Isn´t it queer?
2017/06/20 1 Comment
The only thing I regret is that I didn´t say to more people to fuck off
2015/07/12 5 Comments
The only thing society and people have taught me is to hide from Who I Really Am – to be afraid and consequently live in a shameless, devastating lie. I have therefore hidden and evaded my Inner Voice – my true Self -, constantly throwing myself out of my life and passion, trying to fit in, due to Fear of Punishment and Rejection.
To all this twisted and coercive society whose only aim is to remain sick and afraid of life I say:
FUCK OFF!
Starting today I will irrevocably and completely stop hiding mySelf because of all shrinking and idiotic expectation.
Bring yourself back to you – your only obligation to yourself
2015/02/15 6 Comments
We always look elsewhere for what has been within us all along.
That´s the way we have been educated – to abandon ourselves…To give away and deplete ourselves, looking for Sense and well-being outside of us…
Such misfortune. Such humiliation: to be looking for ourselves through others, giving them our precious energy and our force.
Bring yourself back to you – that’s your only obligation. In fact, this is the highest form of love: to give yourself back to you.
This is what Self-Knowledge is about:
TO KNOW YOURSELF AS INHERENT LOVE.
Do not delude yourself though. It is infinitely arduous: to let go of the distorted image imposed by society requires enormous perseverance. Constant and sustained attention. Lucid observation so as to distinguish the image others have force-fed you with, from WHO YOU REALLY ARE.
You are not your life story
2014/01/16 3 Comments
“Briefly, for me, non-attachment to feelings and/or ideas is the ability to watch, feel and experience without believing the narrative that might accompany the feelings or the experience and then being able to respond if appropriate rather than reacting.
It’s about living in the moment and surrendering to the unknown.”
Monica Cassani
How true her words ring here, as if she was talking to me: I realize awestricken that
my feelings are telling me a very treacherous story about myself.
This is such a trap:
Will I continue listening and identifying with this false tale about who I am?
Whose drama am I living which calls itself “me”?
Most of us are the convicts of our life stories. With an iron grip, these ageless narratives keep us hopelessly stuck in dreams which are not our own.
I take it again: unbeknownst, we live out ancestral nightmares, which constantly
deprive us of directly experiencing our true individuality – Who We Truly Are.
This blind heritage has enormous power – no wonder, it has been inertially perpetuated through immemorial time – and if you are urged to live your true Life Story, you urgently need to break free from these haunting, faceless memories.
Easier said than done. The combat is not a “literal” one – it must take place on very deep levels in your soul. It is there, inside these elusive layers that your earthly destiny is decided. Thus, you have to delve in and take on the “fight” on the symbolic, archetypal plane, where our Fate is “sealed”.
In plain English:
You need an incredible lucidity, courage, sensitivity and determination to let go of and disindentify from the stories which give themselves to be “you”.
These narratives control you mainly through your feelings, and you need to have the
power to step back and question the truth of your emotions.
Defy all these phantoms which steal you from You.
YOU ARE NOT YOUR EMOTIONS OR YOUR THOUGHTS.
YOU ARE NOT YOUR LIFE STORY.
Ask yourself lucidly:
“CAN I SURRENDER TO WHO I REALLY AM?”
Your true name is Namelessness
2013/12/09 1 Comment
You are not the fiction maintained and perpetuated by your ego
2013/08/24 Leave a comment
Aren´t you eager to find out your true story?…
No matter how real it may seem, you are not your life story
2013/08/24 Leave a comment
Despite being a grown-up woman, Adina has unresolved issues with her father.
No wonder. The old man has throughout his life been a veritable pain in the neck:
self-absorbed, unbearably narcissistic, recklessly manipulative,
really, a pretentious, neurotic bastard. A maniac.
Everybody owns him. He is the most important person en earth. No one else counts, but his petty drama. Nobody puts up with him. Despite being 86 he is more infatuated than a furious youngster.
Whatever the daughter tries, no matter how nice and compliant she is with him,
he is never pleased.
This unsettling relation with her father, made her life an emotional mess. Up to the point that she has health problems. Similar symptoms like her mother, who eventually passed away some few years ago, as this rascal made the poor woman´s life a living hell.
On one hand Adina bitterly hates him, on the other, she feels guilty about him.
“Damn it”, she burst roguishly as we spoke in the phone “I could shoot this old bastard,
at the same time I feel sorry for him, in a sort of twisted way.”
I told her:
“You have to heed your own sorrow here. Stop internalizing his drama in you.
Just take him off your shoulders!
He will never change, but you can.
No matter how real the conflict is within you, your life story is not you.
Who You Really Are, is not part of the drama inflicted on you by your father!.
Next time you meet him, watch yourself while interacting with him, as if it was a film.
No matter how uneasy it may be, watch your emotions as if they were not you – be a secret and neutral witness to whatever is happening in the moment.
Take a step back and watch.
The moment you stop identifying with these overwhelming feelings,
you will gain a new and healthy perspective.
This new perspective is the real space within you. It is the healing space of
your awareness.
Even a short glimpse of this unutterable inner place, is enough so the shift
within can initiate.
Trust this glimpse! This immediate “thrill” is the key to your healing. Let
this process unfold!
LET YOUR SOUL TELL YOU ANOTHER MORE BEAUTIFUL STORY!
Remember that this whole range of negative feelings is eventually not more than
random fiction, take my word for this, a story maintained and perpetuated
by your ego!
Julien Matei
