Beyond reflection
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Belief breeds separation
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Every belief demeans you as believing spawns limitation. Every belief is actually a choice you make against the totality of Who You Are.
Love needs no belief.
Only fear does.
Can we surrender to the natural process, allowing it to heal us?
2014/04/16 1 Comment
Tom:
These days I need very much to clear my head. Stress is like a jacket that I can’t take off. I will breath and sit and walk. Seek solitude, stillness. I will regain myself.
Me:
Like never before, these last days I have been under a lot of pressure too. Stress has felt like a straitjacket. Really as if there was no escape.
So in those moments you feel totally cornered. Choice-less. As if whatever you try is of no avail.
Oftentimes I realize with astonishment that we might just as well have given ourselves the right answers long before, but have a hard time to integrate and act on them. In this sense your earlier comment is very enlightening:
“What I pursue always eludes me. What I treasure simply comes to me.
This is such an important thing. To pursue an objective is to set up a duality that dooms the very effort. We feel a sense of failure when we don’t get our hands on what we seek. And we feel unsatisfied when we do.”
Now, this may sound infeasible:
But against all odds, and without any sentimentality, COULD WE TREASURE THIS ANGUISH, OR STRESS – as we call it – as if it was a precious treasure? Could we…?
Instead of hardly struggling to take it off, to get rid of it through different “methods” – breathing and sitting and seeking solitude – , could we just contemplate our harsh predicament with greatest equanimity?…
Can we apply your insight here, namely to let go of the “duality that dooms the very effort”, seeing the pursuit to heal as a total failure, and instead surrender to the natural process, allowing it to truly heal us?…
Only the projection – which is the outcome of duality – can be “regained”, whereas Oneness – who we really are – can neither be gained nor lost.
LOVE – the ultimate relief from memory
2013/12/20 30 Comments
She:
I was reading your post “Memory is fear of now”.
I do not pretend to understand all of what you say of course but I do not agree that all memories are vapid dreams. There are things we should let go of no doubt, things which hold us back. But there are memories which deserve to be remembered and yes, even those which can be counted on.
I was just thinking, if you forgot me today, it would hurt me. I cannot explain why, I’ve never met you, I don’t know if I even understand you. But if you wiped your memory clean of me, it might help you lessen your burden but in doing so you have effectively created a void where I was. What is that, if not a barrier or wall?
Me:
That´s interesting:
“If you forgot me, it would hurt me.”
Let´s suppose I did – which is not the case in reality.
Really…stay a moment with this question and ponder: Is it really my forgetting which would upset and hurt you?
Or is it something else here worth considering?…
Let´s put it like this: As you never met me in “reality”, you have never made the experience of me. And despite this never experiencing or understanding me, you would still feel a loss if I “disappeared” from your life.
Isn´t it so? When we feel loss, we feel hurt, we fall short on something important.
Look at this dispassionately: when our false sense of safety is jeopardized, we are threatened – it is quite obvious.
So what is the real Loss here, can we give a satisfactory answer to that?
The funny thing is that unbeknownst, you have given yourself the Answer.
If we replaced “you” with “I” that would be quite a message to yourself:
“If I wiped my memory clean of me, it might help me lessen my burden and in doing so I have effectively created a void where I was.”
If you “managed” to do that, you would instantly know: This Void is Who You Truly Are, but is seen as a barrier or a wall, inasmuch as it is invested with fear.
And Ego is and directly derives from this seemingly relentless Fear.
Ego´s constant fear of Loss is ultimately fear to lose itself.
Whatever It does, it eternally reinforces itself, carrying along the burden of yesterday, turning it into a memory of tomorrow.
The mad ego fears Life, and its function is to keep you away from this direct and immediate “experience”.
Where Ego ceases, LIFE – which is “the real You” – begins.
When Fear is dissolved, you will need no memory, as you will simply “know”.
And this “pure Knowledge” is the memory-less breath:
LOVE
Silence all inner noise
2013/12/05 Leave a comment
If you want to know Who You Truly Are, defect from it all.
Can’t you be what you already are?…
2013/08/05 1 Comment
Essence needs no exercise.
Why do you need to be one thing, or another?…
We are the story of our deluded Mind
2013/06/13 2 Comments
I wrote earlier today:
“Here and now” is too scary…- “there and then” is our constant choice.
We eagerly and diligently kill the moment, before it has a chance of being born”
Magnus´commented on Facebook:
“There is no “now”!
Everything is either then or after-wards.
When our minds have interpreted all impressions the present moment
has already passed.”
This is highly enlightening. Startling really. He puts forward the outlook
shared by many:
Now is nonexistent. Everything – Life! – is “then” or “after”.
“After what…really?”, I asked him.
Quite extraordinary to realize the way of the Mind.
Can you see that Mind is the outcome of an arbitrary division?
It´s stuck between a fix point calling it “then”, and a potential “after”.
Both “then” and “afterwards” are pure abstractions, – quite obvious.
Of course, Magnus´“then”, is in all likelihood very real in his experience,
but for whoever else, his projection of “then” is pure imagination.
Mind projects itself into an eternal “after” trying eventually to find safety,
through isolating itself in its invented duality.
“Now” is the Mind´s greatest threat in its immutable quest for security.
With other words, Now, – meaning pure and simple Life, as Life is always this
present moment – is the ultimate danger for the obsessively restless and
safety-seeking mind.
You can see clearly that “afterwards” is a preposterously loony abstraction,
as much as “then” is. Mind goes obviously from abstraction to another abstraction,
from false interpretation to another, struggling hard for its existence.
Abstraction breeding abstraction, breeding further abstractions in infinite distractions…
A delusional entity seeking to perpetuate a fix point – that´s what Mind is:
PURE MADNESS.
Now, as I approach this ubiquitous scenario in this way, you do agree with me that this
looks like a crazy masquerade. Yet, this “story told by an imbecile” is what Humanity takes for real life!…
Quite amazing isn´t it?
To summarize:
Mind is an abstraction deriving directly from Fear of Now – Life…
Time is thus the invention of the Fearful Mind fleeing itself in two arbitrary divisions:
Past and Future.
None of them is real. Likewise the entity who invented them – Mind.
The only time existing is NOW.
This Now beyond division is Who You Are.
Julien Matei
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