception lies at the base of our way of living.
And so the consequence is all this mad and senseless unfolding and escaping in the wrong thing: everybody is in the wrong place at the wrong time, pursuing the wrong activity, being constantly in the wrong context.
They usually marry the wrong person, they´re stuck in the wrong jobs, have the wrong friends…the list of wrongness is interminable. That is quite evident: the ones who are not supposed to be there, prevent the ones who are supposed to be where they belong.
To answer you question:
How can these insane people breed any sane and wholesome kids…?
Of course they can´t. How can the children be alive, when the parents
are diseased?…
This utterly defective life-style leads inevitably to misfortune, suffering and madness, and hence at some point, as a way out of this, man escapes his furious insanity through conflict and irrational violence, ultimately creating war…- war meaning, everybody fighting against his own misconceptions…man fighting against his and others´ false ideas.
So yes, that´s the key question:
Are we dying to live, or living to die?
With other words, are we going to stubbornly stick to these our obsolete and death-bringing Ideas and destroy the whole planet, or do we have now the awareness of the prompting necessity to renounce and let go of this calamitous hubris?
I create you and you me
2013/11/26 Leave a comment
The best outputs in Mirrors of Encounters are yet to come.
I have such great things to share with you, but these subjects will be shared
ONLY WHEN THE LEVEL OF ENERGY MATCHES THE INFORMATION.
Wisdom, like great art in general, is the outcome of great encounters, of
powerful reciprocation. It´s that very energy created “between” us which
breeds a meaningful creation.
Without that “in-between” power, without being able to address that specific
“third” entity – the effect of you and me – we act in vain. That force creates the right expression, its due counterpart.
There is no solid outcome without an appropriate and relevant context.
Everything is dance. The receiver and the conveyor render the music of life alive.
Togetherness creates us – I create you, and you me.
The Fearful Ego – the hidden Entity subminating your life and health
2013/11/23 3 Comments
With the risk of being considered some kind of excentric loon, I think it´s ripe time to call things by their true name, unveiling and speaking about an incredibly elusive psychic reality which is at work creating and fueling all our problems including physical and psychical diseases. It is this very reality which ultimately prevents and deprives us of living a fulfilled and meaningful life.
She:
Well, what do I have to lose, except my ego, right?
What you say makes sense to me, but I’m still afraid. I don’t know if this is a task to be undertaken when one’s physical health is bad, or if this is the perfect time to take it because my physical health is bad.
Me:
Don´t be tempted to believe that “losing Ego” is some kind of trifle…Don´t underestimate its enormous power. The “combat” with it is anything but “easy”…- it is in fact an “impossible” undertaking, insofar as it´s an illogical dispute on “life and death”. Meaning that when It lives having us under its command we are dead, and conversely, its death is us being alive.
I told you before that Ego is a very treacherous and very tenacious entity which can easily shape-shift from singularity to plurality – it can be one, but many at the same time. Like the monster with different heads in the fairy tales.
It disposes over an incredible arsenal of guises. It can take over whatever “existing” manifestation, in fact. It is highly unpredictable, popping up when you least expect it. It can be insidiously subtle – inasmuch as we can confuse it with the voice of Self – or unmistakably aggressive, vindictive and mean. Conflict, misery, affliction, chaos and disorder are its most precious characteristics – unpredictably wreaking havoc in every thinkable or unthinkable way.
It loves to punish itself and the host through disease.
As I said before: every form of psychic ailment is its “fabrication” too…- that´s hard
to swallow, as this sounds totally unsubstantiated for any sound and rational person.
Actually, it loves not to be identifiable, it skilfully and insidiously hides behind the curtains in order to maintain control. When you hear all these men of science denying the existence of Evil, be sure that it´s It, claiming it doesn´t exist.
That being said, you thus understand how hellishly difficult it is to identify it.
Unless you have dared look in the depth of depth, this seems to be some kind of gobbledygook of a deluded mind.
THAT IS WHY IT IS SO HARD TO HEAL: you necessarily need to plunge into these unseen levels of being, and there be aware of realities which are at work but everybody denies.
We are so modern…HOW CAN WE EVER DENY WE ARE POSSESSED?….
So now it is about being lucid here. Sometimes “reasonable” entails dropping mundane logic:
So ask yourself:
Who is afraid within you?… Do you understand that fear is the very tool with which this
parasite of ego manipulates you?…
It is Fear stealing and frustrating you of your energy. Fear giving you all these seemingly
unsolvable health problems. Fear preventing you from truly living and being ardently alive.
You can put an end to this parasite living at your expense, by consciously staying with What is in adamant lucidity, courage and determination.
Julien Matei
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